@jinshei All the ones local I see require about 8 million hoops and do more reimbursement than help. The vet I have him scheduled to see apparently will work with you with payment plans, and I know if all else fails, my friend will let me use his care credit, so long as I pay it off.
I just didn't need all the bricks to fall on me at once.
Not doing well. No motivation, no energy, and depression like whoa. Not eating, not sleeping well, the pain is not terrible, but not great.
Oddly enough, I have not gotten a migraine to the point I can't see or I'm throwing up since they terminated me on Thursday.
@jinshei They still want to do an ultrasound and a fine needle aspiration. But of course, right now? I'm unemployed, and can't afford the ER Vet's estimate of between 1,000 and 1,200 dollars.
@reimesu Well, they wrote my final written for having sugar crashes. Because I had three of them, while trying to adjust from the training schedule to the production schedule. I did not sign it, on advice from my diabetes' doctor, instead asking for a conference call between HR, the doc's office, and myself, and then I would sign it. They never followed through with that part, though I followed up with the request again a couple of times.
I do know they have WAY more than 50 employees, and it would have been a temporary accommodation of the level my neuro asked me to be forgiven for. Also, they were just bought out by a MUCH larger company a month ago. We'll see what the lawyers say.
@solstice Well, they've already terminated me rather than give me the ADA accommodations temporarily.
HR complained about the letters from the DR taking the full 14 days I'm allowed to have to gather everything. Then they complained that there was no duration/freq listed - for ankylosing spondylitis and Migraines. One hurts me every single day, and the other? Unpredictable.
But I have a meeting with them today about accommodations. Hahhahaha
ETA: They told me that they could not meet the ADA accommodations requested. That I would only be able to miss one partial/whole day a month, no matter what. Even though they were informed by my neuro that it was a transition period while they get me a new med
Roomate has a new kitten, because a friend had one brought to her (she has cats) but could not house it even over night. Roommate wanted kitten eventually so... 
I'm worrying now. I've noticed after a certain point in the day, even with a 'breakthrough' dose after my lunch, that by the end of my work day I am scattered and unfocused AF.
So my job - they sent me a think center (All in one computer/monitor POS). I've had nothing but issues. they kept trying to blame my internet - so I upgraded the hell out of my internet, and started using the same tool IT does on my personal computer, so I can watch for discrepancies. Well, even IT the other day says that he thinks the issue may be the unit.
I had issues Logging in on Monday. Bitlocker wasn't letting me in, and I KNEW I was using the right password. I call the late line, tell them why I am late, and text my sup. He submitted a ticket for me.
Today, he tries to tell me he adjusted my clock in time to the time I took my first call, and NOT the time I spent with IT trying to fix things. Uh, no. I was here, ready to work, and made good faith attempts to be able to do my job.
So I am now going to email myself EVERYTHING (such as my job trying to refuse my ADA letters demanding accommodations for me, because they judged it by 14 days to the day they told me they needed them, but they didn't give me the forms/requirements that day to give my drs. I pointed out I had a meeting with HR on THIS day, and therefore should be allowed fourteen days from THAT DAY to get them the letters, because they hadn't given me all the information I needed). They're trying to find a reason to fire me, and I am not going to let them until I have a new job (And after everything with Logan, I'm already tight with the budget, and can't afford otherwise)
@too-old-for-this My dad was also never home for YEARS after my mother passed (I was 4 when she passed), I honestly think if she'd lived, even just a handful more years, I would have been far better off, in so many ways.
But, as a female, they just wrote me off as lazy when I was a shining star in class, and never did the homework.
I seriously wonder if going back to college classes now on Adderall would be different.
ETA: Stupid spelling mistakes in the wee hours.
I have been fighting a war on multiple fronts. The migraines, the migraine meds, and getting a refill for my Dexcom (sugar monitor for the diabeetus for those who don't know).
I ordered the refill of supplies 2.5 weeks ago. I've called my dr's office multiple times, making sure they're sending the clinical notes, the prescriptions, etc. Then they tell me they need the pre-auth from the insurance.. they'll put it in urgent, because I'm on my last sensor, and my transmitter is about done, too.
Well, my sensor and transmitter died last Friday at like 1am. So I was almost a week without, My dr's office realized . I was without, and arranged for me to come pick up one of each.
I go over on my lunch, got bitched at by a Karen in the parking lot insisting I move my car (which was well between the lines, because she had fucked up HER park job, she screamed she couldn't get in.) So I back up into a handicapped space, to let her move. I pull in, make sure I'm well between the lines. I run in, pick up my stuff, run back out.. and she's blocking me in now, 'waiting for her elderly parents'. I tell her to move, or I will demolish her car. She moved like.. a foot. It was enough, I got around her, head home.
I pull onto my street behind a sedan.. who then pulls up along the parked Fed Ex truck to chit chat. I honk a couple times after a couple minutes, because now there are cars behind me. He doesn't move. So, I notice there's nothing in my way, and I'm AWD so fuck it. I go up onto the curb and pull in front of him. We're talking I purposely buzzed the tower, and stopped so he can't go. I let the other cars behind me go around, and make my way home.
Start to put my sensor on, and the alcohol pad package bursts and throws alcohol into my eye. I get everything on and syncing up.. and sugar crash. BAD. Like, it's hot out, so I didn't notice the first signs of feeling hot, etc.
So yeah. can this day go away now?
In case anyone else needs this today. 
@tooters I know these feelings. I honestly think if I had been diagnosed before I was well into adulthood, EVERYTHING would be different now.
@derp Apparently went in his sleep, in the Domincan Rep. where he was filming.
My ADHD meds have helped me a good bit, but the migraine meds have yet to really work. Of course, it's actually an anti-depressant.. and I'm hitting a deep depression, and I'm worried I should call my dr and tell them this.
@runescryer Well stop it. Don't listen to the brain weasels.
@faraday I feel you very well expressed a lot of my thoughts. If I had a bunch of people over to my house, and someone started cussing at me and insulting me... they wouldn't remain in my house very long. They'd get asked nicely to cut it out, and after that, they'd be shown the door.
I have taken part in the hog pit before. I am not saying I never said anything untoward about things. But I guess I always felt there was a line you do not cross, and I tried not to cross it. I was honestly surprised at some of the things people said, accused Gany and Derp of, etc. I get heat of the moment (I was very heated at times, but I had it politely suggested to me that I keep quiet, so I did), but some people just wouldn't quit.
I am glad Farfalla's ban was lifted. Which I know comes across strange, since it was my reporting her messaging me after I asked her to not, that got her banned. But as I previously stated, I didn't think it would result in a ban. I am by no means tossing Gany under the bus for doing as they did. Gany knows I was surprised at the action taken.
But you know what? I was also relieved. Relieved someone looked at the screenshots and believed me, supported me. I have come to know first hand, that in some circles, it doesn't matter if you have the proof. It matters who is involved.
I've been finding that while it is quieter here, currently? That I am seeing a lot more names pop up, some of which I have never or rarely seen. That it seems a.. I can't think of the word at the moment, but almost like a healthier mindset to the place.
