My ADHD fun today.
There are three post-its on my desk. They all have phone numbers. One has an asterisk to remind me...a thing?
I have no idea what the numbers are for because of course I did not write names, or reasons, or any words or letters at all. One just has an asterisk to signify it from the rest.
I do remember exactly what I was thinking when I wrote down each of those numbers though.
@Sunny said in MU Things I Love:
Friends who write descs for you are the best kinds of friends.
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@Rucket said in The Hockey Thread:
@Gingerlily said in The Hockey Thread:
@Rucket said in The Hockey Thread:
@Ganymede said in The Hockey Thread:
@Rucket said in The Hockey Thread:
I don't hate the Flyers. I just hate Philly. And Dallas. New York to a lesser extent. Sorry, but this is how it has to be in the NFC East. It just ends up bleeding into other sports.
Look, stop projecting your loathing for your own team and just recognize that Dan Snyder will never put together a Super Bowl team ever, all right?
Look, this is Washington okay? We'll never win any championships because none of our teams can go deep into the playoffs. Caps? Oh let's have an amazing season and then get kicked out in the second round. Nats? Great season, first round exit. Skins? Haha. Wizards? Yeah we'll get that 8 seed and then get knocked out in the first round.
But we might. <3. We might win two in back to back years! Who can say? (This is the funnest thread to notice after all the posts are ancient)
Yea took us getting rid of our best player on the Nationals to make a run, lmao.
I mean look the point is WINNER WINNER WINNER. Two SPORTS related parades in DC with confetti and everything. Who'd have thunk man?
@Rucket said in The Hockey Thread:
@Ganymede said in The Hockey Thread:
@Rucket said in The Hockey Thread:
I don't hate the Flyers. I just hate Philly. And Dallas. New York to a lesser extent. Sorry, but this is how it has to be in the NFC East. It just ends up bleeding into other sports.
Look, stop projecting your loathing for your own team and just recognize that Dan Snyder will never put together a Super Bowl team ever, all right?
Look, this is Washington okay? We'll never win any championships because none of our teams can go deep into the playoffs. Caps? Oh let's have an amazing season and then get kicked out in the second round. Nats? Great season, first round exit. Skins? Haha. Wizards? Yeah we'll get that 8 seed and then get knocked out in the first round.
But we might. <3. We might win two in back to back years! Who can say? (This is the funnest thread to notice after all the posts are ancient)
@Ganymede said in The Hockey Thread:
@Ghost said in Random Bitching:
Terrible? No. I think he's altogether a better hockey player than Crosby, but Crosby doesn't have a problem with playoff slump and has led the Pens to cups. Was Ovie worth the $124m? His regulation stats are great and he's put butts in the seat, though his regulation stats are on a downward trend, as well.
Justin Williams gets paid extra money because he performs well in the playoffs. Why shouldn't Ovechkin get mo' money if he can play well in the regular season? If you don't play well in the regular season, no one gives a shit about your playoff abilities.
Ovechkin averages well over a point per game in the regular season (1,035 pts., 921 GMs). He has won countless awards. In the playoffs, his stats are different, but are still damned good (90 pts., 97 GMs). Backstrom is in the same general boat: about a point per game in the regular season, but only a slight drop in the playoffs.
Last season, Braden Holtby couldn't save them. The year before, yes, the scoring was suspect. But in previous years, the defense was permitting too many shots (over 400 in 2 series is awful).
Frankly, the Capitals simply aren't good enough. That's it. Crosby and Malkin look like the saviors, but it's really about Murray, Sheary, Rust, and all of the other lesser-known players that made the Penguins champs again (I mean, do you know Nick Bonino is?). Who does anyone know on the Capitals beyond Ovechkin and Backstrom? (addition mine: this was posted in 2017)
Hahah okay I just realized this thread existed because it popped up again but C-A-P-S CAPS CAPS CAPS <3. It's okay to make mistakes.
@Kanye-Qwest said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
@Gingerlily said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
@Wretched said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
I self advocated! And it worked! I was a little blunt and firm and used words like 'unacceptable' and 'would like to be acknowledged as a partner in my mental health' and 'I don't feel like you are listening to me'. So now I will soon get non stimulant ADHD meds!!!
(because Kaiser hates cannabis and wont gimme stimulants lest I am 100% pee test clean. And as a former daily user who is overweight, tha'll take a bit.)
So, woo!
