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    Best posts made by KDraygo

    • RE: Diversity Representation in MU*ing

      Whew, this is a heavy subject but also a very important one, and it certainly makes one go through a deep thinking. This is also a subject I have contemplated with myself, certainly much more often in the second decade of being in this hobby than the first when I was more young and stupid. Despite being a minority in the US, I was lucky enough to be a minority that wasn't as looked down upon or discriminated against as some of the other minority groups. There was discrimination, definitely, but the discrimination I faced was a thousand times less harmful than what African Americans or Hispanic people face on a daily basis. However, growing up in the US since the late 1980s and on, my brain certainly has gone through a whitewashing through education, media, and just the atmosphere around me. Sadly, I did not fully embrace my own origin until I became more mature because growing up in the states, it is inherently viewed that being white is the pinnacle of our culture and that was subtly taught in this country.

      When it comes to this hobby, I have been incredibly guilty of playing predominantly white characters. In fact, I don't recall playing a non-white character until HorrorMU where one of the story arcs (the one allowing you to be a deity) that I was going to swap to an Asian deity which means an Asian art portrait as my character PB, my first non-white character that I can recall. However, RL waylaid me and I couldn't log on much anymore so I never actually got to play the character even though I had it mapped out and ready to go. It wasn't until I came back after my year+ hiatus that when I returned to the hobby on Savage Skies where I finished creating an Asian character and started playing a minority as a main character for the first time.

      Now, here are the reasons from a non-white person's eyes on what lead me to the decisions I have made since I started this hobby. When I select a character, I want to play that character well so other people have fun when they interact with my character and aren't repulsed by the character's actions or the way I write. One can make a character more challenging to play by having odd quirks or hooks that are inherent roadblocks to a hero's story and I've found that I had no issues tackling any of those kinds of character challenges except for two characteristics, namely Race and Sexuality.

      I don't play gay, bi, or trans-gendered characters because I would suck at them, mainly because I was never in their shoes once. I don't know how to properly play a character like that properly and what's worse, because of the lack of experience and accurate understanding, I could easily come off as offensive in my character's actions just because what one learns about them from an outside point of view is often misleading or just offensively incorrect. This is the same reason why I have yet to play a person of color (except Asian), for the very same reason except this time it is a racial characteristic and not a sexuality characteristic. What I learned about minorities (both racial and sexuality) when I was young was very, very different from what I've learned since growing up, and still learning about to this day. I don't think anyone can fully understand with all the learning they do because they lack one key element which is actual life experience (the good and the bad), which is why white privilege is such an important term that is being brought up heavily today.

      Now why didn't I play more Asian characters in the past being an Asian myself? Because an Asian character isn't as easy as playing a white character, unfortunately. People often say (and I have been guilty of this in the past without fully understanding what I was saying) just play normally. Even the term "normal" is skewed heavily to where you grew up. In the US? Being normal is being white. In my opinion, you can play a POC character "normally" because you would be doing it wrong. Also, since growing up, Asians are rarely the lead protagonist in American movies or shows and if they are, sometimes they are portrayed inaccurately or even racially insensitive because it's amusing. Am I offended when I do that? Personally, no. I look at it and go haha, that's so dumb. Then move on. But it has certainly whitewashed what I think are easily acceptable elements in a movie, a show, or a story. It's easier to pick a white character and play it "normally", it gives me less stress and one less thing to consider when choosing an appropriate action. It is a bit sad that this is the way I look at things but it is also due to all the teachings and experiences I soaked up since I was a kid.

      So will I play more PoC characters in the future? Unfortunately, probably not. Is it because I don't care about the lack of diverse IC demographics on games? Of course not, it's the opposite. I don't want to try to help balance the diversity in a game by introducing a character that is horribly played that brings shame to myself and discomfort to those that interact with my character.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Star Wars Republic d20 SAGA - (Prequel Era)

      I think the recent exchange of posts paints a very bright warning sign on Star War games in general. It is too easy to turn a cooperative RP game into one where people chase stats and try to buff their characters to insane levels so they can stomp on other players. Cooperation goes out the window, it becomes a cold war of stat and gear building until that eventually turns into a nuke launch by all sides with the losers royally pissed.

      Now, twenty years ago, that might have sounded like fun to me because when you get that 7D, you're like ahmg this feels greeeeeeeat! Get an 8D? Holy shit, I just cast Lvl. 8 Cock of the Infinite on myself, fucking awesome. 9D??? I steal yo soul and cast Lightning Lvl. 1,000,000 Your body explodes into a fine bloody mist, because you are only a Lvl. 2 Druid. It certainly made the player feel good like you're stomping on a bunch of lemmings without consequence or it took crazy amount of coordination to counter you. There is no cooperative RP there, no building of bonds between players to enrich the story of the setting and each character, even if it is between a good character and an evil character.

