Posts made by Auspice

@Derp said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

@Auspice said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

Do you have a credit union by chance? If not, open an account with one (if possible; thankfully most let you get a savings account with just $5) and try getting a loan through them. They tend to be better than most banks.

I already thought about that. The two credit unions that I would have access to either:

a) require you to be a Honda employee or a family member of an employee (dating one apparently does not count), or
b) require you to be an actual state employee, versus just a contractor (seriously, as many credentials as I have, why am I always a contractor?)

So those are both no-fly options.

I'm seriously getting to the point where I'm going to google something and see if there's something out there that I can just get approved for. Even at an ostensibly predatory interest rate, it would still be cheaper.

Damn, that sucks. I had 2 options for credit union here in TX (my old bank has no local branches) and they were just 'have an address within the county OR work for these companies...'

@moth said in The Makeup Thread:

Suggestions for "3-free" nail polish that's also indie would be appreciated.

www.ilnp.com
There's tons of etsy sellers. But I can't always speak to quality.
Lucky13Laquer is my number 1 favorite (single owner, well-made, and geeky stuff to boot!). She's super sweet.
LiveLovePolish also has a lot of the bigger indie brands.

I personally buy from lucky13, LiveLovePolish, and ilnp

@Derp to this day I have no idea how I got my car. I was still in my shitty job where I barely made ends meet (but car was cheaper than the ubers I was having to take), my credit is p bad (tho improving...). But I got the loan.

Do you have a credit union by chance? If not, open an account with one (if possible; thankfully most let you get a savings account with just $5) and try getting a loan through them. They tend to be better than most banks.

@Derp said in Dead Celebrities 2019:

@ZombieGenesis said in Dead Celebrities 2019:

Barbara March played one of my favorite Star Trek baddies(along with her sister B'Etor).

For a warrior race, they sure do like leaving their chest exposed to whatever weaponry happens to pass by. So much cleavage.

I watch DS9 episodes every so often lately in a slow crawl through the series and that was my exact thought with these chars. SO MUCH CLEAVAGE.

Double-post for my own thing:

I think I'm more sick than I thought I was.

I was messaging with a friend about SGM today during one of my 'awake but not out of bed so I'll lie here and use my phone' moments earlier today and I sent the link to the game.

...or so I thought.

Just realized I sent it to a group text with my parents instead. (and I have no idea how I managed that, so I must have been feverish/out of it)

#fml

@gryphter said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

@Auspice I'm trying. I'm looking. This is a bad day; the final bastion of something I could point to and say 'well, at least I earn that from all this mental sickness I'm taking on' falls today. It's dumb; this object shouldn't be so meaningful that it's the thing breaking my shit right now to sit here and strip it clean, but I'll be damned if it isn't. Earlier today I was looking into remote freelancing opportunities... going to need a computer for that, though. Blah. You suppose the 'old' job will just let me keep their rig if I ask nicely? Tee. Tee hee.

Nonetheless, thank you for your encouragement.

Shitty jobs are, well, shitty.

I think if my current job wasn't paying me enough to survive (I got paid today, paid bills, and have enough left to be comfortable: that's not something I've had in at least 3 years) and was a good environment, I'd not be feeling good. The work is hard, stressful, and terrifying at times. I desperately miss my anti-anxiety meds (the insurance for the job doesn't kick in until October and though I can afford MORE, I can't afford all my meds even with stuff like GoodRX so I'm having to pick and choose the important ones out of my 8 scripts).

I know the 'it'll get better' stuff doesn't always help, but I know being able to keep up job apps even on bad days did help for me (because it kept me from beating myself up more for being inactive/lazy).

Robo Goddess.

@gryphter said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

I don't even fucking know anymore. Somewhere between sitting here trying to persevere through a panic attack and complete my work, and erasing my personal files from my (rented) personal computer so I can return it as I can't seemingly afford the one object in this house that sparks joy, I really feel like I am on the brink of a nervous breakdown. Why in the hell am I battering myself against this joyless, soul-killing job only to not afford my life? My complaining about my job and my (new) complaining about struggling with the onset of this anxiety disorder are starting to sicken me, I can't stand to listen to myself anymore, but I also can't continue to grind myself into a fluffy, irritable, panic-ridden dust so that I can eke the minimum possible amount of joy and enjoyment out of life. I want to get the fuck off.

I've been there, I really have. I was there up until just a month ago.

Job hunting (to get away from the bs) is hard, but I found LinkedIn made it a lot easier on me since many companies let you just do a one-click-apply using your profile. That made it a lot easier to keep at it (the job hunt) on the days I was incredibly depressed. Because hey, I could at least hit the one-click apply button on half a dozen jobs, even if I lacked the mental fortitude to fill out apps or write cover letters.

@ZombieGenesis said in Good TV:

Honestly, I'll stick with the random media articles. Why? When you go to targeted sites that seem to have 1 opinion that opinion is really only shared by a fraction of that particular site(which makes up only a fraction of the fanbase which, in turn, will only make up a fraction of people who will watch this TV show). The end result is a minimalist subset of people whose opinion will have 0 impact on the success of the show or whether or not I personally watch it. It sucks if you're a fan of those sites and you consider those communities home but, in the end, they represent a very small portion of people. And, as of yet, those opinions have not escaped into the wild. Not even The Quartering on YT is going on about any of this yet and he'll latch on to any "white injustice" topic to get hits on his channel.

There is validity to this.

