Not really MU related(since I don't really play MUs right now), but more RP in general related.
When you make a new TT character you get really excited for because you're playing a one-shot and you have free reign to screw around.
Not really MU related(since I don't really play MUs right now), but more RP in general related.
When you make a new TT character you get really excited for because you're playing a one-shot and you have free reign to screw around.
I've documented at length the health of my lovable old man cat. He turned 16 this year. He had been having problems with a particular nasal infection since March, and after this morning, I took him in for his monthly check up. One urine and blood test later did not reveal good news. While my vet was happy that he had put on a pound of weight to ten pounds, she did note that he had some kind of infection in his kidney or bladder, his hematocrit count is going down which is a sign he's becoming anemic(which is a sign of cancer, but other things as well), vet's pretty sure he has a heart murmur which is just, nothing you can do about that at this point. And his nasal infection is still a thing.
He's going on two new medications, a new antibiotic that's stronger than the stuff he's been on. Along with a steroid. There's a risk it could make some of his issues worse, but it could also make a lot of his other issues better.
The elephant in the room is cancer, which my vet is very suspicious of. She's not certain, but she said if she had to theorize, the evidence she has seems to point to that. But again, she feels positive he can have awhile yet before all options are exhausted. Then again, she's not about expensive CAT scans or sonograms.
I guess I'm writing this because I'm trying to come to gripes with it. He's been with me for so long, and now I'm finally told that I have to start thinking about the end. Because he's starting to enter a downward slide with the eventuality that medications and treatment will not alleviate suffering. So I have to prepare myself to take him down the long walk.
And apart of me wants him to fight for as long as he can, and it's selfish to say it's more for me than for him. That I want him to rage against the dying of light. To not go gently into the good night. And that's wrong of me.
I don't expect him to live out the year. I'm thinking winter, if I"m lucky. I'll be really lucky if he's still here in 2020. But I have to be okay with that. He's doing okay now. Still eating, still hungry. Still drinking. Still sitting next to me. But one day, that's going to be here sooner than I'd like, he's going to be gone. And there will be a gaping hole in my chest.
At least the good news the vet told me is that he probably isn't in any real pain yet. That the worst thing pain wise is the ear irritation he has. So that's something.
I just wanted to rant. Because right now, I feel like I'm fighting something I can't win. Because I can't. Death plays for keeps.
My cat Bubba has been staring at it all month. I'm mildly shocked he hasn't thrown himself at it yet.
@deathbird
There was only one Neil Peart. He stood alone atop the mountain.
Left DnD early tonight because I was tried of being lectured and brow-beaten by one of the player's SOs because I made a mention that I hunt deer and turkey on my family's land.
I can say that it's now our responsibility for keeping the population now that we eliminated natural predators. I can say that by doing so we're practicing good conservationism so that old bucks don't stop mating and start killing young bucks when there become too many in one localized area. I can that it's apart of being stewards of the land, something that my family has taken seriously since we emigrated to the US as my family has consistently been farmers.
I can say all of that, and I still get labeled a murderer and it ruined a good night of tabletop.
I only kind of regret stating that if they kept pressing this issue and not to drop, that I would end up a murderer since my patience had a limit. I probably shouldn't of left and let someone's holier than thou attitude ruin my night. And I don't really care what one's personal beliefs are when it comes to this sort of thing, but I look at it the same way I look at religion; don't shove your views down my throat when I wasn't looking or asking for it.
I've had the flu for the last couple of days. I also work in a laboratory, where we receive biological samples from people that generally tend to be in the 55+ range. And they come in from all states.
I'm sure people can put those two things together. As far as I'm concerned, it's the flu. Same as any other flu.
This does however give me commentary in regards to the idea that we don't have any kind of federally mandated sick leave. Especially for people who want(and should)quarantine themselves just in case. Because I'm fairly sure I got this from a co worker who came into work twice last week looking and sounding like death.
So I'm taking two days in hopes that by tomorrow, I'll no longer be infectious. I have no fever at this point, today is just mainly an extra precaution in case I go to work, and being active makes my illness relaspse and I do this song and dance all over again, but worse.
Also, as a side note, I hate coughing a lot. I hate how it makes your lower back hurt after awhile.
Thinking you've said something wrong to a friend and suddenly they stop responding to you on various messengers and thinking they're mad at you.
