Posts made by Auspice

Regis Philbin, 88

Updated. I decided to give Euphoria a try because Genesis spoke to me and I do love me some sci-fi.

Fortunately, when I was at Whole Foods, the guy I worked with the most had just begun reading Dresden Files and upon finding I was a fan would talk to me about the chapter(s) he'd read the night before every day. It was like my very own refresher for the series. I did re-read Skin Game myself, though.

But since Peace Talks apparently has a cliffhanger, I miiiiiight hold off and just get the next Peter Grant book instead because oh man Broken Homes was so good.


I know someone (not a MUer) who has to move to Sweden. She can't bring her cats (not a quarantine issue but the fact that she'll be living with family initially and they won't let her bring them).

She's struggling to find a home for them. Two cats, littermates. 9 years old. Indoor only. Like the cuddles.

She's in the Portland, OR area. If you or anyone you know might be able to take them in, please let me know and I'll put you in contact.

@Dreampipe that's how my clinic in SC was. $5/mo and everything was covered (low income / no insurance option there). But I had to leave because the doctor I'd been assigned was terrible. My therapist was great. I really liked him, I trusted him....but I had no options with the doctor.

It's definitely helpful if you can't afford better but sometimes you end up in a shit situation.

I made black garlic and it's beautiful and amazing and I'm going to use it in everything

but what if everyone does secretly hate me?

@PuppyBreath said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):

@Auspice I always enjoyed hanging out with you!

<3! One-on-one is good! Front seat in the car is guaranteed, booth sitting at restaurants means I still have open space and I'm not trapped inside.

It's when there's groups that I have a problem. XD

@faraday
Well, it's not just self-assessment. My being OCD and on the spectrum are two things that are diagnosed.

My OCD was diagnosed back when I was a teenager. The being on the spectrum just a few years ago when I was in therapy and my therapist picked up on it and wanted to explore it more.

I do think they all have overlap and all sort of....get in bed with one another as it were but it is a whole thing for sure.

@Macha you are def not alone. I have nothing to hook my thing about people being behind me to. I just can't do it. I'm someone super finicky about going out with. I can't ride in the back seat for longer than 20 ish minutes or I get car sick (since a surgery I had a handful of years ago). I can't sit where people can walk behind me (or else I'll be standing up and moving and pacing about). And I can't sit on the inside of a booth because the sense of being trapped triggers my claustrophobia. I am terrible for group outings.

@Wretched said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):

@Auspice Good god if you are standing/sitting behind me while I'm on the computer I will not react well. That agitation is real.

I think a lot of those you are describing have been pretty typical of my experience. I hate 'schedules' but i have 'things' 'patters' 'spots' etc. that are toitally irrational and IMPORTANT.

The Locked in thing I get lots too. I'm IN THE MIDDLE OF MY THING FUCK ALL THE WAY OFF>

My parents always gave me shit for the seating thing.
'What are you doing, pretending you're some character from one of your books?'

But my father is so so so neurotypical and doesn't even try to comprehend even if my mother has major depression that has eaten at her all her life. But he's so domineering he gets her to think the same way. My one brother with very classic ADHD has never been treated for it...not because of the whole 'oh they over-medicate kids for this' but 'if anyone in our church finds out one of my kids is on medication for some brain damage bullcrap, they won't respect me anymore'

I keep wishing he'd (he's 24) move out and get a place of his own, but his ADHD is so bad he can't drive. So he's sort of beholden to our other brother (they work at the same place) to give him rides to/from work. If I was in a financial position to do so and could line up a job for him, I'd get him out here. Push some more independence at him. Get him a damn psychiatrist who would get him on the meds he needs.

I had an interview this week. I wish I had more, but... with TX doing so badly, companies are back to not hiring. I've expanded my search to the Phoenix area since I have a few friends pestering me to move out that way, but it's in a similar spot. Plus, the sort of work I do is gonna be one of the last careers to fully recover.

But! This is the RL things I love thread:

I love video interviews. I can dress comfortably... So long as I do my hair, wear a nice shirt, some jewelry... I'm good! I can just go light on the makeup, wear yoga pants, and that's that. I can have notes on another screen (I use my laptop since it has a webcam built-in) to reference, their company website open, the job description open, etc... But most of all? I don't need to deal with the anxiety of trying to look someone in the eye.

Taking that anxiety away has allowed me to be so much more comfortable in interviews. I've only had a couple in the past six months (for obvious reasons), but I have felt immensely less anxiety in them.

Some of the things that make it clear that I'm on the spectrum and ADHD:

• I have fabric issues. I don't like the feeling of fabric-on-fabric (if you get this, you get this). If a certain fabric bothers me, I cannot 'just deal.' Part of why I love Squishables (I've gotten a lot of people hooked on these things recently </no shame>) is that they are so fucking touchable and soft and pretty much satisfy that need for something to feel 'right.'
• I can get 'locked in' to doing something and if I get interrupted, it's not just breaking the cycle (like an ADHD hyperfocus)... I actually get agitated. I feel like the ADHD actually helps me balance here.
• I like my routine. I like it a lot. ADHD may not make it a SCHEDULE type of routine, but I have my routine. I play X game on my phone before sleep, I do Y things when I wake up in the morning. I put my shoes in Z location. My keys are always in my RIGHT pocket. I always sit on the LEFT side of the couch (yes, I have a 'but that's my seat').
• Similar-ish to above... I can't handle people standing/walking behind me. That flips the agitation trigger. I know that isn't an ADHD thing. And it's not really an... anxiety thing. But I feel an almost physical crawling sensation when someone is behind me. So I tend to sit with my back to a wall in restaurants, I don't like open floor plans in offices where people can just wander behind me. I don't even like if a friend is leaning over my shoulder to look at my screen when I invite them to do so (I'll lean to the side so that I don't have that creepy-crawling sensation).

There's probably more. But, like ADHD........women and autism is so different than men and autism and welp, guess which was used to decide the standard.

@Auspice said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

I picked up a freelance writing gig.

I hate it. I am very close to going 'Look, I've already put over 10 hours into this. It's not worth $90 anymore' to the guy that hired me. Whoever he has as his 'editor' for the writers is a fucking idiot.

Edit me for grammar. Edit me for phrasing. Edit me for legibility. But if you can't follow the bouncing ball of the topic and concepts like 'According to studies [link]....' have you whining at me 'We can't make unfounded claims!' (lady it's not unfounded the link to the fucking study is right there I'm not going to rehash the entire medical study in copy that's supposed to be 'lighthearted' and 'easily consumed' jfc) maybe you need a different line of work.

If you're editing for content as well as grammar, you need to do the research on the topic, too.

I should've followed my instincts that this was not a worthwhile gig.

I ended up firing them as a client. Because it was clear the editor just did not know what they were doing nor were they following the guidelines set forth. Which was putting me in a terrible position.

But the outcome now is that they're not paying me for the time/effort I did put in.

'Oh right I need to do that thing okay but I have to do this other thing first so-' and then it falls off the stack.

Get up to go make food, the stack is:
'Make food'
In the kitchen it becomes: 'Get a drink, make food'
Cat begins fussing at me: 'Give cat treats, get a drink, make food'
I see the dishes need to be done: 'Give cat treats, get a drink, make food'

At some point, something / everything falls out of the stack. And this is what the neurotypical types don't understand. If I, say, walk out of the kitchen for some reason (e.g. need to use the bathroom)... the whole cycle resets and I don't remember 'make food' for possibly hours.

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