@il-volpe I mean...the statement is just basic truth regardless of who it comes from. That there are variations in skill level when it comes to evoking a character, setting up situations that are compelling, creating a vibe, etc...that's also just basic truth. That some have more "coin of the realm" (ideas) either due to base talent or experience or the willingness to cultivate...also just basic truth. Or OOC self-management skills in re: coming across as someone who is not likely to become a headache later by blowing up into some big emotional OOC mess because you forgot to pose whether or not you liked the fruitcake they clearly posed putting on the table or because Any Number of Other Reasons Big Emotional Scenes of Some Uncomfortable Variety take place.
None of this is a commentary on you btw, these are very generalized observations.
The good news is, there's always room to learn, grow, to learn new techniques, to improve OOC emotional regulation or negotiation skills...or to find people who are on your wavelength. Everyone has somewhere they can grow. I sure as hell have multiple places I could stand to grow.
And the flip side of "wow I have an anxiety problem" is "wow a staggering number of people in this hobby share the anxiety..." which is also good news, because it also means that there are others just waiting to be met, too. Not all of us can get along, or like each other, or get each other, but there are usually oh, probably...four or so floating around, at least, who can get each of us.
So I mean you know, IDK about top of your game, so much as not getting discouraged, staying chill, looking for new ways to become effective at generating what you want out of the experience and both finding your folks and staying open to finding your folks without falling into the uh...MUSHer's Swamp of Sadness, so to speak. You'll never feel as wanted or as sure of yourself as you or anyone probably wants to feel...but you can probs focus on providing entertainment so that you in turn are entertained, and that is a more reliable metric than whether or not the brain weasels are fed.