@meg said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:
I am going through this weird period of depression and anxiety where I find it really difficult to drag myself into work, compounded by daily headaches and often, migraines. All of my energy seems to be like, sweating out of me, and I can practically see it leaving my body but I can't stop it.
It doesn't help that my job sucks and my house is a mess and just, bleh. I feel like there has to be some way to get my life together, but man, having the energy to do that seems impossible and then I feel worse.
This is basically also my life, though it has improved. Chronic Pain does /such/ a number on so many aspects of life, that's probably where the link to depression/anxiety in Chronic Pain patients comes from. I mean it could also be a chemical imbalance, but whatever your ordinary mental state, feeling anything but misery when constantly in agony is not easy work.
So this is me expressing solidarity, but also the notion that it /can/ improve even if it is very, very slow and sometimes two steps forward and three back. Be kind to yourself. Read the book "Unfuck your Habitat" by Rachel Hoffman, it helped me work on small plans for housekeeping that did not overtax me physically and lead to pain, but also helped me let go of a lot of the guilt that comes with being behind on stuff because you are in too much pain to get it done. Do the cheesy thing I am doing to cope with some work misery this year, and make one of those lists of three good things that happened each day even if you have to force it and some of them are "One co-worker smiled at me. No one threw blocks at my head (this one may not apply so much to your job but who can say).
Not to claim I am perfect or even good at any of this, today I am having a stress meltdown related to work and a horrid migraine to go with it...but not every day is as shitty as today and that is what keeps me keepin on.