Best posts made by Macha

Well, I went and did it. Bought the supplies, the mailing stuff... yeaaaaah.

-head desk- It just hit me in the chest. I maayyyyybe should have given myself a day or two to get over the anxiety attacks from yesterday first.

But it's done now!

So today I have bloodwork and an EKG for ADD meds.

Log into work, and nothing works, on top of the fact I'm still stuck trying to do this bullshit that's ramping up my anxiety. (Current state is tight chest and stomach threatening to vacate contents)

I'm trying to get my supervisor to help, and he's ignoring me.

Jesus Fuck

@sunny I appreciate. The hourly pay isn't any better, but it's permanently remote, I can move anywhere in the continental US, and they offer mad bonuses.

@faraday What I meant is other people in my same role/title/tier level, are not being forced into this call taking nonsense. They are doing what my actual job /is supposed to be/.

So it's not that there isn't something else they could let me do.

@ganymede Did that. I think I did it right. Here's hoping.

@ganymede Oh no, they put me BACK on things I had been doing before they were making me do the anxiety causing thing.

They're actually giving in to what I had asked - but now to see if it lasts.

I wonder if was sending them the multiple screen shots of my crashing blood sugars (I have a CGM/Dexcom, and it records and displays on my phone) that I was sending to my boss.

Well, i have been taken out of the giant team chats for the Bullshit crap they had me doing.

It seems someone told my boss' boss that they were fucking up and giving me material for a lawsuit.

@kestrel I do this. A lot. Like all day long, I will have this character concept floating around in my head, gaining more and more substance throughout the day - even though I know I'll never have the time for it.

@too-old-for-this I think Sampson was related somehow to my boy. His favorite activity is laying in sunbeams, following them around the apartment like a cat.

Small children are some of his favorite people. His whole BODY wags when he gets excited. He will roll and show his belly to most anyone.

FUCK THIS JOB.

That's it. That's the whole post.

@lotherio But is your dignity really a celebrity?

Boss brought over a little goodie bag of presents on Friday. Some candy, a nice candle, the ethernet cable he'd bought for me because the company wouldn't in spite of IT insisting that was the cause of my software problems (and I don't have a problem in non-work life), some scratch off tickets, and an Amazon gift card.

I felt almost guilty a moment, because I know I'm going to quit. And then they released another email of 'who got promoted a tier'. And someone else I trained, someone who was only part time for a large chunk of time, got bumped up to a Tier2, and I didn't. Of course, we all know WHY. Sooooo naw. I'm good.

@greenflashlight I sauté diced tomatoes to go with my eggs. Hot pan, diced tomatoes, sprinkle of garlic salt or powder, pepper, and viola!

@derp I love doing eggs in the muffin tin. I also hate the dishsoap herb.

@vixanic A friend of mine actually had told me if Adderall doesn't work, I should ask about Vyvanse. I even wrote it down (She made me. Means srs bsnss).

Trying to watch the "How to ADHD" channel videos.. and being distracted because she's adorable.

@wizz I can not tell you all the questionable names I have seen in the last few years.

@derp Maybe her parents named her after what brought about her existence.

How I know I am getting old: I am super excited we got a new, bigger, stand up (vs chest) Freezer.

My hands are hurting me from moving everything from one to the other, but.. so excite! There's a whole drawer for chicken breasts and other meat. And I now know just how many steamable veggies I actually have. OMG.

So the HR wants a more 'specific' list of accommodations. How long will it take to recover from a sugar crash, etc.

I passed it on to the doctor's office. ...I got a call this morning from her nurse.
"They want what, now?" "They want to know things like exactly how long it should take to recover from a crash." "...there is no way to know that. that's ridiculous. Every crash can be different."

She wants HR's number. I wish I could listen in on that one.