It's me.
I released my first EP (which I am now embarrassed about because creative insecurities). It was a very educational project that pushed my skills forward a lot, but I realized I wasn't entirely being myself. Like, the dubstep type stuff wasn't necessarily bad, but I feel like I was trying to be popular or sound like other people. The best parts of my EP were the parts where I really embraced myself and my uniqueness.
Either way, I'm working on a new project now, and trying to push my compositional skills forward, not being too worried about making dancey songs or whatever (though I do like dancey songs so you never know). I also have a Japanese idol type pop song that sounds like an anime opening coming out soon, that I made for this American duo (it's their first original song).
I got very focused on music and music composition/production, I somewhat stopped pursuing code because it didn't really make me happy. I've also started studying 3D modeling and 3D animation because it's really fun and I want to have a cool visual. 3D is much easier than you'd think, though that might just be due to all the time I spent on Second Life. Also I got into Japanese studies 日本語を勉強しました。
Oddly enough, while doing research for my branding aesthetics, I got super into learning about clowns? But this is a more recent development. Where that will go is still pending.
I spent most of last year going to therapy, both private and various group therapy sessions, spending nearly every weekday doing -some- form of professional therapy. While I still deal with a lot of stuff, I have much better coping mechanisms and levels of control than I used to. My current diagnosis is ADHD, major depression (with psychotic features), PTSD, and generalized anxiety. Many people around me suspect that I'm on the spectrum (primarily old mothers with children on the spectrum), and a few other friends, so gradually I've stopped ignoring this and started actually taking that seriously, which is why I plan to find an ASD specialist soon to diagnose me and see if there's anything to that.
Uhh, in other news I'm also trying to remodel the house a bit. Nothing intense, mostly cleaning up my parents' neglect since they moved out a while ago, then will gradually do little things here and there. And I'm gonna try to raise money for a new music project I want to do but don't have the cash for yet (I need to buy some specific synthesizer plugins).
I guess that's most of the important positive things!
Here's my regularly updated pinterest board that I use for working out my branding aesthetic and also what I give to artists for inspiration when they do commissions and design stuff for my music!
https://www.pinterest.com/DuanSparkles/my-aesthetic/
