last night for dinner I tossed a bunch of tortilla chips in a bowl, put some cheese over them, tossed it in the microwave.
I overcooked it but ate it anyway because it was there and I can't bring myself to 'waste' food.
prime depression (and a little bit 'allergies are murdering me') eating right thurr.
@surreality said in The Crafting Thread:
@Auspice I feel you on the metallic thread. I do. I went so overkill on it for one project I haven't actually touched it since. If I can find a pic somewhere, I'll link it, and I think you'll understand immediately.
Last I used it was for our group project during steotch and all I stitched with it was a teeny little bat.
I had to use every last inch of what I was given to do it with. My first two attempts (2 strands, so) just shredded themselves.
I thought the lovely mink yarn I've never used because it breaks so easy was bad. Metallics are wooooooooorse.
@surreality said in The Crafting Thread:
@Auspice I pretty much injured myself laughing when I saw the rock one. Pretty + Snarky + Mermaids = win.
The lady I linked it to loves it.
The only thing that'd stop me from making it (besides the cost! $5 per pattern isn't TOO bad, but not a cost I wanna pay up front..... but individually they are $7 each! which is a lot! most patterns top out at $5) is the metallic thread in them.
That stuff's a biiiiiiiiiiiitch. Pretty. But annoying af to work with. It just shreds all over the place.
@Wretched said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
I hate existing within 'time'. Since I've started working again, this has become my biggest resentment and hurdle, living in a world in which I am subject to schedules that I have to stick to (shut up about Miami, I know I know(<3)).
I'm just about finished with this mornings 'not-quite-a-panic-attack' where I consider calling in with a fake illness, or injuring myself rather than go to my not hard at all just takes time out of my day job'
How do people do this regularly?! For the yawning infinite abyss that is the 'foreseeable future'
This is another reason I love working for Whole Foods and is another thing on the pile of what's depressing me about leaving.
I have no set schedule. So long as I work my 40 hours in the week and I don't miss meetings, they don't care if I get here at, say, 10AM one day.
I usually aim to be here by 7:45, but if there's a day (like today) where it ends up being more like 8:15... no one even bats an eye.
@surreality said in The Crafting Thread:
@Auspice You need to see this. https://peacockandfig.com/product/mermaid-tales-stitchalong/ (Warning for general audience, not politically correct by miles, but oh gods I will order these some day because I laughed so hard and they're awesome to me. The struggle and rock ones are definitely the best.)
Ha! I know someone who needs to see this. There's a lady in our group who is all about the mermaids.
I've only been to Cheesecake Factory once in my life and I was sick so I poked at a salad.
Someday I guess I should try going again. If just for dessert.
@Derp said in Firefly - Still Flyin':
FWIW, I do agree about documenting actions. Big fan of staff notes on player bits. Big fan.
That's good.
I think I misunderstood that line as saying you didn't think it was worth documenting violations and that's where I was like NO. 
@Derp said in Firefly - Still Flyin':
I don't try, any more, to document every possible violation in some sort of legal codex because it's more trouble than it's worth and just invites people to try and lawyer.
The reason I recommend documenting is you don't want a situation where you warn J against a certain behavior, say if it happens again they're out... then have another Staffer come along, witness the behavior, and give a slap on the wrist. Because that can lead a player to think Staff isn't serious about warnings.
Does it need to be super detailed? Nah. But just a note to the rest of staff in an area future staffers can access (like a jobs board, a gdoc, w/e) of 'J has been warned not to creep-page. Ban on future offense.'
It protects, IMO, Staff AND players. Now, if you're gonna run a game solo forever? nbd. If you run it with someone (like I do with Paradox on SGM) that you trust and talk to regularly and have no plans to add extra staff? Again, nbd. But if you have it in your game that you might add more staff someday? It might be a good idea to plan for.
Additionally, because I feel like people are painting me as some naysayer trying to paint these guys as terrible: in one of my initial posts I pointed out that the concern was due to vague language and that it left the door open to some issues on all ends. Even you, Derp, are saying that you 'try to be clear about explicitly' what you're shooting for. That was all I was getting at and why I had a big concern over a very vague (in their initial policy writeup) 'we'll monitor RP on complaints.' Something more specific (I think a prev post by the staff said they won't monitor/observe TS for example) would assuage a lot of concerns on many peoples' parts.
@Macha said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:
@Auspice Vodka. Provided a little alcohol won't eff it up.
I seriously don't mind sitting and rubbing my thumb on the goo residue.
It's like a mixture of ADHD satisfaction (brain is like DOING A THING DOING A THING DOING A THING DOING A THING) and the texture, but I can watch TV and do that for a good while.
@Macha said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:
So new job - yay! Boss seems cool, coworker seems chill. That's all to the good.
Less good - Because technically I am a contractor and not a county employee, I can not park in the lot for the county office employees across the street. - Instead, the only lot/garage I can find that does a monthly rate is three blocks away. With the ankylosing spondilytis, and the fact they just changed over the med (and it can take 3 months to kick in), I am having a HELL of a time walking back at the end of the day. As in I need to stop at least twice between office and car. Today I wasn't sure I could make it. I don't have the money right now (not having been paid yet) to look into the other lots, because they are more expensive to park there. My boss, who has seen me trying to walk to the garage - suggested trying to get a handicap placard - but it doesn't help me really park any closer.
