@Sunny Right now, no advice short of 'neck yourself and save the trouble' is going to be unhelpful. I'm skimpy on details, location, etc.
We don't. We're so disgustingly rural that the interstate is a twenty mile drive, the nearest town (with like, gas stations and post offices and stores) is another forty, and the nearest 'city' (which includes hospitals, WalMart, fast food) is twenty-four miles past that. There is one hospital within 150 miles, that's actually pretty amazing (husband broke his ribs during one of our vintage mx races, laid around for three days to develop a blood clot and PE before we even realized he had issues and he didn't die, is my frame of reference) that I owe 12k to right now for a 90 minute ER visit from a year ago. The hospital is (surprisingly, if you ask me) unaffiliated with any of the major corporate entities, and while I tried to work with their financial aid department, I am simply unable to provide them with the documentation they require to slot me into any of their programs.
Medicaid would normally be an option but I'm in the red part of Nevada, and one of the bones thrown to these voters is a relatively restrictive process for this that I also lack the documents to even attempt to participate in, not because they don't exist but because I can't afford them and some of them have been lost and needed replacement for so long, the Patriot Act is actually fucking me here and I don't have the money to jump through the hoops.
I know what I need and how to get it, it's just a matter of scraping the money together and I've got to admit that I know that when this passes I'll shuffle doing so right back down to the bottom of the pile because there's just so much stuff for me to field right now.
At any rate, I'm starting to yammer again so let me wrap up by saying I'm going to look into Providence Health - they might have something I just don't know how to connect with, or looking into them might reveal something else that might be an option, so thank you for the suggestion. I do have serious issues being talked to about God, but being sick and in pain tends to blunt my sharp edges about things in general, and I'm not enough of an asshole as to be ungrateful enough to spit at people who are helping me though I thank you for the heads up.
I managed to sleep last night, then got up and made sure to eat something and drink a huge glass of water before even thinking about coffee and so far I'm actually feeling 100%. I'm starting to wonder if it's just something so fucking ridiculous as merely forgetting to eat and drink on top of not sleeping very well because I just don't as a rule. I kind of hope so.
Anyway, thanks a lot, looking into that.
ETA: Sorry, I didn't even realize there was a 'Health and Shit' topic and found it last night, after posting here. Thanks for being cool about it.