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    Posts made by EmmahSue

    • RE: 365 Prompts
      1. Dragon: Envision a dragon. Do you battle him? Or is the dragon friendly? Use descriptive language. (Writer's Note: For the DM of my homebrew 15-year and ongoing campaign.)

      Do colors matter? Does size have meaning? If I spoke of wing-span, or the sinuous curve of a long neck, or the heat radiating from belly and eyes, would these tell you what it is? How could it, when there is so much more to it than flesh and bone and scale? A dragon is not any of these things. A dragon is power, only barely contained by them. Whether in the sleeping form of a man or awoken with claws extended and jaw wide, that shell is fragile. Pulsing beneath is energy, is magic, is such strength as could remake a world from the core outwards were it so inclined. It has no moral leaning, no great evil or good to care for. You call it the Highlord as you worship in the lees of summer. What does power care about worship? It pays no more attention to your cries and blandishments than you pay to the fish in the Blue Sea. Better to emulate than to worship; at least then there is some small chance. Power calls to itself, after all. If you glint, perhaps that great light will swallow you whole to add to itself. Then you might know the colors, the size, the wings, the neck, the heat. Then they might matter for one glorious moment.

      posted in Readers
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    • RE: 365 Prompts
      1. Friendship: Write about being friends with someone.

      Sing to me of the bonds that become chosen family. After so long spent telling myself that I was alone, that I was an island, when did the song change? But even now the reminders are necessary, that those chosen few choose me in turn. Over and over, day by day, we decide on each other. There are no large gestures in those decisions. They are tiny things, infinitesimally small notes building the invisible chorus that encircles us. I voice mine between around through theirs. I have never had a lover who wasn't a friend first, and a friend (passingly so, however distant time affects) afterwards. Does that mean I have never known eros, only philia in constantly mutating form? I cannot find it in myself to grieve that possible truth. Perhaps Rumi is a better cantor for foreign phrase than the Greeks in the end. The world is love (is friendship, is light, is divinity) and the point is to open yourself to let it in. I have managed with my choices to open just enough for them.

      posted in Readers
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    • RE: 365 Prompts

      @Three-Eyed-Crow: please do join in! Even if not every day, now and then can't hurt you. (Or can it! Dunduuuuuun. New prompt!)

      ES

      posted in Readers
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    • RE: 365 Prompts
      1. Animals: Choose an animal. Write about it! (Writer's Note: written to be read aloud; as LeGuin puts it, to 'sound beautiful'.)

      The thrust of the wing. The thrum of the wind. The thought of the wild thing kept aloft through fragile feathers and hollow framework. These are the whispered fevered desperately dreaming hopes when we see it soaring: surely we should fly higher still, were we capable? Yet there is little pride in that speeding form. There is not a moment spent wasted lost on how high how fast how far. Would we let that flutter away to the floor if we were able? Is it that self-regard that ties us to the ground with leaden heavy feet and plodding lumbering egotistic step?

      posted in Readers
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      EmmahSue
    • 365 Prompts

      I don't often enjoy the attempts I've made at long-form fiction writing. So I'm trying one of these a day instead, with the understanding that since it's my rules, there are no rules. They're prompts, not a hard-bright line. Y'all are also writers of various sorts, so I figure I'll share them here. You're welcome to read, to write as well, to critique, or to ignore as your little hearts desire. 🙂 Mostly I hope you'll also write.

      1. Outside the Window: What’s the weather outside your window doing right now? If that’s not inspiring, what’s the weather like somewhere you wish you could be?

      The chill of the glass is a blessed contrast to the heat from the vent. It cuts the world in two: too hot, too cold, no in-between. Flipping only switches the sides. It doesn't relieve the dichotomy. If there's no distance that can't be cut in half -- speak me no Zeno's -- does that mean there's no point where the two merge out of two? (Merge out of two: a phrase that shouldn't mean anything but does in context.) Do they only mix in macro vision? The eyes that apply when you're too far away to see how they're only co-mingling near each other, not truly becoming something third.

      1. The Unrequited love poem: How do you feel when you love someone who does not love you back? (Writer's Note: Crush to crushing to the bit below.)