In most places, you can park free at street parking with a handicap placard. I'm not sure if this helps you, but it's something I considered briefly with my job before I got the bus situation worked out. The only lot I could afford was a mile away and the walk was just too much some days.
@surreality said in Real World Peeves, Disgruntlement, and Irks.:
Minor but nagging peeve: sticky labels meant to come off that that don't entirely come off of things. Especially when the thing they're attached to is clear, and/or can't have goo-gone type chemicals used on it without a risk of screwing up the surface more.
<internal screaming>
I hate this but there's a part of me that also likes the tactile of sitting there for a while rubbing it with my thumb to clean it all off.
@Rinel said in Depression Meals:
counterpoint: i am balding and ugly and horrible
me except fat and ugly and horrible
so I flashback to all the doctors that told me I clearly just eat too much and make myself eat a meal a day (or less because 'fasting') because I'm just a hideous, gross fatty
... then invariably my anemia kicks in and I end up feeling ill so I binge eat to (badly) counteract it and... yes it's a bad cycle.
omfg finally.
My teaching cert has been stalled because I need in classroom observation hours and none of the schools I was contacting were getting back to me.
One finally did.
So I guess I'll make getting back to my courses a priority.
@Seamus said in Firefly - Still Flyin':
While some servers like Ares doesn't really have any 'spy' tools built into it. It's flexible enough that one can be added with a little code knowledge.
You don't even need that.
As I was telling someone earlier, a person can just add a Staffer to their private scene and let the Staffer see the behavior.
My issue with policies like 'We might watch your RP after complaints' is that, as @faraday mentioned, it would also mean monitoring people that aren't under suspicion and it comes with that confirmation bias. (Maybe they just see 'good' scenes. Or maybe they can only observe a limited amount.)
Something like a SUSPECT flag or Rhost's function as you mentioned allows them to collect everything just on that player. It means other people aren't caught in the crossfire.
The first time I ever encountered spying was 'innocent.' On a game I played many years ago, before posted logs were a thing, we found out one day that the HS had been observing, while dark, almost all of our RP (as a small group). It weirded us out. A lot. She insisted it was because she loved our plots and RP and it was fun, but I always wondered (and still do) why she didn't just ask to watch.
What if one of us (we were close friends off-game too) had a major RL issue come up (say, death in the family as an example) and talked about it with our friends via OOC? Then suddenly some third party is hearing about this personal stuff.
And I know, the answer from a lot of people is gonna be 'don't talk about personal stuff on game' but I don't think that's a good response.
We know Discord can technically access logs, but we're not going around telling people not to use it.
Google can technically read your emails, but we don't tell people not to send their resumes because 'oh no someone might know where you live.'
What we do is have a reasonable expectation to privacy. Yes, we all know Staff CAN do these things, but we also go in with a reasonable expectation that private scenes are private. That page conversations are private. etc.
They can be logged and reported (just like people can in other programs like, say, reporting someone on Twitter for harassing DMs), but I should be able to login and feel comfortable that no one's gonna creep on what I'm doing 'just because.'
@Rinel said in Depression Meals:
Or, when it's really bad, some weird sort of self-harm through fasting. I unironically suspect I'm beginning to develop an eating disorder.
tbh I've had the same fear. I'll go through bursts of starving myself (either on purpose as body hatred or due to depression) and then when I'm back on an upswing I end up binge eating for a couple days.
My current, and first, cat was a stray who worked himself up into the wheel well of my car as a six/seven week year old kitten. The shelters were closed for a holiday weekend, and by the time they got around to opening again, I couldn't imagine giving him up.
Now he destroys my blinds and gives me snuggles.
I had a job at a bowling alley for a few months once. In the middle of summer. One day I look out at the parking lot and see this little floofball of a kitten climbing up in wheel wells to get out of the sun.
Knowing how our clientele was, I had this terrifying thought of leaving work that night to find a dead cat and I could not handle that (I am that person who can handle all the violence in a movie but the instant a cat is hurt at all even off-screen, I bawl). So I got a coworker to help me catch her.
I was GONNA take her to a shelter, but my SO went from being angry at me in texts to meeting her and going THIS IS OUR CAT NOW.
She was a long-haired tuxedo, practically munchkin-cat in size, and the prissiest little princess.
@eye8urcake
I have long known that cats adopt the right people.
We had a chocolate point siamese when I was a teenager who just showed up one day and followed one of my siblings in from the yard. Our father kept making us put him out at night for a week or so, assuming he had a home to go to... but he always just napped on the patio (it was summer thankfully) until we woke up and he'd come on in.
Maybe his previous family left him behind. Maybe he decided being a stray wasn't for him anymore (because holy shit that cat could HUNT). Whatever it was, he showed up one day and never left.
When I lived in NKY, I had a few strays who would regularly come to my little 'yard.'
I got my Ike because of a cat birthing her kittens (and leaving them 
) under our house.
But we once had a kitten wander up onto our porch and cuddle up with anyone who sat outside. That time, I couldn't take anymore pets, but told friends someone should adopt her because she never left our yard. She'd hang out with you on the porch or go play in the grass, but she'd decided THIS IS WHERE I LIVE NOW (until we found a friend who gave her a lovely home).
Cats just know, man. They decide 'fuck this outdoor life... THESE people look great.'
@Wretched said in Depression Meals:
I've gotten to the point where a slice of cheese is a snack. I'll sit down and share a couple of slices with my cats and oh my god that's my depression meal right there
a couple slices of cheese shared with the cats
