Posts made by A. B.

I was just trying to contact them (a week or two later) to apologise and say that the RL issues responsible had now subsided and I'd got my head back together and would they consider giving me a second chance, and I'd avoid posting in the OOC discussion channel at all just to be sure. And I came here to do it only because Spirit Lake happens to have one and only one line of contact and that's the game itself.
I really think that's reasonable enough.

As for "arguing privately with someone who has asked you not to contact them personally", you got that back to front, if you mean what I think you mean - I started by sending Tat a private message, and then when there was no response at all I posted on here to ask if they'd got it, and it was after that that they posted on here saying not to and I haven't sent them any more. I wouldn't do that.

Not in position to or would.

The thing is, I don't KNOW when I'm doing something wrong. I might be nervously wondering if I'm doing something wrong, but by now that's my permanent state all the time when I'm saying anything at all in any kind of chat thing, hence it doesn't tell me anything. (In fact being in such a yammering state of nerves is probably half the reason why I end up getting into a state in chats and being thrown out as an undesirable. It's a horrible vicious circle. Hence why it would have been a really big step forward if I could have made it up with Spirit Lake.) And what happened in Spirit Lake indicates that I won't know until I suddenly get thrown out. I don't know what to do.

I know, I know, unpaid counsellors. But since we're already talking about it.

Re characters - hm, that's promising, then. Thank you for that, you two. Now I just need a reason for my character to be sobbing hysterically. Any ideas? I know, I know, make up your own ideas, you lazy devil. ;-D

Ominous - Well, I didn't want to do it publicly, only Tat seems to insist on talking to me here rather than in the private chat I sent to begin with. I've no interest in dragging anyone through mud. I would rather drag myself through MUDs. Maybe I shouldn't even have said what I did, but after Tat said that in front of everyone I wanted to say that there were two sides to it.

It occurs to me - is screaming and howling in tears OK in character, usually, in MUs? Because my role-playing characters are usually very mechanical and colourless indeed and bore me and everyone else, owing, I think, to me laboriously trying to mechanically mimic a thoroughly normal and average person with nothing particular on their mind. Hence maybe a bit of wealth redistribution wouldn't go amiss there, if you reckon there's a chance of it being OK for a character to get upset!

Ominous - afraid I have no idea what you mean. Given your sig, I assumed I wasn't meant to.

Main problem is that I'm now much more of a quivering bundle of nerves even than I was before and if I join any other game, I will just burst into tears and howl that they're going to throw me out, I know they are, until they do throw me out for acting weird in their chat. That was the main reason why I was anxious to try and retrieve things with Spirit Lake, now the crisis was over - I thought if it was possible to retrieve things after all, I might get back a bit of my confidence. But it seems I was right to have no confidence, I shouldn't ever attempt to speak to people again :'-(

Yes, I should never have gone on there in that state - but I was also desperate for company, what can you do...

I would like to know what else but an angry tone somebody can respond in who has been, in their honest opinion, unfairly banned from a game, and then taken to task in front of a lot of strangers for trying to appeal and even apologise (you didn't see the private message I sent Tat). Believe me, I have been making a big effort to tone it down as much as I can.

Well, I suppose I could do "howling in tears" just as well as "angry", but that never goes down well either.

Incidentally, to everyone else - any advice on locating one of these mythical "other more suitable MUs"? In a separate thread probably.

Hey, it was not my idea to contact you through this site. I was advised to do that by somebody else, who I didn't mention as I didn't know if they'd like that. I mean I'm sorry if it gave you a fright, but it was not my idea. (I'd never even heard of this site before. I was going to send a PM via the AresMUSH forum, but I couldn't register owing to a technical glitch.)

As for my wittering in the game, seriously I was barely in my right mind at the time, you can't go by that. (I am NOT going to go into what was going on, not here, just want to say that I don't mean I was high, as it sounds rather like that!)

I do think (and I want to say this in front of everybody) that before banning somebody without warning, it would be only decent to actually tell them that you want them to stop rabbiting on and see if that does it. (Especially somebody who has already told you that they have Asperger's syndrome, and therefore a tin ear for guessing what somebody is not saying just from the tone of their wording.)

Yes, I am angry.

Hi, I'm trying to get in touch with a Spirit Lake staff member - I can't contact them through the MUSH system itself, for reasons connected with why I'm trying to contact them in the first place, and I haven't been able to locate any other contact details for them anywhere on the website. Can somebody contact me by chat? (I sent a chat message to Tat a couple of days ago but haven't had any reply - maybe e didn't see it.)