      Star Wars is probably one of the hardest genre to create a MUSH on, especially if you open it to the entire galaxy, allow cross faction and PvP, allow Force powers since that multiplies their character strength. It's been over a decade since I've played on one of the old, really large Star Wars games like Minos Clusters or SW1 but those were the glaring issues at the time.

      posted in Adver-tis-ments
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: An Apology to BSO and BSU.

      @downwithopp This is Kell/Alek from BSO, just wanted to chime in my experiences from an outsider's (who didn't know much of all this drama that was going on) view looking in. I don't think we've RP'd with each other from other games in the past, or I just don't remember as I'm really bad at knowing who is who until it is pointed out to me.

      You ran a lot of scenes and mission stuff which was great in my book, a definitely plus for the game. The minus I saw was as others have mentioned, your ability to just kill off or retire characters continuously, sometimes within months. That's a big minus because not only does it kill any relationships and connections you have with others in the past, it also leads to the consequence of other players not willing to put in an effort to build connections with your new flavor of the month character.

      My advice is that you posted your apology, a good first step. Just leave it at that, there is no reason to argue with others about what happened. It might not be how you saw it, but that doesn't matter as what matters is what they felt when interacting with you. Just leave it be, go back to lurking and silent mode. Focus on changing how you behave and how you play your characters, stick with one or two characters at most and just keep them going, through thick and thin. Avoid relationships since that seems to be a trigger point, and try to shed the behavior you have identified yourself as what other people dislike and want to avoid. The only way to change for the better is to work on continuous improvement on yourself, one step at a time.

      Path to redemption is available to everyone, just some roads are much more difficult than others.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Hello MSBites! Grade your administrators.

      @sunny said in Hello MSBites! Grade your administrators.:

      @calindra

      The trick is to stop caring about other folks more than they care for me. If you know the answer as to how to do that, please do share.

      The answer is much easier to share than it is the do. It may also come down as selfish or stuck up but I personally don't see it that way.

      In the end, you just have to realize that you are the most important thing that exists in your life. You take precedence. When someone says something to you, just gauge if it is worth your time acknowledging it. If it's meaningless BS, then its trash and ignored. There is no reason to waste another minute of your time thinking about it or reacting to it. If there is substance to what was said and it can help you improve yourself, then work on it to better yourself.

      It's fine to be selfish mentally, it is not your job in life to please everyone or accept everyone. If they don't contribute meaningfully or positively into your life, they aren't needed. There is no reason to spend any of your energy on them.

      Takes time and repetition.

      posted in Announcements
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Heroic Sacrifice

      @kestrel Another option, which storytellers/gamemasters will have to make on the fly, is to keep an eye on the participants. Is there a player that has chosen to take a backseat from those who pushes out front to shine, and continues to play well, contribute meaningfully as a support player, and reacts/plays more in line with what his character is capable of instead of overreaching just to maintain the spotlight. Tweak the scene/plot/mission where there is a nice twist where that quieter player is the one that spots the crucial thing that leads to success, because he wasn't in the forefront. Just to show that the hero sometimes isn't the one that is front and center, trying to hold everyone's attention.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Vietnam War MUSH

      Vietnam War had a shit ton of wrong in it, starting from how the conflict began. It showcases the terrible results of American and European Imperialism, the horrors of military doctrine of body counts, the lack of care of the native population (yet again) just to fight a proxy war on foreign lands, the might of the military industrial complex that has no care for Americans or foreigners, general warc crimes and atrocities committed without a second thought, etc.

      There was nothing good about the Vietnam War to play about.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: KDraygo's Playlist

      One more update, taking my first foray into the gigantic game called Arx. Also my first attempt at playing a roster'd character. Good luck me.

      posted in A Shout in the Dark
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: The Savage Skies

      I had a lot of fun on the game, unfortunately RL just got in my way. My activity in both TSS and Arx went to zilch. Just a lot of mental fatigue from work and RL, my creativity has hit rock bottom. Hopefully I can find the spark again to want to write and RP sometime in the future.

      I also think the survey can be a very good source of valuable information for game runners who care about the game. Sort of like an exit interview which can be answered anonymously.

      posted in Adver-tis-ments
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Hobby-related Resolutions/Goals for the coming year... ?

      Find more time to play.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Arx- Gareth

      @WTFE said in Arx- Gareth:

      Don't you guys love it when someone comes to MSB trying to garner sympathy and instead makes it really clear just how much of a dickwad he really is?

