Posts made by SilentHills

@saosmash That was a genuine comment. I wish you the best in the New Year.

When people actually get to know you instead of making broad assumptions about you.

I'm going to second what @VulgarKitten said. @Crawfish, you did me a solid when I needed some hope, both IC and OOC. You rock, and I won't forget your kindness.

I love buying gifts for others and this year I NAILED IT. I managed to get my girlfriendwife a lovely chunk on amethyst on a necklace. I fretted about it and wondered if she would like it... and she loved it. She's been very happy with it and that makes me happy.

I bought Super Smash Bros Ultimate and have been playing it.

I'm not super close to my family because they're dickheads, so I've been instead enjoying a lazy day hanging out with my online friends, which does somehow seem more special this year because I love them so much. Happy Holidays you guys!

I dropped this semester and started working more. Probably a shitty idea.

Lately I've been buying Christmas gifts for myself, since I have to be out with the public this means that I want to look nice but I want to do it for myself and have my own style. So this means enamel pins to wear on my uniform and barrettes.

Also, more art type stuff for my walls to brighten my environment.

@Testament My thoughts are with you right now. Big hugs.

You're all saying 'childhood' and posting a bunch of deep bullshit.

For me it was The Pokey Little Puppy. We also had it on VHS that we ripped off PBS, and that fucker made me cry every TIME. That story of loss, being the underdog, redemption, and love really stuck with me. I've always been a pokey little puppy myself. I feel you, my little fuck up puppy.

@ZombieGenesis My friend and I wanted to open an L&L game dealing with Heaven and Hell, as well as mythical creatures who fall into certain categories. I'm sure you can figure out where the vampires, demons, angels (fallen and otherwise), seelie fae, unseelie fae, etc go.

And also having them meet places on Earth and consort with mortals which is frowned upon. I have rosters and family made.

@Auspice Are the stars made out of glossy paper?!

@reversed AND WHEN IT IS YOU BETTER TELL ME

@Auspice I'm in this picture and I don't like it

Hi, MU*er with various shades of mental illness checking in:

I am an emotional RPer. If you know me personally, or if you just read this past statement and are banking on stereotypes, I guess this shouldn't be a shock.

This doesn't make me a bad person. It doesn't mean that I'm going to get obsessed with you, boil your bunny rabbit, tell people that you're a dick for something that happened IC when you were very kind OOC about it - just communicate with me.

Given the events of Jules being a manipulative and abusive asshole IC and OOC, I still get upset. If you want to play a mean character with me, that's fine. But when I'm playing v. mean on Svana these days, I will try to check on the people she's been a bitch to. Sometimes I get a response, sometimes I don't.

Of course, someone will argue with me and say that no one should talk OOC EVER because that's a HUGE part of the problem but you know, it's a suggestion, and one I personally find helpful with my compounded issues. So that's my take.

@Cupcake Truth.

And honestly, I like any kind of med that works for me for a good long while and makes me feel like a human bean.

@TheOnceler Yo, try being out here in the Midwest where it's mothafuckin' HAMBOOGER.

Work isn't getting any easier. My school wants their money back because I didn't complete this semester. My RSD is at an all-time high. I'm feeling like I need to take a 'big break from everything' but then I analyze those words and I'm like uh big of a break here are you talkin' chief. I don't know if I need to get back into therapy, get more sunlight, stop drinking so much, get out of this town, whatever. I just know that everything is shitty.

@Auspice YASSS. I have spent 100% of my time going after Joy. I haven't been successful yet. Monster Camp is so good though. Love Milo too.

Hi, I just took a semester of school. In fact, I might just take a damned two semester off of school. I don't know yet. All I know is that the 'workaholic' column lined up perfectly for me, every last one of them, and I'm so. Tired.

Now I'm available to work double shifts for my boss. Oh, I'm also one of the few reliable people who shows up and knows what they're doing so that means I get griped at instead of putting effort into griping at people who don't know what the fuck they're doing.

SENSORY OVERLOAD AND HURT FEELIES ABORT ABORT

I'm facing dropping this semester of college because I just can't do it. I'm emotionally and physically tired due to work most of the time. I'm filling more often because people are constantly sick. I'm already almost failing one of my classes. I've been able to pull back from these types of things, missed assignments, careless mistakes in the past, etc. but this time it's bad.

I know I'm going to owe more money in the end and it's going to take longer, I'm afraid people are going to be disappointed in me, and I'm afraid of what my self-esteem is already like and how this blow will affect it. But I don't think I can do this.

@Vixanic Delayed reaction is a thing. I go through this anytime anyone dies in my family. Grief is weird, and not immediately being overcome with emotion or even leaking a small tear will make you feel like shit, but you're processing in your own way whether you know it or not. It'll be okay.

I tend to bail on people and not speak to them again because either a) they don't realize that they need a therapist and not a friend, or b, the more likely one,) I suffer from intense chronic depression and just in case I commit suicide I'd rather have you think I'm a fucking asshole who ghosted you rather than be a burden.