      As you have the option in your slow death, perhaps you would consider Crushing? Certainly if the point is to select the most achingly slow and exceedingly torturous, it has potential. Imagine then, the faint pressure that begins. The weight of it is negligible at the start, a thin blanket's worth. This is nothing, you sleep with more on a cold night. But it does not stay there, heavens no. It grows in weight. A Down comforter, you might call it, or wet wool. Does the increase bother you more than the fact it does not conform to your body? Rather, your body is forced to tilt instead, albeit within a limited space. There it is, the first stirrings of distress. Your breath rasps against the stone platform above. It is too close. It is getting closer. Your breasts are flattened uncomfortably, your legs forced straight for lack of room to bend. When does discomfort (that pale cousin to pain) become more? The bones, I think. That moment when you first realize your ribs exist. How often do you think of them normally? But here as you are Crushed, they are forefront. Your awareness of self is stronger, how smashing! No no, there is no need to speak now. They will turn inwards soon. Focus on this instead, it will end the matter soon. Not soon enough, mind. As the children say: to the pain!

      1. The Vessel: Write about a ship or other vehicle that can take you somewhere different from where you are now.

      A ship is a she because the world around her is fickle. She must navigate it with stout walls, with unbroken beam and unyielding pressure on all sides. A ship is a she because to ignore her is to know peril. Her voice demands an ear, louder with the passing years and the curve of humanity; slowly but growing. Some will say a ship is a she because there is always bustle around her; because she needs paint to look pretty; because she needs an experienced man to steer her right. But you know many a quiet woman, who wears no paint but manages loveliness, who scoffs at the men who would tell her her own truths.

      A ship remains a she because she births men and women both. They rise from her depths and spill out anew, fresh from the darkness and heralding the air they can breathe freely.

      1. Dancing: Who’s dancing and why are they tapping those toes?

      As they moved together, they occupied the same space. Oh, you will take this for metaphor, some paltry allegory not worth its weight in syllables. But they moved as one, truly so. Her insubstantial form hovered above, through, in, around. His solid presence was a flow centered, contained, structured, forceful. Did she drag his feet like a puppet-mistress? Did he drag her along willy-nilly so that she had no choice? I think they matched each other, dancing in that same space, balanced.

      1. Food: What’s for breakfast? Dinner? Lunch? Or maybe you could write a poem about that time you met a friend at a cafe.

      Think of her in allegories: Sometimes she's tart (like a lemon? a sweet lime? a sour orange?). Others, she's sweet as pie (pecan! apple! rhubarb!). Those breasts, as big as melons (honeydew? yellow summer? cantaloupe?)! Oh but her eyes, deep and dark as chocolate (90% cacao? mixed with milk, maybe a nice ganache?). But what really sells it is her voice, smooth and slow as molasses on a cool morning (blackstrap or sugar beet). Even now you want to eat her up, and neveryoumind that she'd have no depth of flavor at all with all those sugary notes to muck up the profile.

      1. Eye Contact: Write about two people seeing each other for the first time.

      The stories like to say that love is a bolt from a clear blue sky. That you'll recognize the other half of your whole when you spot each other on the street. These are the stories we believe in our youth, so that we look around every corner for that one. But we are not children now. We have and are grown through lives that are equal parts difficulty and strength. We have learned a hard truth: love isn't always quick. It isn't always easy. It is sacrifice of self for a shared together. Love often takes effort, constant and equitable from all involved. Two or five or ten, it's a shared load. It needs communication, and if anyone ever says that talking is easy, you'll know them for that selfsame youth. Love is the best work, well done for good purpose, and worth every moment of sweat. There may be easy moments, but they will slip in through the cracks and sweeten the whole mix, not make up the mass of it. If you still think no one could ever complete you the way your love does right now, well. Weltanschauung differs. I'd disagree with Aristophanes and Plato on this score too.

      1. The Rocket-ship: Write about a rocket-ship on it’s way to the moon or a distant galaxy far, far, away. (Writer's Note: Two for one.)

      It's startlingly easy to imagine yourself away, afar. The adventures to be had in the grand open spaces seem simpler. Less fraught. Less wearying. Who's to say they're not, in the end? But that only leaves the mess behind for other people to clean up. The grass is always greener in any yard but the one going sere. Staying still isn't an adventure. But it still needs doing. The work here will save the world too.

