Posts made by surreality

Checking into this thread first before diving into the drama posts, best pre-coffee.

Having to clear/clean organize a ton of stuff before getting to play with the small new creative toy this morning, awful always.

Clearly the way to get me to clean and organize when I don't want to is dropping some cheap new toy to play with in my lap that requires me to do so.

I really, really hope my husband never catches on to this, no matter how ungodly obvious it is that it happens on the regular.

ETA: Somehow I feel this exact same post belongs in the ADD thread. It's seriously ADD crafter life in a nutshell. New coping strategy? Not really; it is how the clutter grows, too, after a while...

@faraday You legitimately deserve it, and more. You do not deserve the bullshit abuse people are flinging. Not even the tiniest bit. I am really sorry to see it happening to you.

@Tinuviel Considering what opiates do to my body chemistry, I have never wanted to find out what narcotics would do.

Though I did snort coffee out my nose reading this, which I suppose might be just as effective. Dammit.

Up the nose. Up the nose is serious suffering. And you can't escape the smell for days, you just can't.

PTSD is not a wonderland of joy and delight.

It's been a pretty bad day in terms of the most common trigger. It was not fun being that terrified 9-10 year old then, and it is not fun feeling like that terrified 9-10 year old again at 46 while fighting off panic attacks and tension cramps.

But, I won today. The PTSD didn't win. It's something, even if I am so emotionally exhausted I feel like someone clubbed me half to death with a baseball bat for how terribly my body's twisted into a knot.

The shitty part is knowing the panic side of things won't let me sleep for a long fucking time yet, and I could really use it right now.

The extra shitty part is that I can't take any more ibuprofen today, and I still have to be amazingly careful ever taking tylenol thanks to the same stupid fucking liver stones that don't let me booze it up through things like today's stupid dramas.

@Seamus No one is making any claims that anyone is perfect. Everyone has flaws and everyone fucks up.

The appropriate response to that is to respect the good and handle the consequences for the bad.

'I don't have to respect the good because <person> isn't perfect' is utter nonsense, just like 'the bad person does cannot have any negative consequences because they did this good thing, too' is utter nonsense.

We are adults, goddammit. This is not something that should be difficult for adults to understand.

Another of those days in which 'at least I don't have to live in that headspace all the time' is likely the best to be said about it.

Yeesh.

While that's definitely a good thing, the things that bring it to light are more annoying than I wish they were. I seriously need to focus on not undervaluing the blessing part of things more often/heavily.

@Wretched I had a half sentence just dangling in a paragraph earlier today in a post, so I feel you.

No one will ever be able to effectively fake my writing style because I swear I'm the only idiot that has posts or poses full of shit like:

The reason it's really important is because once you start

You know it's a problem when the

The key to all of this is

No one ever would expect it from <name>, but she immediately

Then, the moment she's been waiting for finally arrives, and she

...not just intros. That'll be the whole damned thing, just dangling there making everyone just 'AND THEN?!' into the great beyond because it'll be three posts or poses later before I realize it happened if nobody outright asks.

...I edit a whole lot. A LOT.

@Wretched I feel that so hard. So hard. Finishing sentences is important.

@Auspice said in PB 'realism':

My preference for shells over elbow macaroni

OMFG NEVER SPEAKING TO YOU AGAIN

(Actually, I'm the same way. They're just prettier goddammit and they scoop cheese gloop better and if I'm gonna carb, that all fucking matters.)

@peasoupling I ended up finding a second pic for build and just labeling it as 'build only' the one time I needed this. It helped some, combined with the face closeup.

@Auspice ...countdown to the totally reasonable 'pick imagery appropriate to the game you're playing' being represented as overly picky and bigoted and the reason the hobby is in a death spiral. I'll get the vodka ready if you want some.

@Groth True, but it isn't impossibly hard. I spent a few years making skins for them, and I'm not a tech wiz by far.

@Apos I know some folks use Poser or DAZstudio for that already. Results... vary.

@Seamus Probably, but... that would mean having to read that book.

@TheOnceler said in PB 'realism':

some kind of were-ferret

...how dare this not be a thing anywhere that I know of.

I would just be careful that she isn't being totally obnoxious in that 'well I said I was coming to the area you should have inferred that that means I'm coming to stay with you' bullshit, since it sounds like she may be the type to whine up a storm (of the 'even if the parents know she did wrong they may cave and grouse at you instead of her just to shut her up' variety) that would cause more angst and drama for you.

I like Shang's '+glance' for the 'more than a short desc, but just the facts'. It has skin, eye, and hair color, species(? I think?), height and weight/build, and displays under the short desc line.

@Auspice The juras are gorgeous... and that one isn't totally unreasonable, actually. They're on the lottery house wishlist for real, in part because their importer/service center is not a zillion miles from here. Also they have some models that have a double bean hopper, so you can have decaf/caf in the same machine seamlessly, mostly for business/office use. (The husband is well aware that lottery dream house would likely have a bump in home insurance costs purely for the coffeemakers that'd be strewn all over it.)