Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff

Darren

For the first time in more than a decade, all of my credit cards are carrying a $0 balance. I paid off the last one yesterday with my state tax refund. It felt great to get them all paid off, but it's kinda scary too when I think about the combined limits of the cards >.<

Now I need to find out how I can get rid of some of them without adversely affecting my credit score.

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I think I finally hit the wall. I am at a point in my life where I see absolutely no way forward. I see no way to improve my situation that is within my power. I have goals that are entirely unreachable and most of my waking moments are consumed with negative thoughts.

I ask this as a non religious person but... Pray for me. Please.

thesuntsar

@Admiral Aw, buddy. I'm sorry. You don't know me but if you want to rant away sometime, this internet person has space to hear it. I will keep positive thoughts for you.

Rinel

@Admiral said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:

I ask this as a non religious person but... Pray for me. Please.

There are a lot of people doing that for you right now. There will be even more doing that tomorrow. You have a lot of good vibes incoming.

Keep your head above water. This, too, will pass. I've been there. I know how it feels. It gets better.

TNP

@Darren Simply cut them up and don't replace them. You don't need to actually cancel them.

Macha

Fucking manic episode this morning. OMG. Light speed, yo.

Macha

Yeah. Mania for the win. Got so much cleaning done and organizing and rearranged furniture. Made food, did all the laundry I had (wash, dry, and put away), Got the dog cleaned up and groomed, got scents and soaps made... and it's not even 4 in the afternoon. I'm aware of it, but it's like I can't stop it. I don't know that I want to, with everything I'm getting done, so long as I keep in mind I have to work tomorrow.

Auspice

I need to convince myself that it's OK that I don't have a job yet. It's only been a week.
I need to convince myself that I shouldn't define my self-worth by having a job and the quality of that job.

I am completely failing to convince myself of that and I just spent all night watching TV because going to bed is depressing and once I do go to bed I'll spend all day in it and hoo boy I am depressed. Welp. Time to sleep and set an alarm and probably disregard it anyway.

GreenFlashlight

@Auspice said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:

I need to convince myself that it's OK that I don't have a job yet. It's only been a week.
I need to convince myself that I shouldn't define my self-worth by having a job and the quality of that job.

I am completely failing to convince myself of that and I just spent all night watching TV because going to bed is depressing and once I do go to bed I'll spend all day in it and hoo boy I am depressed. Welp. Time to sleep and set an alarm and probably disregard it anyway.

If it helps you, remind yourself that our corporate overlords are extremely pleased when we are tricked into thinking our value as people is dependent on our economic output, the full value of which they are stealing from us anyway.

silverfox

I have a fever. This fever brings two major side effects. Either I am as cold as any day while standing in the snow, or I'm sweating through my clothing.