      The plumes of smoke curled in tight coils as the ship lifted up. Grey and white, they swirled together in densely packed springs. Fire blossomed beneath and behind that smoke, orange and red and yellow lances to shove it up. Up! UP! The gleaming silver and steel reflected them all as it rose, blunt-nose pointed towards the future. Her hand was steady as she guided the paper craft into the sky, puttering engine sounds just barely over her own breath. The world fell away.

      1. Dream-catcher: Write something inspired by a recent dream you had.

      They're a remarkable waste, dreams. So much of our creative energies are lost in the night, wisping away like so much valuable smoke. Oh, everyone claims to remember. "That one time with the owl that won't stop staring!" Worse, they're a loss twice over. In the night, and in the day when you try to picture it all over again. You did it just now with the owl! That's why I've started taking it. For such a tiny pill it packs a huge punch. No dreams for me! No more wasted nights, no more useless REM sleep. All of those false-technicolor moments are funneled directly into my daily life instead. My art has never been so vivid! My vision has never been so sharp! I admit that the tremors are getting bad, but needs must. Sacrifice is the fuel to the fire that is my Work! Certainly that's what I told the girls when they got too loud. Shouted it at them, really. They quieted down after that. Don't think I haven't noticed how they're watching me as I paint. Tiny beady little rat-eyes, those children have. Twitchy noses, too. They'd steal it in a heartbeat! They're always watching, just like the owl. Its eyes gleam ruby with flame flickering through. Never blinking. It doesn't need the night to escape now. I've found a way to let it out through the canvas instead. Owls eat rats, don't they? Where are those girls.

      posted in Readers
      EmmahSue
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    • RE: Regarding administration on MSB

      Tangent to Auspice:
      I wouldn't mind a fork. The conversation may gain more views and opinions if it was split, since people tend to put threads out of mind once they think they know what's in it.

      On track:
      Whether or not to include something like the Hog Pit was discussed before we started up MSB. At first, it was just a category; it spilled everywhere (we deliberately didn't mod much, so this isn't a surprise). After further discussion we decided to make that particular side of things opt-in. This way the people who didn't want to participate in the uglier bits wouldn't need to. Heck, it's possible to go in and out of the Pit Crew with a few clicks, so it's not a permanent decision in either direction.

      How would removing it entirely -- a step further than opt-in -- help? I'll state plainly first that I don't think it would help, but I'm not in charge n'more, so I can ask in full curiosity: how do you-all think it would? My desire for a grown-up conversation with as many people as possible about MU nonsense is not secret. How would removing that outlet help us achieve my personal not-so-secret wish?

      It may be a broader question, I suppose. I think the 'darker' emotions are just as valid and important as the lighter ones, so my opinion on these things is biased. I don't think there's anything wrong with enjoying mucking about in the uglier side of things, so long as you're making sure that the people with you also enjoy it (see above re: opt-in). I'm not sure denying that is a good idea; I'm open to hearing why I'm incorrect on that score.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: Regarding administration on MSB

      Most of the time I consider it a Feature, not a Bug, that our community, our games, and our gaming, move in such cyclical ways. The fact that I'm not on a MU right now, and haven't been regularly in quite some time, doesn't mean I'll never play on one again. It just means I'm not playing on one right now. I'm not in the right place for it, no harm no foul.

      The same goes here. If generic-you decides that MSB isn't the right place for you right now, that's okay. (If it's still here) in a few days, weeks, months, years, whathaveyou, then you get to glance in again. Maybe you'll be in a different space, maybe the forum will be; if you're still not jigsaw properly together, that's still okay. If you are, hurray! If you're not, please check in again in the future!

      So if you're upset at Auspice, or Gany, or Ark: that's okay. They're not evil monsters. You're not one either. If you want them to improve, that's amazing, please keep trying. If you're done trying for improvement for a while, please come back later to see if it's still needed, when you're able. Almost no decision made here is permanent, the cycle will come 'round again.

      The amount of emotion invested in improving this community is amazing. That doesn't mean it's always comfortable or pretty. That doesn't mean it's always going to change in a way you think is the right direction. You won't know if it's right for you until it is, and even then it'll take a while to be sure. If you have the energy to try to make it better, do it. If you don't, wait and see later.

      This thread is definitely not comfortable, and certainly not pretty. But it shows people are trying, and as far as a burnt-out MUsher like myself is concerned, that's also a Feature.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: SunnyJ's Anti-Sexual Harassment Guide

      Player logging isn't quite useless, but it's close. As wiz investigating complaints, I've received doctored logs more than once. Heck, I've received logs that were carefully doctored by multiple parties so they matched and the other singular side didn't.

