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Can someone explain hyperfocus to me because I'm not sure I have this, unless it happens super rarely. Like, I read Gideon the Ninth in a single night instead of sleeping because it was one of the best books I'd read in a long time, but that is the sort of thing that happens, like, every few years. I can't think of anything I do where I don't notice the time passing, outside of stuff like games that are literally designed to put you into that state of flow (or, again, books that grab me every few years).

@surreality

...this is actually a bit much to process. Like, the fact that other people will open a refrigerator and just feel their minds whirring without actually landing on anything.

Oof.

Hold on.

So like, wandering to the refrigerator and staring at all the things you could make but not having the energy to do any cooking so you eat a spoonful of peanut butter and hope that's enough protein for the night...

...that's a thing? It's not just being so lazy you starve yourself?

Update: not cancer. HRT does weird shit. Probably permanent, but since the only symptom is its appearance I don't care.

@SuperiorHuron said in Dead Celebrities 2020:

Ian Holm

"Roads go ever ever on
Under cloud and under star,
Yet feet that wandering have gone
Turn at last to home afar.
Eyes that fire and sword have seen
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green
And trees and hills they long have known.

...

The Road goes ever on and on
Out from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
Let others follow it who can!
Let them a journey new begin,
But I at last with weary feet
Will turn towards the lighted inn,
My evening-rest and sleep to meet."

@Ganymede said in RL things I love:

It means that if an employer takes an adverse action against you based on your sexual orientation or gender identity you have a federal cause of action.

If an employer doesn’t hire you because you’re gay, you can sue. If an employer fires you because you’re a lesbian, you can sue. If an employer refuses to promote you because you are transgender, you can sue.

That’s a layman’s version.

Unless they're religious lol

(This is unsettled and Gany is correct about the law as it stands but I am not hopeful)

@Ominous

Wait what

WHAT HAVE YOU HEARD ;__;

ETA: @HelloProject said in Diversity Representation in MU*ing:

Also @Rinel is basically one of my top favorite RPers and we've barely RPed

Y'ALLLLLLLLLLL

@mietze said in Diversity Representation in MU*ing:

I used to see people (especially female players) tell others that they were not the same gender as their PC almost fearfully, as if they expected to lose the RP with those they'd "deceived". I haven't really had that kind of conversation in a good 10 years now, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed it's on the way out.

Before I came out as trans, I had this conversation with people pretty frequently on Rinel, and every single time it was absolutely terrifying.

In retrospect, this may have been because I am trans, and the idea of being "that guy who has no idea what being a woman is like" was horrifying on a level so visceral it's hard to explain.

You know what is legitimately the worst thing about being trans and having serious mental illness? It's not the lack of safety (though I miss that). It's realizing that I am almost certainly going to grow old and die alone.

This is not a good year for me.

I never really liked pancakes until I started making them. My father, bless his heart, has never figured out gluten. His pancakes are like rubber.

MY pancakes are fluffy and delicious.

@insomniac7809

IIRC they use the passive voice to or three times on the page where they prohibit its use.

(People do overuse the passive, but you can bet your ass it has a time and a place--namely, whenever somebody is alleging one of my clients has committed a crime.)

@Auspice

Thanks. I know I'm freaking out over what's most likely nothing, but... scary.

Have a weird rash type lesion. Doesn't itch, or scale. Just dark red and oddly textured. Noticed it in late March, not sure when it first showed up. Went to the doctor in April after nothing changed. Got diagnosed with contact dermatitis.

Well, it's been several weeks, and nothing has changed for better or worse. It's still just there. So I guess it's biopsy time. And while I realize at 30 it's likely that I have some contained fungal infection or something going on, the diagnosis of you-know-what keeps running through my head.

Oh, and my father got referred today to a neurologist for an assessment for Parkinson's.

I feel like curling up into a ball and sobbing hysterically for hours.

@Aria

I feel you on this. I've just been plodding along. On Thursday I finished a month+ long project. On Friday I fell apart at every seam, as seen above. I'm so sorry you're struggling too. I know what it's like. This morning I had a panic attack and had to make an emergency call to my therapist who talked to me for a half hour as the klonopin kicked in.

As an interesting FYI almost all style guides make an exception for Jesus, of which the possessive form is generally rendered Jesus'.

I follow the rule that proper nouns ending in s simply have an apostrophe following them (e.g. James') but I also use British double consonants and the spelling "grey" so I'm not so much principled as I am chaotically pretentious.

@Sparks said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):

@Rinel — For what it's worth, that's apparently a very common experience among trans women who have ADHD.

That's worth a ton. I have to make a medicine choice and I'm scared for lots of reasons, one of which is that I'm frightened it will prove I don't have ADHD and I'm just lazy and awful. Seeing this helps.

@Auspice

"ADHD does not look the same in boys and girls. Women with the disorder tend to be less hyperactive and impulsive, more disorganized, scattered, forgetful, and introverted. “They’ve alternately been anxious or depressed for years,” Littman says. “It’s this sense of not being able to hold everything together.”"

"Further, while a decrease in symptoms at puberty is common for boys, the opposite is true for girls, whose symptoms intensify as estrogen increases in their system, thus complicating the general perception that ADHD is resolved by puberty."

...squints in trans woman

This is incredibly validating but also incredibly confusing. I was great in elementary and middle school. It was in high school and college that I started having problems. And that was before transition.

@buttercup

No. There will be other times. Right now your children are political targets and vulnerable to a deadly disease. Covid-19 is still killing people. Go on the 60th. Your sons will be 11 and 16. They will be safer.

ETA: I'm not a parent, so take this with a mine's worth of salt.

@HelloProject said in Diversity Representation in MU*ing:

I don't know what's different between a few pages explaining a culture and literally an entire WoD book that does the same thing, except it's a whole ass book.

WoD is wildly inconsistent on this, though. V5 gives each clan a few pages. Except for Hecata, which is apparently getting an entire splatbook? I think you can get the necessary basics for the vampire clans from a few pages, which goes to your point. Entire books are for lore nerds who want to flesh everything out. Unless you feel like playing a Toreador antitribu who likes making flesh-sculptures for her Sabbat buddies, the corebook will do just fine.

Also @Kanye-Qwest how dare you elves are precious

@Ominous said in Diversity Representation in MU*ing:

The brilliant part is having a stat that influences how a character is played differently than human characters, so the other species aren't just humans with funny ears attached or hairier feet and smaller height.

But you can just do this by having well-developed cultures for the groups. I don't play my Malkavian differently from my Toreador because one has the derangement Sanguinary Aninism and the other has the bane of obsession over beauty; I play them differently because the clans are different. Mechanics are, at best, a subtle reinforcement of culture.

There is a tropical storm lined up at Louisiana so perfectly that the middle of the cone has the eye region passing over my house.

I'm gonna lose power this weekend and I'm gonna be pissed.