@Paris said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:
This is me with Oxy.
Same. Rarely, rarely, percocet will get me into 'sit and stare at the wall in a daze' but not generally.
Ambien used to work, doesn't anymore. Trazodone doesn't work night-of, but leaves me feeling drugged the next day.
I hate my body's resistance. 
i just like gifs
Ahem.
Okay.
Joke reply aside:
I think a lot of times it happens because we are bundles of nervous little bunnies.
So what happens is we think: oh gosh this is really bothering me but I am utterly terrified to talk to this person directly because they might yell at me!
So I'm gonna hop on over here and talk to this other person and get it off my chest.
Here's where the mistake happens: there's nothing wrong with this in theory.
But think about who you're talking to and how you say it.
Does the person you're talking to know the person you're talking to?
a. If not, proceed and say whatever. (But, tbh, you should prob be kind anyway.)
b. If so, be mindful of what you're saying. Because it is almost guaranteed to get back to them.
The other part of being nervous little bunnies is that when we see one person finally speak up in public, we think 'ah-ha! they can't/won't yell at me now! there are witnesses!' and so we jump in and say what we've been thinking because someone else started it!
But see, the person that became the target is also a nervous little bunny and suddenly instead of one person pointing the finger at them there's two, then three, then four... and holy shit that nervous little bunny is pooping pellets all over the place.
Let's not fill the place with bunny poop y'all.
Mostly just remember: as nervous and anxious as you are, so is prob the other person. We aren't all emotionless robots. (And even the emotionless robots have emotions sometimes.)
@Apu said in Things We Should Have Learned Sooner:
That just because someone is nice to me doesn't mean they're my friend. I need to stop being so trusting and naive. I've gotten a lot better about it over the years, especially since March of this year, but people still manage to slip in under my radar and hurt me.
All the hugs. 
@Cupcake said in The ethics of IC romance, TS, etc:
@Auspice But then it's not masturbation!
Well I meant when they stick their IC finger up your IC ass.
Semantics!
In Utah!
Driving through the eclipse was wild. 
Staff doesn't always know what they're doing.
Staff doesn't always ... plan for things.
We don't keep things on rails, much as it might look like we are.
And when you're staffing on a team, sometimes the right hand doesn't talk to the left.
What are the moments where things went wildly off the rails? In a good way? In a bad way? In a hilarious way?
For my SGM players:
Pagan shooting at that statue was unplanned. I think it threw @Paradox's plans off the rails. I'm not sure how far off. He didn't tell me.
In the end, it fucked up my own plot. I was the ruination of my own plot, as Staff. I can't say I've ever done that. I had to scramble to plan out something new for a contingency plan.
It's not that Paradox and I don't plan with each other, but we're more 'meet once a week to compare notes' than keep each other on the same page at all times (this way we can play in each other's scenes).
So yes, my own PC's actions set off a chain of events that fucked up my own plot.
Has anyone ever done the same?
Have you ever placed something in a scene that PCs picked up on that set off a chain of events that ruined the plot in the long-term? Because I've absolutely done that, too. (Hello, well. I'm never putting a goddamn well in a scene as flavor again lemme tell you what.)
@Meg said in RL things I love:
@Auspice look. There's a long story there.
I bet it's as glorious as the art itself! And the frames!
Months ago, a friend came to me to tell me (paraphrased) 'hey, this is awks, but I don't feel comfortable talking to you regularly while knowing it... but surr told me this stuff about your personal life and I thought you should know that I know <insert accurate details here.>'
One example of someone knowing about my sex life.
Last winter, the person I slept with reached out to me to check on me and ask how I was doing because lo and behold screenshots of my conversation with surr (as in something only she or I could have handed out and I'm sorry but why would I have done so?) had gotten to him. I mean, major props to him for being more concerned about my well-being than upset about them going around, but.
I don't know who gave them to him, but it means that surreality shared them with at least one person.
So, yes, fucking yes. My personal life got shared by someone who is going around claiming she's not and the only way she's allowing me to prove it is to share my personal life?
It was rubbing salt in the wound when she PM'd me yesterday to insist that it wasn't her, that she doesn't engage in talking about peoples' personal lives and that other people knew about it at the time (which I can believe for reasons I won't go into here, but also doesn't negate the about two scenarios and also)... I didn't reply to the PM, because what was I going to do? Say 'OK' and ... absolve her? Or refute it and... well, likely end up with this very thread. So I decided to simply say nothing because I felt trapped.
I am posting this largely because I feel the initial demand, to 'disclose' if people had personal info shared with them is horrifying. Because it proposes this scenario of having to disclose other peoples' lives publicly to prove guilt. And even in my doing so here, without screenshots (aka 'the sordid details,') someone can come in and just wave it off as 'well you have no proof) and it's distressing.
