Trying to make plans with a friend from work, just to sit and talk and be able to catch up while not also working. And they say they're going to show up and drop by. And then you get ghosted. I know it happens, and I'm cognizant of it, but it's like, c'mon man, we work together, just tell me you can't come by. Lie to me if you need to, but don't just say nothing. I was at my uncle's funeral all day today(which by the way, going to a funeral during Covid fucking sucks and I don't recommend it for anyone at all. Avoid that if you can), and it just wouldn't been nice to see someone.
That sucks and it does nothing to stop making me wonder if I can't keep friends.
On the other end of that, there are times I get tired of saying hi to friend friends first. It's akin to being that person who always asks for RP first and is never often to be the one asked. It almost always feels like it's me. Maybe that's a selfish thing to say and it likely doesn't happen as often as I think.
But I do think in what hoped would be an extended weekend of RP and seeing friends I don't often get to see has been more akin to being alone on the couch.
And yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself and I know it.