      Personal logs are good for your own reference, absolutely. As a reminder of what some asshat's behavior was like before so you can keep it in mind in following the other steps, boy-howdy. But as 'proof', they're not great. Game-logs, on the other hand, are less likely to get futzed with.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: Helping Out

      I'll drop a note that Glitch, Theno and I developed the habit of using the phrase Mod Voice as a tag of sorts, to help differentiate between mod and participant commentary. Whether or not you do is entirely up to you, but it was helpful and it bears reminding for that alone. 🙂

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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    • RE: MSB Popularity Contest

      @kanye-qwest:

      We will drown the world in our tears! Let them sip the bitter, salty depths of our sorrow! Those royal few shall rue the day they were more popular than us, and we shall laugh (inwardly) at the suffering wrought by our furious blubbering!

      A Story of Pain by ES

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
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    • RE: MSB Popularity Contest

      I'm only 1.0075, should I be weeping into a corner somewhere?

      ES

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
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    • RE: But Wait, There's More!

      Everything @Thenomain and @Arkandel just said is gibberish to me! rock hard make keys go fast

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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    • RE: But Wait, There's More!

      @WTFE

      Well, when a mommy sphere and a daddy tube love each other very much, sometimes they invite a motor to the party and then the fun really gets started. And then the stork brought you!!

      posted in Announcements
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    • But Wait, There's More!

      "Oh-ho, a post from ES! She probably actually got off her ass to do that hand-over she posted about before, the lazy bum." (In my head, you all sound like that, fyi. 🙂 )

      Here's the deal, yo. In my lazy bum dragging of feet to get all this taken care of, only some of which was a friend passing hitting me much harder than expected, I've come to realize that I don't wanna. That is to say, the thought of taking over the board, even with @Sunny's inestimable assistance, fills me with a deep and abiding feeling of 'ugh'. Maybe a slapdash of 'sigh' and a soupcon of 'but but but' as well. All told, it's a hesitation that I should have recognized much sooner. We've all been there, that lingering instead of leaving a game when the fun was over. Well, most of us anyway.

      As this is to say, that @Glitch (who still technically owns the board, and has been super patient with me) and I have discussed what's to be done next. Y'all are still using it, so we're not heavily in favor (only somewhat, I promise!) of just closing the doors forever and walking away. We've decided instead to hand it over to someone else to own/administrate/mod as he sees fit.

      That person is @Arkandel.

      Our primary criteria for this wasn't popularity (sorry dude!) since we're all MUshers or ex-MUshers. Nothing and nobody we chose would be 100% liked, that's not how any of us roll. 🙂 We picked him because we both trust that he's not going to be an asshole who misuses or abuses the personal emails and administrative rights that come with something that's been alive for.... what. A few years now? That's it, guys. That's all we asked of him; don't take advantage of the users' personal info as it is available to you.

      He and @Glitch are working on the transfer. We're not going to be all up ins once it's done, and while he says he likes the board as it is right now (he can speak for himself, boy howdy), there's inevitably going to be changes in time. That's not our worry, that's just the nature of the beast. Get over it. ❤

      Your questions may begin.... now.

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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    • Upcoming Ownership Change

      Ladies and gents and non-ladies and non-gents, plus anyone who falls inbetween those various states:

      Sometime in the next week, we'll need to take the forum down in order to transfer ownership to my fine self and out of Glitch's patient hands. It might be 5 minutes down, it might be a few hours, depending no how quickly the hosting service does its thing. Once we start, any posts made afterwards will be lost, so we'll just close the shebang for the interval instead.

      This is your warning that it's coming! I'll try to post another warning when I have a more definite timeframe than 'sometime in the next week'. If you have questions, you may ask. I may or may not know how to answer.

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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    • RE: How Do I Headwiz?

      @HelloProject: Then it's likely we're in violent agreement and speaking the same thing very loudly in totally different words to each other. It happens, text-based medium and all. 🙂

      @Thenomain sez "On top of that, everyone notices. You may tell other staff or players what ethics are, what is expected of them, or how to play, but everyone will be watching you for the clues you give them. You cannot "do as I say, not as I do" in this hobby, everyone will attempt to do as you do, because if the Headstaff does it then it must be okay."

