Compliments.

I'm not trying to brag, I promise. This is an appeal to positive feedback.

It was just one person telling me I was nailing something I'm trying to do. And it meant so much to hear that. You see someone being awesome IC or OOCly, tell them. It's very affirming and positive. We need more positivity is the hobby as a whole.

I'm trying to practice what I'm preaching. I'm bad at it. Out of fear and shyness. I still pass out the atta-persons as much as I can.

If you are staff this is a fine line. When I was staff, I would send praise on cool names, interesting back stories or creative setting of stats at CG.

Just be kind out there. We will all be better for it.

Getting in with an awesome group of RPers and telling them as much. Sharing the love feels great.

We really need to be more supportive of one another. Ain't a whole lot of us left and even less that are very good or try very hard.

I'll add a little something that was of mild concern to me before I jumped in at story one: Isle of Dread. World building. I asked myself if I cared if the worlds were underdeveloped in this proposed cycle of stories. I decided I cared more about the character ideas and moved on along.

And then Prosperity's Price happened. The island was fun, short and experimental. I had personal RL issues during Aliens and Sci-Fi isn't my genre. The combo made for bad decisions and a bad time but it's on me. Not on the game. I was glad to move to a new setting. Historical at that!

Oh lord, Prosperity exists. It's as well formed and built in my mind as a game I've been playing for years. My character (The Confidant as archetype), is as real and bound to me as much as any character I have ever played. He and I are so twisted that horror and tragedy within the story have affected me in RL which, of course, speaks to my own insanity but it speaks to the world that has been built by The Director and the other PCs.

My boy has friends, family, loves, dreams and all of those things are crumbling before his eyes in slow motion and by the time any scene is over I need a day or two to disengage. Tears have been shed. It's been a very intense experience and I am happy to say I haven't had any OOC drama to make things worse or more intense as drama bleeds in. No no no. This is my fault. I aimed for a different exploration of the Archetype and just made myself sad.

It's awesome. We, as the characters, feel a little bit like soldiers in the trenches. Just holding it together until it's over for better or worse. Praying for the best and expecting the worse. Let's not go into characters with TB that are doomed no matter what.

It's been stunning but I am so, so, so ready for Slasher that holds the promise of being lighter and funnier. That said, I don't expect the world to be any less vivid or the characters to pack less punch. It'll just be different.

Thanks for coming to my TedRP talk.

Hitting it off with a stranger. Shy Goldfish counts these as blessings.

When your PC gets their Crowning Moment. If you could bottle that feeling, you could be a billionaire.

I love researching for a new character. I mean, I'm a nerd and I know I probably overdo it but I just end up learning so much! Today, it's income demographics of an American state. Then I wondered why people were so poor around a certain area. This lead me further down the wikihole...I ain't back yet. All because I wasn't happy with the character being from Large, Popular City, USA.

Yesterday, it was the history of midwives, the day before might have been an extensive study on old western slang. Over the years, I have gathered a wealth of information about subjects all over. It may have only been relevant for a short time but it sticks with you.

When you are in a scene or making plans with someone and you realize that nerdy pretendy fun times really is cooperative storytelling and it's awesome and it's the most fun one can have for free as far as I'm concerned.

Something I started doing when I am feeling like world's worst RPer with the worst ideas ever and WHY am I even doing this is this: If the game as reccs, or a similar system and you get some? Keep them. If a friend is super awesome to you. Log it. Keep the things that in that moment, remind you why you fight with the drama, internal and external.

And then, when it sucks. Find your files of love and reread them. It feels kinda self-indulgent, to me, at first. Like I'm lounging in all the nice things but their ain't but a handful. I lost a lot in a HDD crash of '17 so it's a slow rebuild. A reviewed a few the other night and I came away feeling a lot better, esp since I still talk to those people. The reminder that you aren't total trash is good for you.

You have friends and they seem to keep talking to you and RPing and bouncing ideas and whatever. They like you. You like them. And a disagreement or ruffled feathers won't break a bond worth keeping.

From one anxiety sufferer to another, I wish you peace, @Cupcake.

When you establish a past connection OOCly with a near stranger and when it comes up ICly, you and that player work so, so well together.

Just going back and forth over some story about how they met, for example. It's pure co-operation storytelling and it's the very best.

I'm probably going to regret this. Here's my playlist as best I can remember. I have alt issues.

