My mom arranged for my son, who lives in another state with his dad, to visit over xmas against my explicit wishes. He's leaving for basic training in January, so she wanted to see him since it'll probably be a long time before she could again, I guess. Needless to say, I was livid that she'd go behind my back, endangering my son, and potentially his career if he got sick right before basic. But how dare I insinuate that she would ever put her grandson at risk.
Cut to this last weekend when he arrived and I took the risk of going to see him where he's staying at my parents' house because he's already here and I haven't seen him since January, and everyone keeps assuring me that they've been safe.
The next day she goes off on me saying that since I came and exposed myself to them all anyway, I'm coming with when she takes him back to his dad (like an 8 hour drive) since I must not be that paranoid after all. I said I'd take him back myself, so she starts making jokes about me already being exposed to her.
It's been several days and I'm still so fucking angry that I probably didn't even write this well enough to convey why I'm so fucking angry. I think I'm most angry that I can't even properly explain to my son why I haven't been back and why everything is so fucked up. And lord knows what they're saying to him about me.
I hate my family. I'm not coping well.