When probably they're just busy with their own stuff, like life, work, family, and just because it says their online doesn't actually mean they're free to talk. They're just busy.
You didn't do anything, you're just thinking of reasons why they haven't responded in the last few days and clearly meaning it's your fault. Because isn't it always your fault? That's silly, it's fine.
But...
No, leave it, it's fine. You're fine. Running out of your anti-depressants because of Covid isn't your fault. You're okay. No one is mad at you.
This inner monologue has been my last couple of days. I want it to stop.
From now till the end of time I will forever associate Mia with Macho Man Randy Savage.
@testament said in RL Sads:
He loved the Milwaukee Bucks like nobody else and was so hopeful how they'd play in the Finals.
Just commenting to myself and for those who are not of the sportsball inclination that the Bucks won the finals in 6.
I like to think River would've lost his mind.
And for the record, it a good series. But I have a couple reasons to remember it.
I plan on seeing The Green Knight tonight. I have a low key love for Arthurian stories. So even knowing what the movie will be about, I'm still very interested in this particular take in this story.
@sunny For clarity, I'm not talking about people that are scared of getting vaccinations due to previous trauma or last history. I'm not talking about them.
I'm talking about people that politicizied the vaccine
I'm talking about people that downplay Covid.
I'm talking about people that won't take it because 'mUh FrEeDoMs'.
I'm talking about people who think god will protect them.
I'm talking about people who push fake articles thinking that they prove the vaccine is more harmful than good.
I'm talking about people promote misinformation because it'll get them elected.
I'm talking about people that downplay the efficacy of the free vaccine in order to push their multi-thousand dollar antibody therapy.
I'm talking about people who push fucking horse dewormer.
I can keep going if you like. But I'm not talking about,
The immunocompromised.
Children.
People with cultural trauma over medical experimentation.
Organ transplant recipients.
People undergoing HIV treatment.
But that top list? Yes, I literally do not give two fucks if they live or die. And if they do happen to die of Covid? My compassion is zero. My sympathy is zero. I. Do. Not. Care.
They fucked around, well now they found out.
@nyctophiliac The dude was a decent guy, but a really shitty leader for an org. I wouldn't mind if he came back, but not in charge of anything major.
@deathbird That is literally the weirdest thing I've ever heard being an insta-ban. No warning, not even a stern talking to. Just ban. Absolutely bewildering.
@Ghost It's not a new thing. It's never been a new thing. Mass Effect 1 and KORTOR did the exact same thing. But for some reason DA2 is pointed out when it's brought up.
Really, go back into ME1 and take note of how many recyclable environments there are. There's, what, three? No, I take that back, there's at least five. Around three layouts of a base, and two layouts of a cave. Granted, yes, these apply to side missions and main storyline stuff it is different. But it's still there.
And in KOTOR, how many times do you find yourself in a sewer? I felt like I was in one all the time.
Okay.
I'm a coffee snob. My french press tells me so. I also have a grinder with about ten different settings. I'm told that whenever I have friends over, that I just offer coffee and say nothing else.
I collect mugs, which may play into the first point. I love coffee mugs, don't ask me why, I don't completely understand it. But not regular size mug, as I look down my nose at 8 oz mugs. 12 or 16. I like big mugs and I cannot lie.
I have one cat and he's old as dirt.
It's not cold outside, you just have shitty circulation.
I will stab someone for a good handful of jerky.
I have an unhealthy appreciation for really bad 80s action movies.
Video game soundtracks are great for background noise when the tv isn't on(Really, just go listen to Deus Ex Human Revolution).
I often refer to boats as butts.
Never give family your Discord handle.
Or your Skype name.
Or your Facebook.
Or Instagram.
Or any social media. It's generally been considered a bad idea.
@Sunny And that's....fine? I don't expect everyone to agree with me? I never said anyone else's reasons weren't valid. It's something I want, not something I want tomorrow.
Playing Mass Effect 1 for the first time in years because I picked up the Legendary Edition I've been waiting awhile for.
And OH GOD, having to spend hours in the character creator because I NEED MY SHEPARD TO BE PERFECT.
Brings back old nostalgia.
ETA: The character creator has the Code system in it which was introducted in ME2. I'm not saying I'm tempted to boot up my 360 just to get my code but I'm not not thinking about it.