Posts made by Auspice

@Jennkryst said in NOLA: The Game That Care Forgot:

Vote for the oWoD Nagah-Gangrel rip off who will definitely be done by then. Probably. Maybe? WHO KNOWS!

just make a khaibit gdi

@Roux said in MSB: The meta-discussion:

@Ganymede I used the handle and owned the domain name along with "zerbert.net" which finally expired in 2019. Don't own any more domain names anymore. I feel all domain-less.

Would you say you've run out of space?

@Seamus said in Gryphter @ Gryphter:

@Auspice

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW????

@Seamus said in Gryphter @ Gryphter:

@gryphter

what is this a gif for ants?!

@Macha said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):

One thing I have noticed, is that I don't forget things as often. But I still want to put things off that make me anxious. It's a challenge.

The latter is partially learning.
I've been on anxiety meds for a year and I have learned:

I am more confident, yes, but only once I make myself get up and do the thing. Once I'm in the middle of it, it's easier than it ever was.
Example: The other week when I had been upset about the feedback on the training materials and my team had stood up for me, I wanted to make it clear I was grateful and I knew I needed to do it in person...but without sounding like I was badmouthing the boss. A hard thing to do.
It took me a full day to work up the courage, pull our BUC aside, and do so. I kept over thinking it. But once I did the thing I was fine! I just had to push myself into it.

I still get social anxiety. And that's fine. Just because I'm on anxiety meds doesn't mean I'm any less of an introvert. Now I'm just learning to untangle 'what's my being out of social energy and what's anxiety?' They were tangled up together for so long, they often became one and the same.

I shake things off easier. Embarrassment. Upsetting situations. Stuff that could cripple me emotionally for days I can now much more easily step back from, examine, and move on. This might be the biggest benefit to the meds and why I absolutely need them in my life.

ETA: And now I realize you meant different meds and ha. I'm in the middle of a terrible iron crash and sort of punchy and all over the place until I leave work in half an hour and can get food.
But I'll leave the above intact because maybe it'll help someone.

@hedgehog
Flogging Molly - Factory Girls

@Rinel said in NOLA: The Game That Care Forgot:

Yvette for Primogen 2019!
+doesn't like bright lights

Selah would support for this alone.
Lights are bad.
All darkness all the time.

Oh.
So most everyone in the ladygeeks group I'm in is awesome (esp. the cross-stitch sub-group them).

There's one woman tho.

I'm p open about being bi. At least around other women.
But she......... like.... pounced on it the first time it came up.
And brings it up frequently elsewise.
She's married.
But there's the.... 'I need girlfriends.' or even sometimes, 'My husband and I are looking for a girlfriend.'
'We should go on a date sometimes!'

And one time she did bring this up in the Discord rather than PM me and I got PMs of 'oh god please be careful she and her husband are v predatory' and I reassured the person in question of uh yeah I already got that vibe but thank you.

And really? Honestly?
when it's another woman is when I hate it most

@Herja I've been having a heckin' hard time getting back into dating myself. Like, I purposefully pulled myself out of it for a while and getting back into it has... been hard.

I don't even know what do this do anymore. And then the fear of guys who are damn creepers god yes.

@HelloProject said in Original Arx Isabeau:

The only solution is that there's a third Isabeau.

I played M:tG for a while when I first lived in SC (so, 2007/2008). The first store I played at closed because the owner was diagnosed with cancer. The only other store in the area that held tournaments (without driving really far)....... well. I only went once.

I know my chest gets stared at. Hard to be a 36HH and not. And in the summer, in the south, it's gonna happen more (cause tanktops or v-necks or). I've just accepted this.

But the guy who owned that place couldn't stop staring or leering. He'd be in conversations with other people and just blatantly staring.

I've been creeped on. Hit on awkwardly.

But no one's ever made me feel ashamed of my body in the way that guy did.

I never went back to that stop and was so glad when this other guy opened one closer to my house. He was vastly, amazingly better, and had no qualms banning creepers from his store. Even after I stopped playing regularly, I'd go back for the occasional draft or FNM to support his shop.

But that other one.
Ugh.

@Aria said in Random funny:

<just leaves this here while she laughs and laughs>

I seem to recall this being based on someone's true story of a nat 1 gone wrong (and the comic artist fleshed it out into a full story/gave it life).

Hnnnnnnnnnngh.

$300.
That's what it'll cost for the ADHD specialty clinic to get in, start being seen, etc etc. That's their initial new patient cost.

I can technically afford it. Or could if I weren't trying to save money to move in a month.

Guess it's time to call and reschedule the appointment for January. I'd really love to get this done ASAP, but damn. I guess I should just be happy my insurance covers any of it at all. (My doctor wants me to get a full allergy workup, for example, but my insurance said naaaaaaaw and that's over 2 grand hahahano)

@thesuntsar said in Gryphter @ Gryphter:

@gryphter have you tried looking on the inside, i hear that cam help. Good luck.

but that's where all the blood is

https://brevitymag.com/nonfiction/calcification/

I had to dig up my essay on it. But here you go.

To this day I think the instructor purposefully chose it to see who would, in our review essays (which focused on tone and mood) would be willing to point out just how bad it is and who would be too afraid to do so.

@Macha
Foreigner - Jukebox Hero

@dvoraen said in Thena @ Arx:

@Auspice said in Thena @ Arx:

@dvoraen said in Thena @ Arx:

@Snackness said in Thena @ Arx:

@Kodiak Maybe? I honestly can’t even keep track of who I’m married to any more.

I think this is where we ping @Seraphim73 and ask him how he copes. I mean, by my count, he's been married to about 6 different PCs played by the same person, so at some point you get a little schizophrenic trying to keep track of them all in an IC context.

Oh, more than that. Way more.

I can't decide if you're talking about > 6, or the schizophrenia.

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@dvoraen said in Thena @ Arx:

@Snackness said in Thena @ Arx:

@Kodiak Maybe? I honestly can’t even keep track of who I’m married to any more.

I think this is where we ping @Seraphim73 and ask him how he copes. I mean, by my count, he's been married to about 6 different PCs played by the same person, so at some point you get a little schizophrenic trying to keep track of them all in an IC context.

Oh, more than that. Way more.

@insomniac7809 said in Six-Fingered Man:

I find this extra funny because that's canonically p much Inigo's plan to find him.

(Like, literally walking around Europe asking if anyone knows any six-fingered noblemen.)

at least someone appreciates my humor.