Posts made by Auspice

To balance out the moping about the state of my body...

The concert was amazing. I've waited ten years to see Cloud Cult. I discovered them almost 10 years ago. 2008, they popped up on a Pandora station. That was, sadly, the last time they toured in the southeast and I was between jobs (recovering from a shoulder surgery) so I couldn't go.

The first half was them playing the score, live, to their movie (while it played). I cried, twice (the first time blindsided me; I hadn't even listened to that particular track in months).

The second half was a mix of their songs being played. Some I barely knew, some I know by heart. And the entire crowd on their feet, singing along. I have never, ever seen a crowd at a show that invested in the music. I am so used to seeing a mix of people at concerts; fans those there because 'it's a concert.' The Neptune theater is kind of an intimate venue to begin with, but everyone there from the couple in their 70s to the 10-year-old there with his mother... were fans.

But having the entire place singing Everybody Here is a Cloud will stick as one of the finer memories in my life. You know it's good when the band is grinning their ears off, too.

I may be in a lot of pain today, but I can't think of a finer send off before my move to Austin than that concert.

This could go in the 'Health' thread but it's something I know about... I hate my fibro. I also hate that my body is resistant to most anti-inflammatories. All that works is weed (which I'm out of; I've got some money set aside from my last paycheck and will be going to the shop on Monday) and one prescription drug that... my doctors won't give me, for understandable reasons. It was damaging my kidneys. The others out there just do not work anymore.

The concert last night was amazing, but I am paying for it today.

On the up side, it shows how far my mental health has come that I'm not really broken up over it. I used to be really broken up over people like her. They'd really eat at me.

Now I'm like jeez, how fucking sad is her life that she has to be that fucking petty towards someone she doesn't even talk to anymore?

Fuck people being in other peoples' business. For real.

I'm going to a concert tonight. Ticket was $35. Got it back in May (before I knew I was moving to Austin). It was, more-or-less, the only thing I got myself for my birthday (I think I bought a game on Steam, too). I've been waiting almost three months, now.

I posted a photo on Instagram about going to said concert and she made a snarky/rude comment (publicly) about how I have a GoFundMe and going to a concert, etc.

Fuck you, lady. That and this are wholly independent of one another. What, am I supposed to cancel already made plans? Am I supposed to sit around, miserable, to make myself appear worthy of being helped? It's not like she donated or showed any interest even in my progress.

@Misadventure said in RL Anger:

Tell them to pray for themselves until they figure out they aren't empowered to judge.

I seem to recall the Bible saying something about...

https://www.biblegateway.com/verse/en/John 8%3A7

@Admiral

I hate the 'I'm praying for you' line. I'm sorry.

@KDraygo said in KDraygo's Playlist:

@Auspice Don't you mock my lack of creativity.

Do I need to quote you Mr. 'I can't come up with names and titles'

...oops

It's almost... as if you have a preference for a specific name.

@WTFE said in RL things I love:

Sanity.

Oh yeah, I got rid of that a long time ago.

@WTFE said in RL things I love:

@Auspice said in RL things I love:

...I want that last one.

I rest my case about the "NSFS" portion.

Not Safe For School?
But I do everything from home!

...I want that last one.

@Sparks

Dropbox link sent!

I would put it up on my portfolio site, but many publications will count that as 'published' and not consider your work. Which is why I sort of have to share it private-like.

My current rheumatologist, after fully going over everything, was like... Yeah, no intensive exercise for you. Exercise as you can, keep it light, etc... Because she clued in to the same thing I always knew: I build up muscle too fast. If I even walk too much, the muscle will build up in my calves, pull my tendons out of alignment, and fuck shit up. So she wants me to stick to stuff like swimming, yoga, etc.

Whereas all other doctors are just like 'pff just lose weight you'll be fine do any and all exercise all the time oh and eat less'

Well my primary doc is also not on the 'oh you can always eat less, it doesn't matter how little you eat because you're fat' deal, thank god. I told her how little I've been eating since the migraines and she was appalled. She had a 'no! Eat! You need to eat!' reaction. (Which I finally am eating... more normal amounts. Not quite 'enough,' but closer.)

@Insomnia said in Gamertags:

The Discord server is up and running, with bots and everything! I'm not adverse to adding other bots if people want them too. Text channel only Soapbox people can see, and 5 voice channels for gaming.

I did have to block your livestream notification bot because getting @everyone'd every couple of minutes was driving me up the wall. >.>

@Thenomain

Well, that's if it ends up published, but I won't get kickbacks if it does.

The plight of being an unknown and all. I'll just get the initial payment.

I'll toss you the dropbox link, Theno.

Dual post...

...also got a 100 on my other final project in that class which was to outline a horror movie (oh man did I stress out and bust my ass on that one so WOOOOOOO!).

...which means I came out of my horror/mystery course with A FULL ONE HUNDRED.
I've gotten a 95-or-better on most of my courses. I think only... 3? in my degree program so far have fallen below (and 2 of those have been 90-95 while one was a B).

But this is my first perfect 100.

I'mma celebrate tonight.

So while you're totally allowed to feel frustrated by it, he may not realize it as a derail. Like you said, it may make sense to him.

As someone on the spectrum myself, my brain makes weird leaps sometimes and I know for a fact I go off in directions that make total sense to me at the time and end up with people looking at me with wtf faces wondering how I got there.

It's not that I was trying to derail or go off in a wholly new direction, but to me things made total sense! So he may have thought (in the way his brain is wired) that it made sense. All I could say is to maybe try to guide it back on track with a 'Hey dude, we're talking 'Will,' can we get back to that?' or similar.

But your frustration is totally just as valid as his brain wiring. The two are just clashing in this case it sounds like?

@Meg said in RL things I love:

@Auspice I'd be down for reading it! With or without giving my thoughts as you want.

I can probably live with thoughts!
It's too late for any edits for the submission tho. And I gotta wait for a rejection before I can submit it anywhere else.

@Ganymede said in RL things I love:

@Auspice

Maybe you should do that, then.

Already did. >.> I had a publication picked out for once I got feedback and made... well, the edits I expected I'd have to make?

... but apparently there are none, so...... off it's gone.

If people wanna read it, I can message the dropbox link. >.>

I got a 100 on my final project last month.

The cyberpunk/horror story. I mean, I busted my ass on it, but...

No notes. No feedback from the instructor. Just 'This is ready for publication and you should find somewhere to submit it.'

I... wow.