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saosmash

Ehhh I feel like @scar wins this contest.

scar

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Sparks

@scar said in RL Anger:

How is it that the only times I ever get fucked by a car are while using a designated bike lane?

I'm glad you're alright, and I hope you got their license number!

Ganymede

They think my partner has developed ovarian cancer.

It's really not fucking fair at all. I'm tired as fuck, and I can't imagine what she's going through.

mietze

I'm so sorry, Gany.

saosmash

@ganymede Oh no. I'm so sorry.

Ganymede

@saosmash said in RL Anger:

Oh no. I'm so sorry.

I'm cranky about it, sure, but it's not the worst news we've ever had. If anything, it was foreseeable.

Oh well.

(As I mentioned before, she's survived several kinds of cancer before. But she's only got so many non-vital organs left in her.)

Misadventure

Auspice

@ganymede said in RL Anger:

They think my partner has developed ovarian cancer.

It's really not fucking fair at all. I'm tired as fuck, and I can't imagine what she's going through.

Super lame. I'm sorry to hear it.

Arkandel

@ganymede said in RL Anger:

@saosmash said in RL Anger:

Oh no. I'm so sorry.

I'm cranky about it, sure, but it's not the worst news we've ever had. If anything, it was foreseeable.

Oh well.

(As I mentioned before, she's survived several kinds of cancer before. But she's only got so many non-vital organs left in her.)

Shit, I just read this. I'm sorry Gany

Sunny

@ganymede

I'm sorry.

Wizz

Finally decided to get back on an antidepressant since I've got better insurance. I went to the same doctor my mother and sister see, who gave me my original prescription a long while back. He asked if I was still having sleep issues and I said yes, and he went into this glorious sales pitch for some new miracle drug, said it wouldn't leave me tired, wasn't addictive, wouldn't cause me to sleepwalk, safe as sugar pills, yadda yadda... And then gave me this HUUUGE sampler bag and said I should start at 20mg and see how I felt.

Got home, opened it up, and the data sheet is the size of a road map. Main common side effects at 20mg: sleepwalking. Fatigue. Sleep paralysis. Habit-forming. Whole fucking section about suicide ideation and REPORTS OF COMPLETED SUICIDES BY OVERDOSE for patients with depression, so doctors should make sure preventative measures are in place and limit available dosage as much as possible!

What. The. Fuck.

(And I am truly sorry to hear that @Ganymede, that is awful.)

Auspice

@wizz

That's the problem with so many of those. A lot of the 'new miracle drugs' for fibro / chronic pain have the same issues. That they cause suicidal thoughts, etc... it's why I won't go near them.

I hate when doctors mislead you like that.

Lithium

@auspice No. The problem is that they receive major kickbacks from the pharmaceutical company to get people to /try/ them in the first place.

Last psych I went to had me changing medicine every three months for my bi-polar, but I was like just give me fucking Lithium, that shit works for me (and is also how I got my forum moniker) but to this date, he won't put me on it.

Wizz

@lithium

I'd heard about kickbacks, but it blew my mind to have a doctor straight-up lie to me like that. Or at least to have been exposed to his blatant ignorance about this medication. Like, I commute daily and it specifically warns against next-day driving and that people have reported falling asleep at the wheel. I've TOLD this doctor about having suicidal thoughts in the past, and he didn't mention the reports of overdose on this drug, at all, and gave me about 2 weeks' worth. Like, this just seems fucking inept.

Auspice

@wizz said in RL Anger:

@lithium

I'd heard about kickbacks, but it blew my mind to have a doctor straight-up lie to me like that. Or at least to have been exposed to his blatant ignorance about this medication. Like, I commute daily and it specifically warns against next-day driving and that people have reported falling asleep at the wheel. I've TOLD this doctor about having suicidal thoughts in the past, and he didn't mention the reports of overdose on this drug, at all, and gave me about 2 weeks' worth. Like, this just seems fucking inept.

Sounds like new doctor time to me.

I've been there. It blows. And I don't recommend sticking with the doctor if you can.

TNP

@auspice said in RL Anger:

Sounds like new doctor time to me.

Sounds like a complaint to the AMA to me.

Pandora

@ganymede
Well first and foremost I want to say I hope they're wrong and that she has not, in fact, developed ovarian cancer. That said, even a preemptive diagnosis like that is terrible and I'm sorry the two of you are having to go through that. I hate when cancer survivors are called fighters (as if the ones that didn't make it somehow weren't) but she is a survivor & here's high hopes for that to remain true for long into the future.

Ganymede

@Pandora

I think the worst of it is that she was admitted into the hospital because the scans showed something in that area. She's had ruptured ovarian cysts before, but this one was different -- that's why she went. After scanning her three or four times, they provisionally determined that it was filled with fluid, that it was probably just a cyst or abscess, and sent her home. And we thought: okay, that's not so bad.

She was referred to someone else, who said that there was some sort of solid mass there. That usually indicated abnormal growth, which is an indicia of cancer. Given my partner's history of cancer (neuroblastoma; skin (twice); kidney; thyroid; uterine), there's a better chance that it is cancer, but they're going to send the scans to a gynecological oncologist.

Of course, it's not her fault. None of it is. But it would be really nice if I could have 12 months without watching her being taken to an ER in pain or twitching uncontrollably. I guess, after being with her for almost 13 years, I should be used to it, but you never do, it never gets old, and the pain still hurts as much as the first time.

Pandora

@ganymede
I'm so glad you followed up on the referral and didn't just take the hospital's word for it, you'd think with her history there wouldn't be any 'oh it's probably just a cyst' nonsense. I don't know if you're in the US or not, but I do hate how here they waver between going all out to bilk your insurance & doing almost-nothing re: tests for fear of costs.

Send our hopes along with those scans that it is not cancer; and I'm not much of a sappy person but I feel legitimately crap that you're hurting over something you can only experience from the sidelines, much as I'm sure you want to do something.