Posts made by sahin

This has helped.

My input. Mixed ethnicities. Surname sounds like a one that matches my pale-ass skin and hooded eyes - but it's Middle Eastern.

My great grandmother in Puerto Rico was Taino. All eight of my great aunts looked like her. So does my grandma. My grandmother married a fellow from Spain.

My mother is and looks Puerto Rican -- she calls herself Nuyorican because she and every cousin in that generation were all first generation born New Yorkers. Some of them married into a Filipino family with an excess of brothers. So many cousins. My nieces are a gorgeous - glorious mix of both sides of the family.

Then me. I am me. Pale and awkward about my background. I can't dance. I can't tan. I can't speak either language my mother nor my father speak. I've been told: "That I'm white enough to pass."

Which makes me angry, always, because I am not. And there's a kind of dysphoria (is that the right word) attached to that.

But then I need to acknowledge that there's privilege there.

It's weird.

Ultimately, I play characters that are opposite of who and what I am because I can.

@TheOnceler

There's multiple generators on that site. I'd not known that there were rules. Gasp!

Used another generator on the same page. It's slightly more Malcolm.

I'm going to be making a difficult decision in regard to my gray muzzle pup soon. I hate that.

Things I love: SSRIs, cats, and this ridiculously tedious whipped coffee.

Edited: Removed. Because on a reread it felt like whining.

Thimbleweed Park. Right in the nostalgia. Comfort food of games right now.

@Cupcake

Rock! Hello good boy!

Playing someone largely clueless and mildly skeptical makes me weirdly happy today.

PSSSST.

Heard ya'll were soliciting cat pictures here.

... Tiger King. But listen to the Wondery podcast Joe Exotic as well.

Lowest effort: cereal.
Some effort: Fried egg.

I've also just grabbed a block of emotional support cheese and that was it.

Just Malcolm.
I've broken myself of the alt-itis.

Edit: Maybe.

There will be a cat.

A slonky blue-grey boy that's a year and a week old with greenish eyes. A little standoffish and but if you keep your hands to yourself and let him approach first - he warms up quickly.

We're waiting until after Christmas to have a week sleepover with him. He's currently named Smokey - but I'm looking to change that to another two syllable name a bit more suitable.

Name suggestions welcome.

One: my thirteen year-old dog stopped eating her food. She will eat EVERYTHING else in the known universe, but if it's specifically made for dogs? NOPE. She will not. I have made another vet appointment for her - and if the vet goes "Eh," shrug like she did next time I swear I'm going to facepalm my head off.

Two: OCD brain has been focused on the above all. Damn. Day. And I'm still awake. Can't sleep, brain will overwhelm me. Fucking brain.