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@Catsmeow said in RL things I love:

@Auspice said in RL things I love:

Found the skin care set I'd wanted over the holidays for half-off today. I had gotten a sample of the brand's moisturizer a while back and looooooved it (most moisturizer feels too oily / heavy for me)... so now I have like, a full skincare set.

...which is probably good for my skin since I've been like, washing my face and that's it. >.>

And this product is?

philosophy's renewed hope in a jar. So I got the 'glowing days ahead' kit they had over the holidays. Cleansers, moisturizers, serums, etc... $45 instead of the $90 it had been.

@Catsmeow said in RL Anger:

@Auspice

Dat tail tho.

Having been on trazodone for insomnia two separate times in my life... It can be very hit or miss.

The first time, it was amazing. Mind, I would be hella drugged as it was kicking in (I had friends who would call just to talk to me; never remembered the convos, but apparently they were hilarious).

The second time, I'd still stay up all night... but spend the following day feeling drugged (like that 'just woke up from anesthesia' type of drugged).

I wish I could offer advice, but I usually end up finding myself on ambien when the insomnia cycles get real bad. When they're only 'mostly bad' (like usual), I find that puzzles help. Sudoku is my go-to. It keeps my brain occupied with something positive and sleep has a better chance of sneaking up on me.

Ok I mean I dunno if it'll be good yet but I gotta keep up hope because omg: http://nerdist.com/neil-gaiman-and-terry-pratchetts-good-omens-gets-a-miniseries-from-amazon/

@surreality

Weird gallstones are... well, weird. A friend of mine had to have her gall bladder out and the stones it had were apparently crystalline in shape. Like, long, narrow, faceted.

I wonder how that sort of thing happens?

Sounds like she needs a pair of good leggings to better understand them.

@Ganymede said in RL Anger:

@Goyim said in RL Anger:

uh oh guys you better stop before @surreality shows up and tells you off for not using the political forum and having too much fun

Politics brews anger. That's why it's not appropriate for RL Things I Love.

Because, y'know, how dare some of us want to go to the RL Things I Love thread and talk about uplifting/cool stuff, not see some psychotic rant about politicians anally fisting people.

Whenever I go out, I come home to a cat who is like, dog-levels excited to see me. And commence an hour or more of purrs and cuddles and 'OMG YOU'RE BACK'

... the downside is I feel immense guilt whenever I do go out.

Learning to walk away and leave things be has been one of the hardest parts of my own path. I used to push, to keep trying to make things better, because I'd be terrified that if I backed off... they'd never reach out.

And that might happen. Maybe because the friendship was one-sided in the first place. Maybe because whatever happened is utterly irreparable in their eyes.

So I've been learning to walk. To apologize if the air seems right or to just give space if things seem too strained.

Sometimes those folks will never reach out. Sometimes you just have to square up and keep moving forward.

Not gonna delete the post. But also not gonna lie - I did jump on in a panic of 'oh god is everyone going to tell me that it doesn't matter what's wrong with me that I'm still a bad person for continuing to MU*?'

Anxiety is sometimes the worst. Like, I know some (many?) of us have anxiety plus other things, but I feel even for those with just anxiety. It is a terrible beast.

Thank you, all of you. It's been eating at me to share that because... it's terrifying to share, but I also know (because my therapist has impressed it upon me) that if I do, it may help people to understand. Like 'oh, maybe Auspice wasn't being a dick that day. Maybe she legit couldn't tell I wasn't in a good mood.'

And @Catsmeow - those moments are tough. I'm sorry. But I promise, I can understand the weariness. I've had days here lately where I'll just pass out asleep at random because fibro and insomnia make for exhaustion.

@surreality said in RL things I love:

@Auspice D'aww!

She really just wanted the cheese.

This cat is a cheese addict. If it's got cheese, she wants it.

@surreality

Been there. It sucks balls. But you'll find someone even more awesome, promise.

I had to really dig deep and learn how to trust the right way this year.

I am so very not an optimist. My brain isn't wired for it (and thanks to studies done, I can now say that with absolute sincerity; some of us just can't access that 'happy' as easily as others).

I almost gave up and shut down. I was on the verge of it. One friend kept me from it. Encouraged me. So instead I just... narrowed focus. Instead of trying to reach out and find people... I've let them come to me. Sure, there's only a spare few people I'd trust, period, but I know I can. And beyond them... I've learned 'I can go to PersonA about health, PersonB about school...' and so on. Just gotta compartmentalize sometimes.

I just finished the pilot for Legion and I think I'm already in love.

It's like Marvel meets Twin Peaks and it has Aubrey Plaza. I'm a happy camper.

Over a week of severe, vertigo & nausea-inducing headaches/migraines.

Every. Day. At best the pain will ebb off a bit.

Seeing an optometrist Friday as I'm overdue and eye strain could be it. If not, at least when I go to the doctor I can say I ruled it out.

madelinetosh and Jimmy Beans Wool teamed up for another year-long MKAL. This time, however, instead of just the blanket (not doing another so soon), they also have one with mini balls to make a shawl.

I never wear shawls, but I enjoy knitting them. Then they end up on the wall or draped over a mirror or somesuch.

Anyway, finished off January's (Labradorite) section today (the colorways are all based on semi-precious stones):

Anyone interested:
Subscription Link (JBW)
The pattern

@Ghost

SocialFixer for Facebook. Chrome add-on, so it won't work if you just FB from mobile. But it's got an option built-in to hide all political posts.

I see so much more of what family/friends are actually doing and suffer much less rage.

I sorta wish I'd waited for the whole season of Legion to air before beginning to watch.
Just finished this week's episode (episode 2) and augh I want moar.