I just completed a two year long journey of getting my GED, which involved a lot of things I just didn't think I was ready for. The work needed to play catch up, having to kick myself into a proper schedule for classes, acquiring the work ethic to see it through to the end. It was scary, very scary.
For the first time in a long time I feel like I'm a functional person. I feel like I've proved that to myself. I love that. I love that a lot.
Uh-oh, I'm breaking the rules.
it's really hard to get him out of the fridge because of his monstrous size.
auxiliary line to super duper make sure no spoilers
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I heard cool people hang out here.
Currently only playing Arx as it's my first foray into the MU world, but beforehand I played a lot on old roleplay forums. Specifically for stuff dedicated to Warhammer 40k (Dark Heresy) and Warcraft related stories!
Past
Arx: Daemon †, Modi
Spirit Lake: Morgan (Idled out. Community there was fantastic, sadly didn't have the time to keep up with it. Wish 'em the best!)
Current
Arx: Victus, Abby
Euphoria: Cvegdo
Skippity dee wop de bop hibbity hey shiggity doo wowee zowie man these are some spoilers hohoooooooo big ol spoilers ohhhhhh yeaaaaaaaah brother spoilermania is gonna run wild on you
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@apos I'm actually very glad you said that. I only learned that this hobby was a thing about a year ago, which was also when I signed up to play in my first game. I was kinda blown away by the fact that shared stories and RP existed in this kind of sphere for so long. I can see how difficult it is to get the foot in the door and also stay in it as well, it becomes a real test of wills after sometime.
But personally I like it. I also realize I'm half the age of most folks who have been in this hobby for 20+ years, but it feels like it's got a lot of interesting places to go.
I got some art done of the big guy this week.
Wowee some big ol spoilers over here whoaaaaa look out
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@Aria I've had this issue come up in multiplayer CK2 games where myself and friends just start talking about objectively awful things like it's nothing. Here's a real conversation that happened with nobody batting an eye.
"Hey, can you come kill my firstborn son? He's inbred."
"Sure thing. You should probably break up with your brother so that stops happening."
"Not yet, I wanna try and get an attractive baby."
So I was introduced to Attitude Era professional wrestling when I was 3 years old. My mother grew up during the golden age when Hulk Hogan, Randy Savage, Andre the Giant, Shawn Michaels and Mean Gene Okerlund were on every Saturday night. She didn't think little toddler me watching as well was a problem, so long as I didn't repeat anything I heard.
"Open a can of whoop-ass", "take you down jabroni drive", "check into the Smackdown hotel" and "whipped like a government mule" were several phrases I was specifically barred from saying, alongside a lot of other stuff you could get away with saying on late 90's TV that was trying to be edgy. I said a lot of them anyway when they weren't around to supervise me. A year prior Mankind had been tossed off Hell in a Cell by the Undertaker, who would go on to be my all-time favorite. Two years after that, five year old me was watching Wrestlemania X-7 to see Stone Cold turn heel. I was hooked in DEEP, man.
Alongside this, my step father was pretty big into video games at the time. And he also followed the trend my mother set of introducing me to stuff way past my maturity level so long as I was 'cool' about it. I was playing GTA III at six and seven years old, but I was strictly forbidden from "picking up those girls on the sidewalk in your car".
I fondly remember the first video game I ever finished without a lot of adult help was Metal Gear Solid for the Playstation 1, and I was super proud of myself.
My childhood was pretty much split between playing Playstation 1 and 2 games and being obsessed with professional wrestling, thanks to both of my parents sharing their hobbies with me. Questionable hobbies for a small child to get into, but hey.
Around 2006, The Elder Scrolls: Oblivion came out and ten year old me was introduced to the wonderful world of RPGs. This became my brand new obsession that immediately eclipsed every other one. From then on I only wanted to play story games, I only wanted games where I could create my own characters and could do stuff that effects the game world in non-linear ways. Oblivion was probably my most formative game to cement me into roleplaying later on, though I didn't cut my teeth with trying to write things until I got into World of Warcraft in 2007. Now those days were embarrassing, but I met a lot of fantastic people in my age-group who were like-minded. That was the first time I had so much joy at just writing a character alongside other people.
