Posts made by Macha

So done with this job. SO DONE.

After quitting time on Friday, my boss sent me a message on Teams, which since I had shut everything down for the day, I didn't get.

Fucker 'adjusted' my timesheet. "Well, we didn't see any concrete evidence that you did anything in that hour time frame..."

Fucking what?

This morning "Macha, are you working this morning, or do you need time off? I'm not seeing anything in your spreadsheet." ...two minutes later "oh, there it goes! It must have been the windy weather this weekend. Ha ha!"

Bitch, fucking... I just want to blow it all up.

@betternow This one hits hard. I saw the re-runs on Nickelodeon, and didn't KNOW it was a re-run. So my parents were thrilled to take me see the Monkees for my first show ever.

I'm so glad he went on that last tour, and really embraced the love the fans of the Monkees have always had for him.

@tributary I do not have a copy. My PCP's office has them, and they're on their game, so I don't have to worry about them. But the doctor didn't include the urine test order with the other tests. This bitch has just been a trainwreck.

My insurance barely covers anything, so outside lab is not an option.

I've been a mess since I got back from an impulsive long weekend away. Why can my brain just not get over itself?

Everything frustrates me, and I'm on an emotional tightrope. It sucks. (This past weekend was 20 years since a guy I was dating was killed in a hunting accident, and today is the anniversary of my mother's death. Add in work frustrations, and emotional flux from a friendship that may or may not be changing... )

I just want to go back to bed. Someone turn the world off.

So, yet ANOTHER appointment reschedule for the ADHD meds.

This is the third time - for this appointment.

And now? Suddenly I also need to do a urine test - WHY was that not included in the tests I did over a MONTH ago now, to try and get this all done? And I can't get an appointment to go pee in a cup until AFTER the appointment that is scheduled.

This chick wasn't even IN THE BUILDING at the time of my first appointment. She told me to go get the tests done at the local hospital - they had no record of those tests ordered. I got the tests done, and now I'm still sitting here, fighting for all this. And with ADHD, being the one who has to keep track of everything? HAHAHAHA

Well, I have choices to make.

I have job I could start tomorrow. Money's okay.
There's a job starting on the 20th - Just have to wait for the background check to come back, and gods know there is nothing interesting in my background. The pay is better, and slightly more in my current field versus straight up CSR.

I have a second interview this afternoon for another job, that I would likely like best - great pay, neat benefits beyond the norm, etc.

These are good choices to have to make, but.. choices and executive dysfunction

Oh the temptation to quit is.. yeah. It is suuuuuper strong this morning.

I had an issue with the work software. I took pictures, sent them, documented, etc.

Then I had a sugar crash. Told them, tried to deal with it.

I was getting messaged within 5 minutes, asking me what I was doing. Was I claiming tasks, was I doing work, etc etc. And messaged excessively. I didn't respond so I didn't explode.

I mean, I will probably offer to stay at current job, if they will match the small amount more for the job I pee in a cup for tomorrow (as soon as things are set in stone with a new job, I will let you all know. Without you guys, I think last month would have... been very, very bad.

I know they won't do it, but then I can say I offered in good faith, and well.. money is money

My co-worker that I shared the office with in that brief period before lockdown refused to do the inbound call crap. He told them his job is FIELD CSR. (He's right, we're supposed to be out with the people in the medicaid offices to get them more help.) He told them to send him to an office site, anywhere in a one hour drive one way. They didn't, and now they have to pay him unemployment.

Also, interviewed for yet another job today that offers more than the one I'm drug testing for. And it's chat, not calls. So I'd like that one even more. I can type like the dickens (Thanks, MU-ing as a hobby!) and still listen to music, etc.

@greenflashlight It was just a statement. I pee in a cup tomorrow for new job that pays better. So here's hoping next week I can tell this job to fuck itself.

FUCK THIS JOB.

That's it. That's the whole post.

Okay, annoyed now. I've had to hunt down every single step of this trying to get ADHD meds (which with ADHD... come on now).

Now? I was supposed to have a telemed appt tomorrow. They called me today to tell me she's not in office tomorrow and they have to reschedule. Fucking seriously? Then they tried to reschedule for next Friday... when I may be starting my new job (provided they approve my urine test). The next time they could find was January.

FUCK THAT. I may have lost it a little and got a touch emotional, explaining to the secretary how hard this has been to get this woman to DO HER JOB. Not ordering the tests that she said she had (twice!), saying she called me when she most certainly had not.

So now I have an appt 12/17. I still want to cry, but there's still hope.

@too-old-for-this I think Sampson was related somehow to my boy. His favorite activity is laying in sunbeams, following them around the apartment like a cat.

Small children are some of his favorite people. His whole BODY wags when he gets excited. He will roll and show his belly to most anyone.

@betternow hard agree. My boy is the biggest sweetheart, but gods forbid he even /look/ like a pit bull (He is an american Staffie, so considered a bully breed). But my therapist will go haaarrrrrrd to make sure I get to have him with me for emotional support. He will write letters any time I need.

@kestrel I do this. A lot. Like all day long, I will have this character concept floating around in my head, gaining more and more substance throughout the day - even though I know I'll never have the time for it.

So, thanks for the reminder to call to follow up on the tests I had done for ADHD 3 WEEKS ago. The nurse was all like "Well, the NP tried to call you a couple times, it says here, and couldn't get through."

BULLSHIT. I've been HOME. Even if I didn't answer my phone, my voicemail is NOT full.

But I managed an appointment for thursday. Telemed action go go go.

Here's hoping!

@tinuviel My sister among them.

I am saddened by this, for all I am not a theatre hardcore fan. (I enjoy it, but not as much as others in my family - and you know how when you're forced to listen to things again and again.. you resent it? Yeah)

That said. Into the woods was one of the first shows I got to see my sister in with her adult voice. Doing the witch's "Stay with me" - It still chokes me up to think about it.

ETA: I just texted her lyrics, and she told me she can't, she's too sad. I bet there's a ton of people singing his songs tonight.

When work chats have been nagging out about 'working diligently' about your assigned cases, while you have to deal with IT, and the supe chat, and reviewing a case that had conflicting statuses... and you get done early and take on another case.

They can suck it. They want me to fail, now that they've put me on the task I asked for, to help my anxiety? Naw, that's not how this works.

@derp I mean, stands to reason, right? If I was really on LWOP I shouldn't have to be talking to them/messaging in teams, sending screenshots to prove shit.

@faraday I may have said to my boss that "Leave without pay suggests I was free to leave."