Why has no one ever given me a naked lady painting?!
ETA: I didn't even know they made fuzzy ones until now. It is my new mission to haunt yard sales to find one.
@Packrat said in Serious Question About Making A MU:
@bored It does not help that quite a lot of games have implemented FS3 without the people running it actually reading the documentation at all. I have been on more than one where various stances/weapons/whatever have actually been doing the opposite of their stated intention with staff utterly oblivious until I pointed it out to them.
Things like shields making it easier to hit you, that kind of stuff.
@Seraphim73 and I may have sighed at one another a time or ten about people not reading the rules.
I mean. There's fewer rules to FS3 than D&D or WoD. Cmon. 
More a 
This is why we have check-in/walk-through lists for new apartments, I guess.
Air-con isn't working right. It's on, set to something like 68-ish or whatever.... but still reading at 80 and humid and sticky and gross. Curse it all! I was looking forward to blessed AC!
So I'm only opposed to TS being posted because of how many people (myself included!) that read wikis at work. And while there is tagging (thanks, Fara, for including that in a recent update!), people don't always remember to tag.
No one wants inconsistency to lead to trouble. (And I guess sure there's the 'don't read at work,' but lol we all gonna anyway and what about during breaks? lunch? etc.)
Anyhow: so many people log errthing these days that I just assume the TS is logged.
@Aria said in Random links:
Iām Guy Who's Just Trying To Jerk Off But There's A Bird Lizard Yelling At Him!
I too am this guy.
@Ghost said in TS - Danger zone:
For the record, just in case anyone wants to cross into OOC with me, my safe word phrase is:
"Girl, your area smell like taco meat"
It ensures that the sex will stop, though it may cause further beating.
........beating the meat?
Phone call from my mother to check on me turned into her ranting about my brother. Of my four siblings, he's doing the best for himself. Sure, he still lives at home (he's 21), but he's had the same job for three years, he's always got a few grand in his account, he always pays them a few hundred dollars a month (without complaint, right at the start of the month), and whenever they need help financially, he's right there to do so.
But he spends money on video games! And video game paraphernalia!
My other three siblings are messes in their own ways. And absolutely terrible with money. But he buys figurines.
I know it just boils down to the fact that they're upset that 4 of their 5 kids aren't 'right.' They have three sons and all three hate sports, are useless with cars, and one is gay while the other two have never been brave enough to ask a girl out.
My sister, the 'pride and joy,' can steal money from them, but have it waved off because she's 'such a good Christian girl.'
But it just grates on me how often my mom complains about my one brother. More than the rest, despite how he's, comparatively, fucking up less than all the rest of us. I'd love to see him get his own place, sure. I agree with her on that front. But he's a damn good kid and he has one fucking hobby that isn't even an abnormal one these days.
I do want to point out that 'RL spouse getting angry' isn't something to hold against the person.
I had that happen. I casually mentioned TS (as a thing that I did sometimes; not like a specific scene lol) once because he knew I RP'd. He LARPed. He'd been an MMO RPer. I figured it was nbd.
Boy flipped his shit at me. Now, I want to say I didn't bring it on the game or say anything. I don't think I did because I got mad at him for it. @Ghost can fact check me tho cause this happened while Cyri and Nitrim were a thing.
Anyway. RL SOs aren't something to lump in with the rest IMO.
@WTFE Social media has, honestly, ruined people in so many ways.
Shootings are an example of this. And call me an asshole for that if you want.
In 2002, two men killed 10 people in the DC area. It ended up, over the three weeks, a rather frequent topic on national television. If it happened today, I know it'd be constant on social media. Non-stop. It'd be all anyone talked about and no one would bat an eye about it.
At the time, however, I had a few people on MU*s that knew I lived local bitch at me about how sick they were of their news covering an event that wasn't local to them.
Something major, violent, and rather terrifying to local people. Again, nowadays, those same people would probably be dogpiling on anyone in such an area with sympathy and well-wishes, and 'OH MY GOD I'M SO SCARED FOR YOU' but at the time it was 'ugh I'm three thousand miles away why do I have to hear about this.'
I didn't know about the flooding in Assam and Bihar. But I also give no fucks if you keep up with what's happening here. You've got your own politics, weather, etc etc to follow.
@Coin said in TS - Danger zone:
@Auspice said in TS - Danger zone:
@WildBaboons said in TS - Danger zone:
(like NPC turns into a millions spiders upon climax or something), just skip to that point
I want that page.
Staffer pages you: NPC takes you to his bedroom while the rest of the group remains at the party. You have a good time, but as NPC climaxes... they turn into millions of spiders that swarm all over you... WHAT DO YOU DO?!'
I'm for it.
Are there any girls in room?
Cuz if there are, I wanna doooooo theeeeeeeeem.
<casts magic missile at the darkness>