The cycle of devour RPG media, devour wrestling media, devour video game media in general just continued on and on. About three years ago I finally took a dive into trying tabletop RPGs after being cripplingly scared of playing with strangers for the longest time. I started on Only War and then into Dark Heresy with a friend's campaign, which let me build the courage to try out sites like roll20 and other group-play sites.
That led me to meeting an acquaintance who about two years ago, mentioned this text-based game he was playing that was "like a liberal game of thrones, but you influence the story". And I was like "hell yeah, I want in on that."
That game was Arx and it was my gateway into the MU community in general. And it's been pretty cool overall.
I'd always kinda suspected that I had something wrong with my attention-span, but nobody else was quite so sure. I usually did alright in school and I could hold conversations with people when pressed, so I didn't show any surface level signs that made people immediately suspect something. My diagnosis didn't come till I was already deep into psych and therapist visits for other stuff.
My family has a long history of mental health issues. Bi-polar disorders, anxiety, anger issues, etc. I was getting blown up by a lot of these symptoms from ages 14-19. Sometimes I'd wake up crying and I'd never understand why. Sometimes I'd get so absent minded that I'd just be staring at someone and have no idea what they just said. It was contributing to some overall depression, and on top of that I could barely focus on the stuff I desperately wanted to at the time.
When I was 19 I fired a text off to my step-dad explaining my rampant suicidal tendencies, my actual attempts at suicide, and essentially saying "I don't want to live like this anymore, please help me". I didn't have the courage to call him on the phone, so, that was probably a very scary afternoon that he got that word salad of a message. Luckily he wasn't born into the carnival that the rest of my family was so, he took me very seriously and set me up with a psychiatrist immediately.
Psych had me getting medically tested for a lot of things after we started opening up all the cans of worms. I've had a lot of acronyms stamped on my brain since then. ADHD, MDD, PTSD and such. I told the relative I'm currently living with about that trio and they said, "Really? ADHD? You always seem to do alright at work things when you get into it."
I asked them what they thought about the Post-traumatic stress and major depressive and the response was, "Oh no I believe those, you're sad and traumatized all the time". THANKS AUNTIE, I love you too.
Over the course of the 3-4 years I've been in and out of psych offices they've tried treating me for my ADHD but really there just isn't a lot of stuff that's worked for me yet. I've been on Ritalin in the past but combine that with my anxiety medication and you get a really tweaked out me. Other shit I got going on takes priority than being inattentive or hyperactive from time to time. My medication also acts as a mood stabilizer though, so hey, we got one problem mostly under control.
I don't think I've ever had it quite as severely as most of the people in this thread. I got my GED, I didn't flunk out of classes when I needed to, I don't /always/ blow off friends because I go scatterbrained out of my control. But it's always kinda... there. And the fact that it's not omnipresent in everything I do makes it more difficult to really understand when I'm having an ADHD moment and when I'm just being friggin dumb. Which also makes it difficult to explain to people around me because I'm not usually like this so why am I like this now?
And it all just circles 'round and 'round. It's not so bad, I guess. I get stuff done eventually, I just don't get it done fast, or get it done with full concentration all the time. But stuff happens. I can be alright with that.
I feel like I'm rambling at this point but uh, I hope this kinda gives some insight from another person who's got ADHD baggage. Stuff's hard.
Y’all ever just forget to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner?
As is tradition, updated with new Spirit Lake fellow. Yay, my second MU ever!
The best way I think I've heard this season described is like you're watching a Wikipedia plot synopsis of the show.
The bullet points for the plot are all there, but the journey from A to B that makes it a story aren't. It's a shame, especially knowing that HBO was willing to go extra seasons and extra episodes to fill out those gaps.
Granted, I'm not sure it would've helped given the quality of what we got. But I certainly don't think it could've been worse to have more time to develop stuff.
Updated to commemorate my first death while MUing!
Death Stranding is a game where you throw Norman Reedus' pee and bathwater at ghosts and occasionally stop to rock your pod baby back to sleep.
