Posts made by Auspice

@TNP said in RL Anger:

@Auspice Get a memory foam mattress topper. I'm a side sleeper and often have the same problem. The topper makes a HUGE difference.

I've considered one, but hemmed and hawed over getting one, since I wasn't sure if it would do any good. Glad to hear a review. Thanks

@surreality said in RL things I love:

@TNP The little filter things are several hundred for $5 (so much cheaper than the standard filters for most stuff -- I usually just get a gold filter and say screw it, admittedly, and wish this had one available), and I'm pretty sure it would be easy to tuck a cut normal piece of filter in there, too, for what it's worth.

...now I'm wondering if there's a way to make a gold filter for this thing. Hrm.

Psst:
https://www.amazon.com/GoldTone-Disk-Coffee-Filter-Aeropress/dp/B00LBJCBN8
https://www.amazon.com/Able-Brewing-Coffee-AeroPress-Espresso/dp/B00E58P7ME

I miss sleep. I mean, sleep and I already have issues. But it's gotten worse.

I can't sleep on my sides or stomach anymore. Either it causes my right arm to hurt intensely before going numb (stomach, right side) or my hip to hurt (left side). I'm left with sleeping on my back.

...which I've never been able to easily fall asleep on my back. So I tend to lie awake for hours until I fall asleep from exhaustion. Which has been happening around 3:30-4am. My alarm starts going off at 6:30am.

I'm not sure if asking my doc about sleep aids will help.

I bought an AeroPress a few months ago and I will say it is amazing.

Whenever I go out, I come home to a cat who is like, dog-levels excited to see me. And commence an hour or more of purrs and cuddles and 'OMG YOU'RE BACK'

... the downside is I feel immense guilt whenever I do go out.

I've been putting off having a tooth tended to for... almost two years.

Because the last work I had was a tooth being pulled. And thanks to my anemia, a clot never formed. A dry socket is singlehandedly the most painful thing I've experienced.

So every time I consider going to the dentist, my anxiety spikes and I can't do it.

Fell out of touch with someone when a game closed.

Just confirmed today that the person I've been RPing with (and enjoying!) is said person. I'd been wondering for a bit and finally paged today. Apparently they realized it was me a few days ago.

(This is a double-win because our chars are angling into a relationship and I already know they're sane and have the same sort of 'style' for relationship RP that I do.)

Hey guys, I wanted to kinda bump this here...

I've been playing this place for a few weeks now. It's had a few bumps (what game doesn't?), but by and far it's been good times. Still in beta, warlocks and fae still closed (system balancing), and events haven't begun yet... But for being just sort of casual 'getting to know everyone' RP thus far, it's good stuff. There's some great RPers around.

I'd love to see more people stop in. It's an easy system to app into and the setting itself is easy to learn (plus, the first season of the show streams free on Freeform's website).

@Ganymede said in RL things I love:

@Auspice said in RL things I love:

I have a few local ramen places myself. I'd order delivery from them every goddamn day if I could afford it.

I have duck confit ramen the other day.

I was disappointed; they served it with soba noodles.

I am disappoint as well!

@Admiral said in RL things I love:

The best part? Supposedly it's not even the best ramen in town. I have -better ramen- to look forward to.

I have a few local ramen places myself. I'd order delivery from them every goddamn day if I could afford it.

I still have my Google Docs spreadsheet where I kept track of Ameeko's cuttings. >.>

@Killer-Klown said in Auspice's Playlist:

Holy crap CrystalMUSH. I was Elrick there once upon a long time ago <psycho sadistic medic>; though I don't remember if we ever tripped over one another.

Probably. I swear Ameeko spent more time being medically grounded than actually cutting crystal. XD

Can I just... not be tired?

For one day, maybe?

Updated.

Also I just realized I made the original post on my birthday last year. I feel kinda shamed for that.

@WTFE said in RL things I love:

Meet the unofficial official song of the year here. I'll leave the reason why as an exercise for the student.

Is this your version of 'What does the fox say'?

If you're a tech-y type, Austin can be a great place to be.

I also know there's almost always opportunities to get into SXSW by volunteering to help out at a booth or similar.

@Apu said in Mental Health and Grown Up Stuff:

@Auspice

I understand anxiety all too well so it makes me especially happy to read that you didn't have to deal with it and it sounds like you had fun as well.

Honestly? I think it was the first social outing in my adult life that didn't come coupled with some form of anxiety. And with people I'm still getting to know, too.

It's a huge, huge deal for me.

"thing I love" may be too strong a word for this.

But let's call it a positive thing.

My ex-husband contacted me today. ...to apologize. To tell me that I was great (a good person, a good wife, etc.) and he was the problem (I knew this, mutual friends knew this, but he'd never acknowledged it before).To apologize for how he treated me over the years we were married (he checked off pretty much every gaslighting technique).

Part of me wonders if he was just high and/or drunk, but his messages were coherent and without the usual typos and such that usually come with him in such a state. So, I'm going to be cautiously optimistic and say it was genuine.

I'm not going to suddenly be friends with him (hell to the naw), but now maybe I can visit SC and see mutual friends without being scared of running into him.

So I don't go out much.

For a variety of reasons (busy with work/school, physical health, lack of things to do...). But I do, every couple weeks, go to dinner with a group of ladies who also happen to be knitters, like me. I was introduced to them by a long time (17~ years) MU* friend.

My anxiety and self-image issues being what they are, I've had myself convinced they only accept / put up with me because of her.

Today, we had dinner planned. Said friend had to bail because she was sick. Normally... I'd bail, in turn (as she's generally my ride). Today, I made myself go. Paid for the Uber to get there, even.

...and had a great time. I didn't have a single flare of anxiety, either. It was just a nice dinner (that satisfied a craving; I've wanted tacos for daaaaays) and one of them even gave me a ride home.

I call this a #win because of the lack of anxiety. I was expecting it to happen, even braced myself for it, but it never came.

I honestly think with the depression handled by drugs that finally (fiiiiiinally) work for me, I'm able to better manage my anxiety (without having the two compound each other).

John Hurt.