      A++ would agree again. Your expectations of yourself and your own actions are what others will see and respond to. That requires a fair amount of honesty with yourself about what you're doing. This is an 'anyone in a leadership position' thing, not a 'only for Headwizzen' thing.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: How Do I Headwiz?

      OK. 🙂

      Different strokes, yo. I don't think being slightly distant or detached means you have to be above/away, or difficult to approach, or not-genuine. If I answer a page or channel-question with "What's up, how can I help?" or offer one, "Hey, I wanted to ask something if you have a moment..." those are my real, true self. They're also courteous and slightly distant, in that I'm not presuming. The distance needed is to treat everyone the same way, and LCD on social interactions is with polite friendliness so you're not making them uneasy by going too friendly, and not making them upset by going cold.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: How Do I Headwiz?

      I'll add to the list!

      No surprises.

      That is to say, very few of us handle change with nearly the amount of grace we ought. If you're going to change something on your game that has been established in the past, give warning and explain why. You're going to get grumbles, that's a given. But the grumbles about warning are significantly less of a heartburn than the explosions of HATE and FEAR that happen when the sky is suddenly orange instead of blue.

      Leave yourself room to change your mind.

      You aren't going to be perfect. If you make a decision that turns out wrong, then for fuck's sake, reverse the damn thing. Acknowledge you made the mistake, figure out how to avoid it in the future (if possible), and follow through on explaining the situation to the game as a whole. A mistake is only a Problem if you make it a second time out of carelessness and lack of attention to fixing it the first.

      Be the change you want to see in the world (tm).

      You're the only one you can control, natch. The atmosphere, levels of adaptability, agreeableness, and general tone of your game start with you. It doesn't end there, of course. There are a bunch of people involved. But if the core doesn't hold, the rest of it will falter in due time. Be the player that you want other players to be; expect it of yourself and of everyone around you, even and especially the friends you'd normally give a pass. Even if you're upset, even if someone else is treating you shabbily, you're the center. Own it and it'll ripple outwards from you.

      Recognize that you're not on the game to be or make friends.

      That's not to say you shouldn't be friendly, or that you have to give up the relationships that you've built over the years. On a scale of -1 (hatred and loathing) to +10 (besties 4 eva), it means you need to treat the players on your game at a +3 minimum (courteous distance). You don't get to have extremely negative scale interactions, and the moment you do, you need to consider asking them to leave. You also don't get to have extremely positive scale interactions with a select few, because the moment you do, you're playing favorites and the other players will feel it and react with resentment. Headwizzing requires a certain level of detachment. I don't personally think that's a bad thing. If your friends can't handle the fact that talking to you as Headwiz is potentially different than talking to you as their buddy, then that friendship isn't nearly as true as one hopes.

      Find your peers.

      We are none of us great in a void. We are none of us great without feedback. Find the people who aren't afraid to tell you when you're screwing up. Find the people who aren't invested to a creepy degree in their character, who are willing to look at the game from a proverbially global perspective and give you opinions you can consider. You might go your own route anyway, but you do need to listen and consider first. Yours may be the final say, but that doesn't mean making decisions in a vacuum is a good idea.

      ES

      posted in Mildly Constructive
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    • RE: Upcoming Changes

      As I am a grown-up with a grown-up job, hosting shouldn't be a problem. I appreciate the offers, and if something goes sideways, I'll speak up. ☺️ Forum won't be lost for lack of monies, no worries.

      As for my side job associated with the porn industry, you'd be surprised and disheartened at how mind numbingly soul destroying it is to have no choice of which clips you watch/reskin. It's good cash on the side, but.

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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    • Upcoming Changes

      Good morning, guys and dolls,

      Our fair @Glitch will be stepping away from the forum in the near'ish future. I'll be switching the forum hosting over to a different... server? I don't know the tech side, just that it'll be somewhere paid instead of taking up space on his machine. 🙂

      Inasmuch as there's anything in the way of modding here (which is to say, very little if I can help it), @Sunny is going to help me out. The switchover has no official date, but I'll let everyone know as I figure out the doing of it.

      You may leave your questions below and if I know how to answer them, I will. Other than some potential downtime (?) if the move requires it, I don't see much changing, because it's working as intended so far.

      ES

      posted in Announcements
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