Posts made by Auspice

Today's 'song stuck in my head:' We Are Scientists - Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt

Cysts of the ovarian variety fucking suck.

That is all.

New Pacific Rim: Uprising trailer

@firepuff said in Comfort Food...:

@thatguythere said in Comfort Food...:

Also @FirePuff why would you get a chicken sandwich at a place with burger in it's name? I know a lot of people do it but it always strikes me as odd. I mean if I want chicken it is not like chicken places are hard to find.

I don’t really do regular burgers anymore, to be honest. I tend to get chicken or turkey burgers or patties at places like P. Terry’s and Hopdoddy. I don’t have an aversion to beef, I just prefer poultry.

...I also got a chicken sandwich? Sometimes burgers just don't agree with my stomach. Esp. fast food ones.

Clearly @FirePuff and I just aren't meant for fast food.

My team at work is the first time I actually enjoy hanging out with the people I work with. I'd go out and drink with them.

However, I think it hugely depends on the way the company atmosphere is. At my company, we drink. No drinking on the clock, but there's office parties pretty often and we drink p heavily at those (and I have drank on the clock, but that's because I'm usually the one and sometimes only one stuck working and I think they feel bad for me >.>). We swear. We've had VPs in the office and they're lax with language, themselves.

But we all know to tighten up and act right when there's a client around.

Basically? We're treated like adults and I think that's the key thing.

So many companies treat you like children. You're put into this behavioral box for 8-10 hours a day and then they want you to go on these outings where it's even more of a box because you're also expected to 'have fun!' within X parameters.

Yeah, no. At my job it's not like that.

We're irreverent. One guy actually said the other day: 'We're fucked if someone really sensitive ever comes in here, you guys realize that.'

And it's not because we say really bad things. It's because we're just that candid. We're all really liberal, but we discuss a broad range of topics, we rag on each other, we bullshit... If one of us fucks up, we'll call each other out on it. And not like, major fuck ups. Like "Yo, Bob, you forgot to put that note on the ticket again! Do I have to throw things at you?!"

@firepuff said in Comfort Food...:

I think I'm also on the "meh" for Whataburger. The one time I had it, I got a chicken sandwich of a type and it just tasted... off.

In Texas, I'm all over Schlotzsky's and Ramen Tatsuya, though.

I haven't had Ramen Tatsuya yet. I usually end up at Michi Ramen.

We should do ramen sometime!

@kanye-qwest said in Comfort Food...:

I miss Whataburger. Mostly for the ketchup?! Which I realize is weird.

Considering when I moved to TX, everyone re: Whataburger was all 'MAKE SURE YOU GET THE KETCHUP'

...it may not be that weird?

I've had it once.

It was OK.

I'm just kinda meh on fast food in general tho.

@arkandel said in Goldfish's playlist:

@auspice Is it already open or a work in progress?

It's open for soft RP and hanging out, but I don't think CG is fully go again, tho I think Theno is just about done with getting code fully updated.

@ganymede said in Goldfish's playlist:

Is there a new addy? I missed it.

Because I like WoD 2E.

http://reno.kydance.net
reno.kydance.net:2018

Ursula K Le Guin passed away

@taika said in Goldfish's playlist:

There's a reno 3.0 now?

Sort of. It's kind of tongue-in-cheek.
Since mechanipus closed, Reno needed a new host. And in the process of being moved to said new host, we decided to revamp the wiki and let Theno update his code on the game (thanks, Theno!).

Everything else is the same. Everyone's keeping their characters, XP, storylines are intact... So it's more like Reno 2.5.

So I have a whole chicken that's too big for my InstantPot.

...suggestions?

@sockmonkey

Small talk is the worrrrrrrrst.

@fortydeuce said in Social Awkwardness?:

I know some people like group work, but sitting at any one of those open tables made it impossible to study.

I will tell you right now there are days where we get a total of jack and shit done.

Before we were in our office on the 3rd floor, most of the guys sat in one room and I was in another room with the other leads and PMs. And as I'm the one who 'oversees' the building at night, I'd be in that room alone. I was so much more productive. My productivity stats have taken a massive nosedive and I assure you it is entirely because I am right next to and facing my entire team.

It's impossible to focus.

Whoever convinced corporate America that open floor plans would increase productivity was insane.

And now we're off-topic, but yeah. It ties into it... I've had to fight past so much of my social awkwardness. My team accepts me and it was really hard at first. I mentioned it in the RL Things I Love. These guys are happy to see me and I'm happy to see them. We all get along great! But damn if we don't have terrible output some days.

@miss-demeanor said in Social Awkwardness?:

@auspice Yeaaaaaah.. my office is set up like a galley kitchen. Two long 'counters' (my computer is at one of these) with about 8 feet of open floor space between them. There is literally nowhere I can go and NOT have my back to the room. It can get nerve-wracking.

Because I like visuals:

That's our layout. No one sits at the desk under the window. It has a great view of Austin! But no one wants their back to EVERYONE. It's such a stupid desk. My manager almost tried to demand I sit there so 'the lead has a specific spot in the room' and I think the look of sheer horror I gave him was enough to shut down that plan.

@miss-demeanor said in Social Awkwardness?:

@auspice I can't help it with my work setup. I have to stop myself from flail-smacking or shrieking at co-workers every day. Its the one thing I truly dislike about my job.

@Wretched Yup. My PC set is IN the corner. You cannot get behind me without being a contortionist or about 6 years old. Bck to the wall, maybe a foot of space between my chair and the wall, wall to the right of me, tower to the left of me. The only way to approach is from the lefthand side directly parallel to me.

There is one computer at work you can avoid it with. I claimed it. Left a note (I work 2nd shift) to please not sit there. For the first week or so in our new digs, I had to sometimes kick people out of the seat (team lead prerogative yo), but everyone's sort of settled into their own 'spot,' and I explained to the guys that it's an anxiety thing for me.

So now I have my little corner where there's no reason to ever walk behind me and I can see the door.

@miss-demeanor said in Social Awkwardness?:

Hovering behind me is my big 'do not do' thing. It legit freaks me out and ramps my anxiety up tenfold if there's someone just... lurking around behind me looking over my shoulder. I had to tell my boss to stop it because it makes me nervous. Not because its him, but just.. A person standing behind me.

I can't stand sitting where people even have the opportunity to walk/stand behind me. I'll end up in the state of shaking with anxiety from it.

Eye contact is def. a big one. I have to put extreme effort into it, which I save for job interviews. Otherwise... nope, not doing it. Too uncomfortable.

My mind makes connections in weird places, so I go off on strange tangents. Which means I fall into the 'makes very odd, often inappropriate comments' category. This might be why I find myself more comfortable around male-identifying folks than female, because they're often more forgiving. They'll laugh it off, maybe tease you, or sometimes even roll with it.

I've had women carry it like a grudge that I made an off-hand comment they were bothered by and hold it against me for months, even years. (And please don't come after me for generalizing; I've just never personally had a man do this.)

Being on the spectrum, even high functioning is hard. Hell, being high functioning is almost harder at times because most of the world isn't aware you are, so when you have your bad days or your triggers... people don't know 'okay, this is just a moment, it'll pass.' They think 'this person is consciously being shitty.'

I have days where certain sounds (usually high-pitched, repetitive ones) bother me. They make me really irritated and prone to anger. And I'll get to where I can't even articulate myself clearly. I just know I'm really, really upset and I don't have words for how upset I am, but I can't trace it back to that barely audible whine the HVAC is making every other minute.