May 5, 2019, 3:56 AM
  1. That stomach-in-your-throat nervousness of disclosing something important in a scene that definitely could put your PC in danger, to players that you don't know well, because you are being true to your PC and getting to do so in a scene where everyone is awesome, and so even though you are OOC fretting that you're maybe just annoying people, you push through it and they are gracious OOC and super fun ICly!

  2. Having something to disclose to even put you on the edge of your seat OMFG what if this goes south delicious feeling in the first place!

It's really been a long long time since I had a PC that had stuff like that that I had to ICly and OOCly wrestle with exposure because the risks are pretty high. It's nice to have that feeling of danger OOCly (since I will almost always side on the side of inclusion if it makes good IC sense) and just not knowing how people will react ICly. In a good way.

I could just hug and hug and hug both my PCs' secrets right now. I still have plenty of frustrations with the game I play sometimes, but I haven't felt this invested and involved in my PCs since RfK, which is a very big deal. So even though I'm still super nervous I am super happy too!