As extended reading:
https://www.kennethreitz.org/essays/the-reality-of-developer-burnout
https://www.quora.com/Usually-after-how-much-time-do-software-engineers-start-experiencing-burnout
https://www.reddit.com/r/programming/comments/3o3kw6/how_to_recover_from_programmers_burnout/
https://improvingsoftware.com/2009/05/19/programmers-before-you-turn-40-get-a-plan-b/
If you can't get the motivation to learn it, then don't do it. I guarantee that your motivation when working in a career for it will hit the floor often, even when you like it. I go days without having motivation to produce the specific code that people tell me to produce. My coworkers do all the time as well.
It only gets harder when you are being told exactly what to code. It only gets harder when you realize people are telling you to code something you think is a piece of shit (or a bad idea) and you still have to do it because they are the ones paying your salary.
I'd recommend getting an internship asap and seeing how a shop operates. You'll know better then if this is something you could potentially do as a career or not. But burn out in software engineering is a very real and common thing.
@Meg and now one of my coworkers is being a condescending asshole on top of everything. my friend who is supposed to be on my side. i didn't sign up for this shit.
i woke up with a migraine, not enough sleep, and my glasses broken. the apple store is still being a bitch to publish this app to and i am getting thrown under the bus at work for. 
Confession. I've never watched The Princess Bride all the way through. Something about it doesn't manage to catch my attention for long enough.
editing to add: don't worry; i'll see myself out.
@VulgarKitten
no, i was crossed off the list. Discrimination! Now I am making my own list. dum dum dum.
@VulgarKitten
I stole it. It's
VulgarKitten
Catsmeow
Meg
(I claim discrimination because I don't have a feline themed name.)
or is it @VulgarKitten in pizza form. we'll never know. my grammar is so incomprehensible that no one can deduce the meaning of it!
too late. I am going to woo and run off with @VulgarKitten while you are still here faffing about. @VulgarKitten, I am going to need an address so I can remotely send you pizza and chocolate to Canada.
I would even compile a list of those movies and bring them tonight to the workshopping.
I found a video on how to lose weight for you.
https://www.facebook.com/GymWorkoutDietPlan/videos/1845761409020536/
Don't distract from the real story here. We're talking about you!
Time for an MSB discord.
(Nevermind all the talk about toxic discords before, right?? right.)
@Ominous said in Coming Soon: Arx, After the Reckoning:
I didn't understand it in Firan either. To be honest, I find most ASCII art ugly as sin. Only a few pieces have made me go "Oh, wow! That's neat!"
I hate most ASCII art. It's as ugly as sin.
I mean, ok. But you know what you said. I know what you said. There's a reason that people responded to what you said and were like 'ok but why???' and didn't say anything about @Jaded's post. If you think you implied the same thing as they did, you might want to consider why people responded the way they did to what you posted versus their post.
(And you're right. You didn't say stupid. Let's clarify the analogy further:
It's like if a bunch of fanfic writers of Star Wars are talking about how they enjoy writing Star Wars fanfiction and someone said 'I don't get fanfiction' and you responded by saying 'I don't get fanfiction, either. I hate most of it. I think it is ugly.'
Am I still doing analogies right?)
Eh, no. It's more like really if a bunch of fanfic writers of Star Wars are talking about how they like Star Wars and enjoy writing and creating fiction based on it, and you chipped in to add to someone saying 'I don't create fanfiction myself' by then saying to that person 'I hate most Star Wars fanfiction. It is ugly and stupid.'
I mean if we're going to keep going down this road of clarifying this analogy.
