Posts made by Alamias

Someone get this person a red and green sweater stat!

I remember Grimtooth's Traps. Man some of those things were just diabolical.

@Auspice

@Auspice Not trying to burst your happy bubble, but I would double check that you get paid. When I was a contractor I didn't get paid for holidays off like that even if the office was closed.

Not saying you won't, in fact I hope you do, I just want you to make sure you know positively and can plan accordingly.

@Seamus @Cupcake I have a therapist, and I will talk to them about it when I see them next. Thank you for the concern.

Rant ahead.

So a while ago my wife started developing serious migraines with ocular components. It basically rendered her unable to drive, work or do anything other than sit in a dark room and whimper. They were so bad that she had to go on medical leave, and we have only finally made progress on managing them (Thank you Ajovy...this stuff is the only thing that has helped, period).

So, my wife being out of work had at least supplemental insurance to cover the fact she wasn't bringing in a paycheck. Or so we thought anyway. She starts the claim process and her insurance is denied. We put in an appeal because we are all WTF? about her being denied, but the process takes time and we have to pay bills, so we dip into our savings/nest egg/emergency fund..etc. We end up wiping those out and start having to use credit cards to supplement the lost wages, etc.

Now she is finally back on her feet and back to work, we finally win the case against the supplemental insurance and see the money that she was due and life moves on.

But the damage has been done. Our credit cards are now maxed out because use + compounding interest and even though my wife is back to work, we can barely squeak by month to month now because the minimum payments on our cards are so high.

I am at a point I don't know what to do, really. I don't think things are dire enough to declare bankruptcy (and I am not sure I would want to), I don't know if it is worth ruining (even more anyway) our credit by going through a debt counselor service. I have been contacted randomly by some company that is interested 'investing' in our house and while it sounds tempting (100k re-payed in 30 years + a percentage of what the appreciation of the house is) I don't even know if we qualify because our credit scores have took a big hit due to being maxed.

I'm stressed, i'm not sleeping, and sometimes I wonder if it wouldn't just be better to 'die' (No, not contemplating suicide. I wouldn't kill myself. More that I wonder if it wouldn't be just better if I got hit by a car of something) so my wife and kids get the life insurance to pay for all the mistakes I made.

I jokingly drop 5 bucks a week on the lottery, just wishing for a miracle. I don't even want the millions. Just 100k would be fine. Enough to pay off the credit cards + car payments + random other debt and have a clean slate, but I know that will never happen.

I know that eventually I will get through this somehow and will be able to pay off the debt since I know eventually I will have more than 100K coming my way when parents pass on, but this isn't a solution I want to happen (I mean, it is inevitable that sooner or later it will, but I don't want it to happen sooner. I've already lost my Mom this year, and that was hard enough as it is.)

Sorry. I'm rambling. I just needed to get this out, I just needed the release even if it is just typing it out to a bunch of strangers on the internets.

@tragedyjones I'm sure that could have been at least a part of it? But there were strict rules against reveling yourself OOCly in any form or fashion, so it wasn't the entirety of the reason. A lot of places used the OOC Masq to add that air of danger/suspense/whatever to keep a player/character in the dark until the player/character found out IC what was going on.

It has been a very long time since those days, and even though I staffed during a good portion of that time, I can barely remember what I did last week let alone what reasons there were 25+ years ago for the OOC Masq above and beyond the surface of just trying to keep the mystery.

When I started way back in the 90's, I primarily played on WoD type MUs during the OOC Masq period. At the time this was what I knew and I enjoyed the mystery and uncertainty of not knowing if the person I was taunting in a bar scene could turn around and rip my head off at any given moment, etc.

I stopped playing for a decade, then came back about the time The Reach was at the height of its popularity (Right before some of the ICA/ICC situations TJ is talking about above in fact....and yes he WAS a dick to me, but it was all IC and I knew that ;)), and I was against the whole open wiki no OOC Masq thing.

I quickly changed my mind as I played. Being able to be a bit more open in poses knowing that everyone already knew what I was, and I didn't have to try and hide things OOCly was a weight lifted that I didn't know i had before.

@Auspice I'll trade you your 'everyone thinks it is great' for my 'your designs suck and this color looks like baby shit' comments. I'd murder for some positive feedback right now, even just a little, so I can stop feeling like however it is I am feeling right now.

@Auspice

No longer good movies...Spider-Man, now with less Marvel influence.

Ah well, It was good while it lasted.

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/heat-vision/sony-marvel-split-future-spider-man-releases-1233383

Double Post

@Auspice Yeah, i'm in the same boat, and will look at it when I get home.