Here's a board that we can use for what MU Gripes and Peeves used to be for. Those little things that start to build up and build up and you just kind of feel like you need to get them off your chest before they explode or eat you alive.
I can start:
I feel like i've been working hard lately to make a group work on a game. I've been coming up with plots and doing a lot of other stuff to make it feel cohesive and engaged and just in-general fun for the people working it.
And then something happened. Something, by all accounts, relatively minor. But that minor little thing stuck in my brain and just won't let go. It's a rabid little brainweasel and it refuses to die no matter how much 'you are being irrational' salt I pour on this thing.
And so now -- I'm still doing the thing before. Finding out how to grow the group, finding out how to make things awesome and get people playing and having fun --
But now I can't help but think 'but you need an escape plan in case this thing that should be No Big Deal turns out to be a Big Deal'.
And that is a terrible place to be in, headspace-wise. It sucks. It just sucks.
I was apping in a character, because there's some history with the particular bit I find somewhat.. problematic. But it's that history everyone seems to cling to.
Then I got Covid, and creativity diiiiiiiiied. So now I'm putting it together piece by tiny piece.
I hate the feeling I get staring at a place I would likely be welcome back to, but feeling as if I can't go back.
It's like staring at the picture of your ex. You know the one -- the one where things just didn't work out, and it's no one's fault. You want to believe that if you give it just one more chance --
-- but anyhow, I know I shouldn't, so I won't, and be content wrapping myself up in thing after thing in RL, until I forget.