Ghosts of Baddies Pasts
The Reach: Many. MANY. But the all-stars were William, Travis, Trigger, Parisa, and Maisie. Staffed as Kinglake/Blacksburg
Reno 1.0: Matt and Birdene
Fallcoast: Jamie, Patrick and Vijay
BITN: Wyatt and Aisha
Reno 2.0: Virginia, Betsy, and Gael, Moira, Jesse, Shane and Ruby
Fallen World: Sugar, Lash
NOLA: Silas
Reno 3.0: Staffed as Clicker, Played as Shane and Nick
Calaveras: Calvin

Current
HorrorMU: The Confidant
Echoes In The Mists: Staff as Blackwater, Play as Travis and Garrett

A face can set my creativity on fire. PBs often come before or right alongside a concept. Occasionally, I will be lazy and just pick my favorite thirst trap of the moment but a lot of the time, PB choice is as important as the background and stats.

@Auspice said in ITT: Names You Always See:

Jack.

@deadculture said in ITT: Names You Always See:

William

100% that bitch here.

William is just one of my favorite names IRL so...

And I juuust named a character Jack after a decade of playing games where it was already taken. I'm going to have this.

Reconnecting with old friends and partners.

I am so, so fortunate that THREE whole people have come back into my little online world in just this past week or so. I have a hard time making and keeping friends when there is no drama involved. Add in drama and it's usually a done deal.

I cherish my friends dearly because of this so to have them come back, happy, refreshed and wanting to actually play with me? ME? I'm a happy fishy.

Compliments.

I'm not trying to brag, I promise. This is an appeal to positive feedback.

It was just one person telling me I was nailing something I'm trying to do. And it meant so much to hear that. You see someone being awesome IC or OOCly, tell them. It's very affirming and positive. We need more positivity is the hobby as a whole.

I'm trying to practice what I'm preaching. I'm bad at it. Out of fear and shyness. I still pass out the atta-persons as much as I can.

If you are staff this is a fine line. When I was staff, I would send praise on cool names, interesting back stories or creative setting of stats at CG.

Just be kind out there. We will all be better for it.

I swear us Pepsi fans must live in shame somewhere. Where are my people?

I don't ST often. I can't really organize a whole plot or a whole story of mystical elements. I could run combat on the basis and agreement that I'm not gonna nitpick and I do run a less than mechanically tight scene. There was a time when I would do template changes but I can't quite retain all of the template fluff (I'm speaking of WOD here) that I used to.

Either way, I really, really prefer more intimate, character driven sort of scenes. I've offered for this corner of STing that I think is not served. And it's character fluff type stuff. People pick up merits like Mentor or just have certain people in their background or as NPCs and as much as I like plot, characters feed my soul.

In addition, I had the idea at one game I was at to run scenes like "Let's roll your obscure dice." or "Wanna show off? Wanna flex your powers without flexing at a fellow a PC?"

They would be small. You want an NPC for a dying mother? Tell me about her. We'll talk and I'll make it happen for you, as best I can. PC can stop me at anytime and be like, naw, not my mom. We adjust, etc.

I always want to rustle around BGs and do backscenes and meet the special people who matter in a character's life. I like deep dive into my character and I end up writing vignettes and sometimes I post them. Most of the time, I feel isolated because so much is in my head for any given character

So if anyone other there who cares about you character development and think it made be super awesome to get into your backstory and connections or chat with a sage mentor or whatever. I got that on lock.

Apparently @tragedyjones and I have a similar history. Down to our first MU (his "modern") and time period of entrance on the scene and staffing on TR. We kinda grew up together and that's kinda neat. RIP BITN.

Anyway, I've never held any strong opinions. I'm just easy like that. Or two faced. or I'm an indecisive fence sitter. Maybe I am just easily swayed. I won't even weigh in on that.

But I have said for years that Mage is a single sphere only game. I want someone to change my mind so badly. So, so badly.

An update. I am becoming pervasive.

For those keeping score at home: Third use of Norman Reedus. He's my muse. That's just what's fucking up.

@Goldfish said in Sexuality: IC and OOC:

Words I said four months ago

So alllll of that became irrelevant. Still go with Queer because "Really, I'm more on the Asexual spectrum but pan-romantic." sounds like I fell out of Tumblr and landed on planet earth. Still cis woman of color. That don't wash off.

The roster? Boys still rule the day BUT some are LGBTQ+. One is a man of color. And a WOMAN has entered the fray. And I am enjoying her immensely. (The secret was to play a woman over 35. Even though I am not.)

Point of this post? Apparently, I stumbled into exploring different sexualities and attractions and ages and races in my characters and I am having a lot of fun I wasn't having before. So. Get outta that rut, y'all.

I always say, if I don't shed a tear, the story didn't hit me right. Though that didn't start until the weepfest that was Prosperity. Every night with these people. All the tissues. And I have sniffled ever since, at least twice.