This is an 'RL Thing I Love' with a taste of 'RL Thing That Gives Me Terrible Itchy Anxiety and Horror'
Some of y'all who frequent imgur may have seen the promoted posts from Mikes Hard Lemonade for their giveaway for Mother's Day, offering winners round trip visits to surprise their mom.
...I won one.
I entered because the last time I saw my mom -- the only time I've seen her in a couple years -- was a rushed two days for my grandmother's funeral. We got to talk in snippets. And she was the driving force behind convincing my dad to help pay off the rest of a small loan I'd taken out for school years ago... and when they did, her only ask had been that I get my passport so she could take me on a cruise 'someday.' She misses me. So I entered because it was a pie-in-the-sky 'My mom would appreciate it' thing.
I mean it's not like 'anyone' wins those.
...I did.
And since it's only 3 days and one of my coworkers who I only overlap 2 days of work with has said he's happy to swap days with me whenever I need a weekend off (I'm taking his old shift while he moves to Mon-Fri)... It looks totally doable.
The anxiety comes in with the fact that just last summer, my brother made death threats against me. Part of the prize package is I can accept a hotel room, so I totally will to avoid having to stay in the house where my brother is, but still. I'm really, really terrified of being around him. I miss my other two brothers (who are awesome), but I'm really uncertain about being around him.
I just have to not let the anxiety stop me from submitting the prize winning paperwork/forms on time. 