      And by "love it" I mean "want to scoop out your eyeballs with a spork just to feel the pain"…

      alt text

      posted in A Shout in the Dark
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: MU Things I Love

      @kanye-qwest This hobby would be so much better and fun if this happened more often, and not just on a staff level! It's so much easier to clear issues up before they are allowed to fester and grow into some mutated monster where bridges end up having to be burned to exorcise it.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • KDraygo's Playlist

      Past:

      • SW1 - Howie Darklighter, Kell Draygo (Brief return at a much later date)
      • SW Minos Clusters - Howie Darklighter
      • SW Erebus Expanse - Forgot the bit name.
      • SW Clone Wars - Howie Darklighter
      • SW Brak Sector - Forgot the bit name.
      • SW: A New Threat - Forgot the bit name.
      • WC: Gemini Sector - Kell
      • Serenity MUSH - Kell
      • Steel & Stone - Kell and Erik
      • BSG: Orion - Agrippa
      • Game of Kings - Eldrick Lohstren (First one, before things went crazy)
      • Fifth World - Erik
      • Eternal Crusade - Elrick
      • Creation’s Edge - Elrick
      • Tales of the Round - Elrick, Steffan
      • SW: Fires of Hope - Kell
      • BSG: Unification - Kell, Aleksander
      • Fifth Kingdom - Steffan
      • Horror MU - Defender

      Present:

      • The Savage Skies - Keisuke
      • Arx - Gaston
      posted in A Shout in the Dark
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Tips for not wearing out your welcome

      @A-B said in Tips for not wearing out your welcome:

      @Tinuviel - We've moved on from that, I'm not talking to the Spirit Lake mods, I'm trying to get advice from people about whether there's any way to make it less likely to happen over and over again in other things. Admittedly the original incident keeps coming up as an example.

      From what you are experiencing, unfortunately the only way you could find a remedy is professional help. You said you didn't want it but with the issues you are facing, it is help you need. If you unable to recognize when you're running your mouth and becoming unwelcome, there is nothing anyone else besides a trained professional to help you.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: RL Anger

      @ganymede said in RL Anger:

      @thenomain

      One.

      I have two kids and one cat. If one of the kids wants a cat, they will have to kill one child or the existing cat. And I know my cat is pretty damn fast.

      My household is always going to be interesting.

      Two children enter, one kitty leaves! THUNDERDOME!

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: MU Things I Love

      @mietze Even on the grand scheme of things, I don't believe it is silly at all. Accomplishments, whether personal or shared with others, have a significant positive impact on yourself and those you share it with. Even if society doesn't put a monetary value on said accomplishment, not everything that is good for you health-wise can be measured by a monetary gain or a gain that is traditionally judged as useful or not. Mental health and mental stamina is incredibly important to one's well being, especially now, and accomplishments like this certainly helps reinforce this for you and those that see it and feel good about it as well. So finding the free time to do this on top of the important stuff that is swirling around in everyone's lives is awesome! Especially with some of the crafted stuff I've seen in Arx since joining, the artwork on items is like whoa.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.

      @auspice HR is not there to help you or be on your side. HR is only there to make sure the company will not get hit with a lawsuit and if they do, win. They are 100% on the company's side and if they feel you are no threat, they won't give you the time of day.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Why do you play? (Or not.)

      Like @Three-Eyed-Crow, I definitely enjoy the improv and collaborative nature of this hobby. Being able to share creatively with others can be fun. Also, especially when I play on games that are based off of movies or books that I have read, i.e. Game of Thrones, Star Wars, etc., it lets me expand creatively in that theme on what else could be going on in that world/universe. When you include other people, you also get ideas that you may not have thought of, which could in turn help you spark new ideas yourself.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: The Work Thread

      @gryphter Definitely wear a mask and just try to social distance at work if possible, you don't need the N95s as regular masks are there to keep your vapor droplets from spraying far if you happen to cough or sneeze, and it also helps prevent you from touching your own mouth or nose. HR won't do anything unless there is a threat that there could be a potential lawsuit against the company, they're there to protect the company, not the people. As for your wife, her actual doctor is definitely correct, avoid the infection zone that is the hospital as much as possible. It sucks that people are being forced to choose between health safety and financial safety.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.

      @Aria said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:

      @Auspice My father once told me when I was 15 years old or so that I shouldn't have cut my hair short because the boys in my school wouldn't like it.

      Given how many threats he had made of the 'dating my daughter' type, I looked him right in the eye and asked, "Daddy, do you really think I should make choices based on what the boys at school want me to do?"

      The look on his face -- and the ensuing silence -- was priceless and I have not forgotten it to this day.

      alt text

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
    • RE: Fires of Hope: A Star Wars Story

      Personally, I would prefer it if there are no permanent force apps so that the character isn't a player's character. Instead, you can app for FCs but they are temporarily played, brought in for that particular story arc. The player doesn't get to keep the bit but gets to play the part out, this way players app only because they are interested in building more to the story instead of something for themselves.

      Having permanent FC slots will always cause problems, whether it is staff favoritism accusations, player cliques, etc. I can see avoiding staff favoritism by going playerbase voting, but then that causes a deeper and more sinister player politics/cliques to form, potentially more damaging since they will be in it for more long term big gains.

      I personally enjoy Star Wars games without any FCs that belongs to the players. I wouldn't want one as it would feel like too much responsibility to shoulder. To balance it so that the character remains fair and fun, while making sure I continue to build to the story. Especially a darker character, since Force Powers, it will be much easier to be blamed for bullying and abuse.

      posted in Adver-tis-ments
      KDraygo
      KDraygo
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