Feb 7, 2017, 8:25 AM

Dilaudid was... yeah, it'd be dangerous if I had more access to it. It got me through my days in the hospital, mind you. However... I didn't have any negatives (well, OK, I did puke pretty much immediately after they gave it to me one time). I'd have like, thirty seconds of 'oh god I feel weird' and then a while of being dopey/drowsy or actually sleeping.

But then... morphine just makes me feel like I'm on fire (that's it. I just feel my veins burning and no pain relief, no happy-fun-time in my head) and it's not like they could feed me pills.

I've never had addiction issues. I smoked for a couple years due to job stress. The day I quit that job, I stopped. Every so often, if I'm out drinking or I'm super anxious, I might want a cigarette, but, for example, it's been... 8? months or so since I last had one.

...but dilaudid would come close. Just because oh dear god, if I had something like that I could take on the days where my legs hurt... my life would be so much better.