@kk Thank you.
It doesn't help that like most MUSHers, I do struggle with social anxiety and depression. I have that struggle with imposter syndrome etc. So it's kind of triggering to find out that yeah, actually, the shoulder demon was correct with these certain individuals.
Which is totally on me, I guess. Kinda goes back to maybe this hobby isn't for me anymore, no matter how good it has been to me in the past.
@Caryatid Thanks guys. This basically confirms that I am doing everything I can to be adult and not toxic. I have actually sacrificed my rp time for the past two weeks over this latest one, trying to do exactly what you described, and got no where. It was pulling teeth to get them to even admit there was a problem. (And my free time is exceedingly small, as I usually have to work 11 hour days or more.)
If I attempt to address things openly but everyone involved rejects that attempt, I guess there's no where to go with it. Even typing this up is making me realize it's coconuts that I spent this much time trying to make things work, given my life situation.
It's a small MUSH community, and it's time to take the hint, I guess.
@Ghost I am thinking I might put together some low key MOTW games. I have been wanting to do that for a while. Maybe if I can locate some people in my time zone, I can get something started.