Posts made by Insomnia

Honestly, I think the women who are all "I'm a girl and I don't know how to play games, plz give me things. Teehee! I'll fuck if you buy me a mount!" do more to hurt how women are perceived in gaming more than anything else. Not that I have the body for it, but it's while I'll never be a bikini streamer. I want people to watch my playthroughs because of the game, and hopefully I'm entertaining, not because I have boobs. I mean I have to be entertaining because I sort of suck at games, even if I love them. I feel bad enough when people gift me games that they want to see me play. Even when they are games on my wishlist so I would have played them anyway. On one hand free stuff is always good. But did they send it to me because I'm entertaining, or because I have boobs? It's always in the back of my mind.

It puts me in a weird place when people comment on my voice; on one hand my ex really shot my self esteem down the toilet and all the way to China, so when someone compliments my voice, for the longest while I couldn't take it. Now I'm comfortable with it, I can even laugh it off at work if someone thinks I'm not old enough to know what a cassette is. But I don't want people tuning in because of my voice. But I stream and record and if I could actually make a living on it I absolutely would! So I need views... And like I said, I kinda suck at games so at least my voice is something? But it's still really weird to have someone say my voice is sexy. At the same time people keep telling me I should do an ASMR video... even Youtube suggests them now. But I'm worried about it being a gimmick. But you have to have some sort of gimmick to be able to make a career of it.

Luckily my moderators are gentlemen, and they will shut that shit down usually faster than I can see it if someone comes into the channel and is all Tits or GTFO or are just rude in general.

Then I just decided to have fun with it. I started doing Let's Plays and Streaming because I talk to myself anyway, so why not record it? I play what I want and try to ignore subs. Until I look at them and get bummed because I'm not getting them because I'm not actively trying to use my sexuality to get them.

Catch 22, really. Pretty much why I never use voice in games, unless I am playing with people I know.

@Auspice Right? Normally I stream fantasy on Tuesdays, but with Extra Life coming up I wonder if I should wait. This laptop can stream and record in 4k, but I'm not going to because I doubt my viewers have the ability to watch it in 4k. But Tuesday is Tuesday and Extra Life is November 5th and that's too long. (It's available to play in 1 day 10 hours from this post, so you should get some play in, maybe?)

Guess I'll have to suffers and start another stream. Oh well. Life is hard.

#streamerproblems.

Skyrim remaster is available for pre-load right now. And if you already own Skyrim? You get it for free.

@Apu I've been tempted to do it. My hair is super straight and I always wanted curly hair, had a friend who went they same way and her hair was gorgeously curly...

But now I've gotten older and I guess, hormones? Because it's started to go wavy on it's own the longer it gets, so now I'm hesitant since it's at the middle of my back and what if it goes all straight again.

But I live in Nova Scotia and if I would ever do it, it would have been the end of spring / start of summer, not fa-- winter, who am I kidding, we don't get fall here. So it just becomes a cycle of me thinking about it.

@surreality I work from home, one of the reasons that dad gave me the okay to use is his landline is that being on the phone would tie it up so that people couldn't get through. He has a cell phone, that's how people call him now.

I mess with them too though. I've been someone who had a pathological need to answer a ringing phone - but I had broken in so thank you for warning me about the computer so I won't take it...

Or I'm still on a 486 so it takes a while to load.

Or they just flat out refuse to talk to me when don't think I'm old enough. But those are usually surveys.

Before 9am though they just get a fuck off, eat a bag of dicks / tits and I hang up.

GTA V Online is giving away free in game money if you log in during the 3rd year anniversary if you log in before Halloween.

Most accurate sexy Halloween costume yet!

@Cupcake You get to save money but not getting them a gift?

Also Bobby Vee, Pete Burns, and Tom Hayden.

Today.

Dropsy? I could do that. Can't do anything with Sakura on Twitch as they are banned. I could probably do it on Youtube, but while I'm okay with switching games, I'm not sure about switching streams though.

If there is anything you might want to see, I'm taking requests for games to play. i can't promise I have it, but you never know!

@cadi APTN would disagree with you on that.

Free drugs for clicking on this link! Or maybe brain bleach.

I'm doing Extra Life again this year. Year 6!

Plus being able to kill whatshername...

Yeah, I know. just... grr.

I can always tell when it's a scam too, because if someone for me they ask for Firstname, or Firstname Last name. If it's a scammer they always call for Mrs. Lastname. Makes it easier to troll them. But not even 9am.

@Thenomain I got it for my PS4 before the price went up, it was just one of my big hey you re-started Steam these things are on sale right now! banners.

Not being able to use the air horn we have next to the phone when "Windows Technical Support" called to tell us there was a virus on the computer when they called before 9am, because dad just got off a night shift done at 6:30am, and because of my weird can't sleep after seeing the sun habit I can't get back to sleep.

In before an air horn, what assholes. We're on the no call list. You try and tell them this and they get all nasty like you murdered a basket full of kittens. Also fuck them for trying to scam people in the first place at 8am or 2pm.

If you like Fallout 4 on PC and didn't get the season pass before the price went up, it's on sale on Steam right now, back down at the original price.

How long it takes to get work done.