I have a medical cannabis card because my state does that. It's for migraines, but I've seen strains labeled as helping with ADHD and thought that has to be nonsense (I have ADHD and have been on and off stimulant medication since diagnosis in high school.) HOWEVER as it turns out the pot for adhd thing wasn't nonsense. There are a few that get me focused as anything, and can get a ton accomplished.
yeah it's not nonsense at all. I smoked pretty regularly for like 15 years, and during that 15 years I had no : insomnia, migraines, anxiety (the cause of the former), and didn't feel nearly as overwhelmed/scattered.
I stopped smoking and everything fell apart
Yeah I have anxiety with ADHD (and migraines) I think they are a frequent team. Pot helps with both to be honest, and I'm hoping it will let me cut down on the prescription meds required to make my brain even mildly useful.
@Selerik said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
Last week was... Different.
I finished my first month on meds for ADHD. Got my next month approved on the very last day. Tried a different pharmacy to save cash because I am teh poors, and they made me wait a week before they'd fill it. So, that was a week without the meds. I did that for decades, how hard could it be?
Turns out, having had a month with treatment made me acutely aware of how bad my symptoms are without it. There were two times in that month I missed a day, it wasn't so bad. Turns out, the meds are still low-key in your system the next day. After you hit 48 hours they're completely gone.
I'm now questioning how I even survived. Was I a functioning adult before? Or did I just happen to shamble through and flash the right gang signs to convince everyone?
It has been an hour. One, hour, today. That I have been at work. I have been mushing the entire time, watching anime, and reading emails.
Yet DESPITE that, I've also gotten more work done in this hour than I did all of last week.
I can't even at myself.
Yikes that is no fun. When I get my scrip filled late now I find that it makes my depression worse too. Annoying.
@Wretched said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
I self advocated! And it worked! I was a little blunt and firm and used words like 'unacceptable' and 'would like to be acknowledged as a partner in my mental health' and 'I don't feel like you are listening to me'. So now I will soon get non stimulant ADHD meds!!!
(because Kaiser hates cannabis and wont gimme stimulants lest I am 100% pee test clean. And as a former daily user who is overweight, tha'll take a bit.)
So, woo!
I have a medical cannabis card because my state does that. It's for migraines, but I've seen strains labeled as helping with ADHD and thought that has to be nonsense (I have ADHD and have been on and off stimulant medication since diagnosis in high school.) HOWEVER as it turns out the pot for adhd thing wasn't nonsense. There are a few that get me focused as anything, and can get a ton accomplished.
Stormbreaks land (Whitefrost?) is super duper far from Grihem's Point, like I am not even sure how that would work though I assume someone is!
I ran my first PrP tonight and it was so much fun to do and players had fun to I think and were so patient with me learning the ropes. I 
everyone involved, all the yay.
This is why I have the best job for ADD. The average kindergartners attention span is 7 minutes. Mine is maybe 8?
Doing many things but never for very long is a very successful day teaching Preschool.
ADD hyperfocus is how I get on the computer after work to 'unwind' and start off by reading some news or whatever and something makes me think of something that sends me into a Wikipediahole. I emerge six hours later, armed with nuanced information on totally random things that I will soon forget.
I spent an entire afternoon reading everything about Tunnel #3 (And then sidetracked to 2) under NYC. I don't even live in NYC, nor am I especially interested in anything involved.
I spent another entire afternoon on 'The American Sheep Wars" which I did not even know was a thing but now I do and in such detail!
It's actually not a horrible way to spend time, the issue is if I slip into a hyperfocus Wikipedia hole and planned to do...anything else at all. Because then I did not do that.
@Sparks said in The ADD/ADHD Thread (cont'd from Peeves):
So, the first ADHD medication trial I did (mentioned about two weeks ago in this thread) didn't do much for me; the ritalin was a really mixed bag. I was able to focus slightly better, but it gave me a raging headache, so we stopped fairly quickly. I was sort of disappointed and went, "Well, maybe medication won't do much for me after all."
But now I'm trying first adderall—tomorrow's the last day of that test—and then dextroamphetamine. And oh my god this is amazing stuff.
The first day I was taking the adderall, even on a minimal dose, I was able to sit in a 1.5 hour long meeting and actually focus for most of it; yeah, my brain still drifted off on some side track prompted by a random comment twice, but that's way better than the like... 12 times it would've normally been unless I was digging my fingernails into the palm of my hand under the table or one of my other coping mechanisms. Instead, I just sat there and listened and my brain stayed on track. And then I was able to go and start a task that I'd been putting off for like 3 weeks.
