Stepping Down
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Right now I have a lot going on in my life.
Since initially needing some time out, there has been a train of stuff that has not eased. I got very ill with a viral non-covid illness. I'm dealing with some stuff with my kids. I have some medical stuff going on where my stress level is quite literally endangering my health/significantly shortening my lifespan (Welcome to everyone else's existence, right?)
I wish I was in a better space to argue, advocate, keep up, ect. But honestly I'm not. O feel like the time I've needed and my slowness is hurting the community now. It is hard to see blame being assigned to Gany for many things that
Please understand that the decision of having more uniform behavior expectations is something I advocated for because of the frequent spillover that were becoming consistently harder to mod (behind the scenes). So if people want to blame someone if things continue in that vein, blame me.
If you are angry that things weren't turned on fast enough or responded too immediately, blame me. I'm the one that hasn't been around. There's no nefariousness by gany or derp with that, and I hope you will believe there's no ill intent on my end either.
While I have laughed, cried, been depressed, been proud of helping to moderate MSB at various times it never felt like a burden and I never dreaded it. That's changing and eveb though i know it is 90 percent non-MSB situational and timing feelings, i know ultimately that's not going to help anyone feelings, and I have been feeling like I've fallen down in so many other places and ways right now at least I can step back here before i do more damage. My feelings for the community haven't changed but when it feels like I'm a hindrance rather than a help it's time to let go. Especially when if I can't be around as much to help. As much as sometimes I want to wring some necks around here at times I do still care about the community here and too many individuals friends and acquaintances to name.
I'm not leaving MSB. I am an infrequent discord user but if someone enjoys me as an individual and wants to keep in touch because they are or they want to in general I'm happy to share my discord username thing via PM. I currently play on Arx and plan to continue to, as RP remains a source of stress relief and enjoyment.
If you want me to send you my stupid meme and pictures of cats and fun game stuff you're more than welcome to contact me, but i don't plan on talking about current events here bc it is painful for me too and I am not in a place where I can adequately process for me much less help others.
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@mietze As always, if you need anything, tell me.
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@mietze Hope you're okay.
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@mietze I'm sorry that you feel as though there has been any failure here on your part. I don't think it was ever reasonable to expect you to come back and magically fix all the issues that occurred in your absence. Please continue to take care of you.
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@mietze From the outside, with nothing but my own inferences and projection to go from about all the stuff happening behind the curtain, I don't see a way I can blame you for anything going on. Maybe I'm biased because you've only ever been kind and supportive to me, but I like to think that even if you hadn't been, I still wouldn't be able to blame you for putting real life ahead of internet drama.
I one thousand percent WILL blame you if you don't post cat pics regularly, though. My goodwill covers a lot, but that sin is unforgivable.
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@mietze I'll join this dogpile and say don't feel fault for anything and no one should blame you. You've always been a voice of reason. We've never talked but I wish you well. This is sad news but hopefully good for you.
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I will add to the "it's not your fault in any form" dogpile.
You did nothing wrong.
Take care of yourself where ever you may go.
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Repeating 'Do not take the blame for things that happened while you were dealing with real life'. It's not your fault. Don't take the blame. Do get in touch if you wish to.
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I hope you are okay, @mietze. If there's anything I can do to help with anything - please let me know.
Thanks for all the fish!
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@mietze Be safe! Be well!
