Best posts made by Macha

I am saddened by this, for all I am not a theatre hardcore fan. (I enjoy it, but not as much as others in my family - and you know how when you're forced to listen to things again and again.. you resent it? Yeah)

That said. Into the woods was one of the first shows I got to see my sister in with her adult voice. Doing the witch's "Stay with me" - It still chokes me up to think about it.

ETA: I just texted her lyrics, and she told me she can't, she's too sad. I bet there's a ton of people singing his songs tonight.

@betternow hard agree. My boy is the biggest sweetheart, but gods forbid he even /look/ like a pit bull (He is an american Staffie, so considered a bully breed). But my therapist will go haaarrrrrrd to make sure I get to have him with me for emotional support. He will write letters any time I need.

Well, I have choices to make.

I have job I could start tomorrow. Money's okay.
There's a job starting on the 20th - Just have to wait for the background check to come back, and gods know there is nothing interesting in my background. The pay is better, and slightly more in my current field versus straight up CSR.

I have a second interview this afternoon for another job, that I would likely like best - great pay, neat benefits beyond the norm, etc.

These are good choices to have to make, but.. choices and executive dysfunction

@betternow This one hits hard. I saw the re-runs on Nickelodeon, and didn't KNOW it was a re-run. So my parents were thrilled to take me see the Monkees for my first show ever.

I'm so glad he went on that last tour, and really embraced the love the fans of the Monkees have always had for him.

@alamias I need you to tell me it's okay to hand in my 2 week notices right now lol

They're up my ass, wanting me to give a detailed accounting of every minute. I also have to acknowledge/like every message they send me, now.

... it's like they don't realize that in Teams, a message that has been seen has a little eye next to it on the right.

@alamias I don't /think/ Gany is messing with me, but right now work is lying to me up and down, to the point I am second guessing everything.

...fuck. Gaslighting. I wanted to think better of them. I need to stop doing that.

@boneghazi I am stealing Jazz cabbage for my own use. And I am fascinated by the growing process.

I woke up this morning, feeling like utter trash. My sugars were double what they usually are (and without any real reason, I had been sleeping, I hadn't eaten anything unaccounted for.. so what gives?) I sat up, and the room spun. The high sugar spins were in full effect.

So I texted the boss, told him I had to try and get my sugars down (test for ketones every time I had to pee, etc) until things normalized. It took 3 hours for my sugars to get them down, and then get them down further so I could eat. At which point, I sat down for a minute...and passed out. Woke up at 1:30, and told the boss that yeah, sorry, don't think today is going to happen.

The man knows I have not been to the doctor. This is NOT something I go to the doctor for - unless they tell me to come in, or the ketones test pops. (because that's bad) But he asks me if I have a Dr's note. I laugh. He asks me if I can go IN to the dr's office and see the doctor to get one. Now, my county is spiking with the new variant, even if it wasn't some whack ass fool's dream to think I could walk in and get to see someone. But what I do have is a note from my dr from earlier this month, explaining in simple ass terms what it means to be a T1 diabetic, and how I can need various things for hyper or hypo sugar levels... including rest.

So I emailed that to him. Suck my nuts, dude. I'm quitting on Friday.

ETA: Running a low grade fever. It all makes much more sense now (I had to find the thermometer)

@faraday I always find it so interesting how DIFFERENT people with ADHD can be. Like how ADHD folks are way more likely for addiction. (looks at cousins, hmms)The only addiction I have is caffeine (possibly because of the ADHD, who knows) . But so many of the 'untreated ADHD' things mentioned apply to me.

I know adderall/whatever will not be a silver bullet to kill the problem. But combined with all the coping strategies I've learned in my life? I'm super filled with hope.

@tributary Oh, I planned on taking it, like clockwork (yay for having to take meds already at those times of day).
But I just want to know from those in the trenches and front lines...and not from a Dr who has never had this issue.

Well, Celexa for the anxiety and hydro something or other for when I hit panic attack levels. If that levels out, we'll try wellbutrin for the ADD issues.

Two full on panic attacks today. Hands when numb, lips went numb, was sure I was going to suffocate. Whee. I am not so sure the Celexa is working.

I take my showers at night, and try to prep my work bag (drinks, making sure I have my short acting insulin and tylenol in there, etc.) I try to pack a lunch the night before, but on nights when I'm just too wiped out, I have a stash of frozen dinners I can toss in my lunch box.
I pick out what I'm going to wear the night before, and pick out my jewelry beforehand.

@Lotherio I was insistent. I wanted one in my old place (even less space) and just never got to it. But I'm excited by all the options.

@Auspice Super crispy and delicious. Not a soggy bit to be found, not at all greasy.. so good.

@Auspice https://www.pinterest.com/pin/81064862029140707/sent/?fbclid=IwAR20_jljSeAh9eqFaXvN0EL8vbjHese1gEESyvunulzziMYjEikDSI6AY3k

Compliments of the air fryer guru I live with.

I love my job, but it doesn't pay nearly enough, so now I'm stressed out about scraping a budget to live on for the next two weeks.

@Derp Sadly, I have to look for something that pays more. I can't afford to live with what they pay me, let alone get ahead and save.

@Auspice I remember when a co-worker helped me find out how to know if something was kosher, since he kept it. He totally was eager to tell me reese's peanut butter cups were Kosher.

I never even heard of pomadoro until now.