(And again, that was on one-third of a full dose. Full dose, I think my brain probably wouldn't even have wandered those two times!)
The downside is that the 5-hour adderall pills only work for me for 3 hours at a time. And the difference between those first three and the last two is stark. Plus, I get a kind of unpleasant headache for the last three hours.
Luckily, there's a very likely explanation for this: adderall is a mixture of dextroamphetamine (which hits quickly) and levoamphetamine (which takes longer to release). So the first three hours is usually the dextroamphetamine, the last 2-3 hours is usually the levoamphetamine. The fact that only the first three hours are effective (and that I have a headache for the last three hours) is a pretty common sign that dextroamphetamine works well for my ADHD, while levoamphetamine is a thing that is Not For Me. So starting on Wednesday, I'm dose-testing just plain dex, and we'll see how that goes.
At any rate, the reason I post this is that if you are ADHD—even if you think you have 'sufficient' coping mechanisms to function in daily life—if you are offered to do medication dosage trials, I really suggest that you do it. Because, yes, I had sufficient coping mechanisms to function as an adult (and a senior engineer), so I could've just kept going. But now I've seen how brains are actually supposed to work, where I can just... pick a thing and start it, much less do so without ending up thinking about three other things along the way, and it's amazing.
(Though I'm told the euphoric feeling of "holy shit I can actually do things what is even happening" superpowers does eventually fade, even as the productivity and focus remains.)
Late to this thread, got distracted HAH. But Adderall is what I take too and it works miracles for me. The euphoric/manic feeling does go away with time but I take medication breaks occasionally and that brings it back. Its basically a lifesaver. I think I'd do better with plain Dex too, I don't need the racing heart/physical symptom boost that the levoamphetamine adds. I'd love to know how it goes.
@stabeest said in What drew you to MU*?:
I've been involved in IRC roleplay since I was about 16 years old. I spent years playing on play by email games and forum games as well. I started RPing because I love to tell stories. I have since I first started playing with Barbies and acting out elaborate fantasy scenarios with them. I guess I never really grew out of playing pretend, but until I discovered the internet, it was all just inside my head or written down in these notebooks that I would FILL with world-building notes.
Then I discovered people telling stories on IRC and the rest is history. It's been twenty years now. I've taken breaks here and there for sometimes years at a time, but I always come back because there are always stories that I want to tell, characters that I want to explore.
I found MUs thanks to my best friend who knew I needed an outlet and thought this could be a good one. And it absolutely has been, no matter what has happened. I've met some wonderful people. I met my partner. I've told some stories that have been just beautiful. While some might find it terrifying to think of moving into a MU without any friends, I find that exciting. New people mean new stories to tell. That's all that this is about for me.
Man I was also into my Barbies way later than most kids but they lived ELABORATE COMPLICATED LIVES. I think mine were more 'Beverly Hills 90210' than high fantasy but I was 11, I had time to grow.
@dreampipe said in RL things I love:
I just completed a two year long journey of getting my GED, which involved a lot of things I just didn't think I was ready for. The work needed to play catch up, having to kick myself into a proper schedule for classes, acquiring the work ethic to see it through to the end. It was scary, very scary.
For the first time in a long time I feel like I'm a functional person. I feel like I've proved that to myself. I love that. I love that a lot.
Congratulations, that's really awesome. You are entitled to feel proud of yourself. Super proud. Celebrate!
@kanye-qwest said in Constructive (keyword) Criticism of Arx Systems:
So thanks for the idea of this thread, but we get goodfeedback talking to players directly and aren't really getting the kind of suggestions we'd hope for. If you have feedback, take it through the official channels in game or on github, we are abandoning this MSB-staff-interfacing to focus on what we think is important, and fun.
Back to your regularly scheduled posting.
You guys have been such active participants in threads specifically for trashing your game, I have never been able to decide whether that is admirable or just nuts. Definitely drop it for what's important and fun. This can't possibly be either.
Their forums were significantly more hostile than MSB's, imo. It pretty much was a half dozen game owners that loathed each other posting regularly.
This conversation is so old but I hadn't seen in, and have to comment because man, I know/knew at least three of the most vocal of the 'arguing admins' and it was just ridiculous and predictable but also hilarious.
My favorite TMC forums thing was the ENDLESS GRUELING debate about what games can call themselves RPIs and why. So many pages, so many feelings, and nobody cared but them.
Palate cleanse if you haven't seen this. I know he's not a 'new artist' but MAN.