I mean, how often here on MSB do we remind ourselves/each other that we're only a fraction of the MUing community as a whole and that one group's outrage here represents a very small minority?

Also: hardcore fans (the sort that are on fan sites) tend to hate ANY changes, period. They (claim to) want the book or source media repeated on the screen word-for-word despite how frequently that is utterly unreasonable.

@faraday said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

@Auspice said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

There's a reason for this.
They expect their developers to document as they go.

I think the reason is even more insidious than that.

Technical people don't like reading instructions. (Ironic, right?)

So there's this pervasive philosophy that documentation is worthless.

So nobody writes documentation. Or if they do, they half-ass it.

So then the documentation IS worthless or non-existent.

So then nobody will even consider hiring a tech writer or becoming better at documentation or whatever because they feel that documentation is useless.

And you get this vicious self-fulfilling cycle.

I've written MOUNTAINS of documentation that nobody has ever read. It makes me sad.

This is true, too. I forgot this point, thank you.

There's a blog I enjoy (I'd Rather be Writing) and he discusses both the points I and Faraday made.

Documentation could be good, but unless companies start hiring more technical writers (and treating them right; I could go into detail on that but I won't rn)... it's probably going to continue sucking in the grand scheme of things.

@Lisse24 said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

IT companies have horrible documentation and How-To's.

Just sayin'.

There's a reason for this.

They expect their developers to document as they go. And some developers can, but most can't. Either because they're too busy to properly document, because they're 'too close' to the product to explain it in layman's terms, or they just can't English good (there's an actual science to this in that 'thinking in code' can cause the same shift in your brain that immersing yourself in a new language does).

Many places don't want to pay for a technical writer (hi! Like me!) because they have that 'everyone can write' concept, but the truth is that people like me fill a very specific, important role.

So yeah. It happens. It happens for stupid reasons. (Let your developers develop and hire a writer to write ffs). And there's not an end in site.

The very technical industries (think space shit for example) are beginning to hire more tech writers but everyone else is hiring less.

Speaking of taking time off for health..... I just called out for the day because my stomach hurts enough that I don't trust myself to drive.

I nearly did anyway, but when I doubled over in pain multiple times just getting my things together I realized it would be for the best of I didn't risk myself and others on the road.

Now to lie down and try to sleep despite the pain and mild terror this is going to end up in a hospital trip (I have certain abdominal issues that mean severe pain could be a major issue...)

@Aria said in RL things I love:

@Auspice <squints> ..... I think your dad might be my mom. Just sayin'.

I think some of us just had really hands-off/shitty parents.

@Dreampipe said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

@Rinel said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

When someone is miserable about themselves, and they're slowly getting better, do not tell them "oh but you're getting better!" when they tell you they're miserable.

I KNOW I'M IMPROVING. I WANT TO BE IMPROVED.

Yeah I feel this pretty hard. It's an almost forever-battle that gives and takes as time goes on. You can have a string of good days, maybe a week, maybe a month, and then it'll attack again out of nowhere. Back to the bottom of the pit.

I believe in you.

Oh yes. I know this well.
Living in the southwest has done wonders for my fibro, but it can still hit bad if I'm not careful. So the 'but you're better!' is kind of vexing I know. Because you want them to understand its a 'better as compared to...' or'better for now' and you're terrified they'll be annoyed as if you did it on purpose when your illness flares up anew.

@Aria Fortunately I can ride a bike. My dad spent all of five minutes before giving up (he sent me off down a hill sans training wheels and got mad when I got hurt).

But one weekend, someone's dad was out teaching his kid and there were about three of us who also wanted to learn. So it became a group effort.

@Aria said in RL things I love:

So today I discovered that Skate the Foundry offers adult beginner skateboarding classes and I am completely losing my shit.

I have wanted to skateboard since I was about 12, but first my parents refused to let me because it wasn't safe, then my skater boyfriend refused to teach me because he broke two vertebrae on an aerial trick (and yet then continued skating himself?), and then I just.... I don't know. Felt too old and embarrassed that I would look like an asshole just trying to stand on a board in a skate park full of teenage boys being little turds about the fat old lady who can't keep her balance.

But now I can be a fat old lady who can't keep her balance in a park full of other old ladies who can't keep their balance and it is going to be fucking awesome.

That actually sounds awesome. I, too, would love to know how to skateboard... but I'm still traumatized (Ok not really but really) by the time I tried when I was like, 12, had the board fly out from under me, and got laughed at the rest of the day.

@wahoo said in Good TV:

@Auspice I remember because I launched a crowdfunder for my show and then IMMEDIATELY AFTER I LAUNCHED, they went up and I was like: mother forker.

Whoop.

That's like a new game by The Oatmeal guy launching on KS.

@wahoo said in Good TV:

@Auspice Season 3 wasn't crowdfunded. The movie was!

That's right. After I hit submit on the post I was like '....wait, maybe it was the movie.'

I'm pretty brain fried today.

@ZombieGenesis said in Good TV:

@Auspice My wife and I really enjoyed it. It felt like they were finally able to do the show the way it was always intended to be done.

In her Hot Ones episode the other day, she said that Season 3 was about giving the fans what they want (since it was crowdfunded) and Season 4 was about giving the characters what they need.

I really like the idea of that.

I wanna ask how the new Veronica Mars is, but I also don't (I mean no one's mentioned it yet so maybe it's bad?! D:).

I love Veronica Mars. Love love love. I wanted to be her.

I'm waiting until I have a full weekend to just bundle up on the sofa with a bunch of junk food and binge through.