Posts made by Macha

@herja I have never heard of a state without inspections. Wow.

@derp What state is that, denial?

So today I spoke the Reg. manager. the story on why my car failed changed AGAIN.

So I have insisted that I go to a different location, for a gratis re-inspection. Because this is some ridiculous bullshit.

I can not fucking win. I had the car looked at by a mechanic buddy (He works for DOT, not a commercial mechanic, so he can not do inspections), before taking my car in.

My emissions test looks good on his system, and that passes fine.

Tells me my ball joint is a little loose, but we can replace it in a couple months, shouldn't fail it. I should be good to go.

I take it in this morning, and spend over 2 HOURS there, to be told it failed for tie rods and ball joint and a light out... but not which light.

They took my sticker and did not offer the 10 day temp they are supposed to. Sooooo I called their Customer Service line. The CSR calls over there, and they give her a sliiiiiightly different story. That they didn't fail for the ball joint (it's on there as a reason) and that there is just a lot of 'play' in the steering.

So they basically told HER that they failed me for.. nothing? a light out, but they couldn't tell her which one (it's not a headlight, I would have noticed). But they told her that they can't offer me a 10 day extension because my car didn't fail due to emissions. And the way it's worded on the DMV website, I am not completely sure of my stance.

I am super pissed.

@kk I have always been one of those taught to 'tough it out' kid. I hate it. I hate how much the pain limits me every day. And yet, I refuse to just give up. At this point, I am going to have to smoke a little bit, every day, just to get through the day, So I am going to have to learn a new line to walk.

@kk Let's just say I was experimenting, and tried too much today. Yeaaah. It's a good thing I am waiting on a IT fix. Don't know if I could do my job, rn.

@hedgehog Well, I spoke the Rheumatologist a couple of hours ago. They spoke to the Neuro, who has thankfully said MJ would be fine.

So now I will be referred to an office that handles such things, since neither of them do. But the Rheum gave me a phone number to call to tell them that he was referring me, etc.., but he can't remember who the office is (he got the number from another doctor in the office) I call it, and it's a voicemail. But it does not state the office name, or anything. It's a standard automated VM message. So I don't leave a message,

I call the Rheum office back, to try and find out.. but now I need to wait until tomorrow. Blah.

ETA: Most NSAIDS are out - I'm on a steroid. I need to be off tylenol because there are signs it could be affecting my liver, and my headaches may be because of using it so much. I have not tried kratom, and do not think I would. As for delta-8, I have tried it, but I have found the gummies are hard to manage the dose just right.

So, spoke the Rheumatologist today. He says he doesn't want me to smoke pot, because it may interfere with the neurologist's 'baseline assessment'. I said fine... how are we going to deal with the fact I have several pain causing diseases, and NOTHING TO TAKE FOR PAIN.

(I am at about an 8.5 on a 10 scale. Rapid weather changes, some storms rolling through the morning, etc etc) Sitting in my gaming chair, trying to relax and be still, actively hurts.

I have taken nothing for pain in almost a week. I am 2 weeks away from my biologic refill, which means the pain is only going to get worse.

I just want to be able to function. To work, to try and live, without crying. (I've done that multiple times today already). The Rheum is going to call the Neuro, to see about the pot.

Fuck this. Fuck all of it. Fuck my stupid, broken body.

When your IT shit keeps breaking down, and IT quits for the day hours before you do, then your supervisor wants to come back at you for not being on the phone...

@ganymede The issue with that is that although it's legal in my state, non-medical dispensaries are not set up. Do I know a guy? Yep. But I need sativas, because I am going to need it during the day, and well.. it's not like he's got that sort of detail (at least he's never shared it before)

And if I am using it every day for pain? It will get WAY too expensive, and medical MJ would be at least partly covered by insurance.

Update: Rheumatology office called. Told me to follow the Neuro's desired plan (AKA no tylenol for a month, which leaves me with no pain relievers at all) and that he did not feel Medical MJ was something to be considered at this time.

Me to the nurse: Okay then, ask him what the hell he wants me to do for pain, so I .. oh, I don't know, can live and function and work? (I did not raise my voice, or get a snarky tone. I am well aware the nurse does not make these calls. I did say it in a joking sort of way, because I poke fun at this shit to keep my sanity)

Nurse proceeds to tell me not to yell at her, and that she doesn't make the decisions and etc etc. My roommate is staring at the phone in disbelief at the way this woman is talking to me. To the point she spoke up and said "She wasn't yelling, she's trying to find a way to get through her damned day!" ... I'm still waiting on answers.

So the Rheumatologist who wants me to stop taking acetaminophen, referred me to a neurologist to try and see about my headaches.
That was late Friday.

They called me this morning, and by some miracle, had an opening in the morning. Like.. wow.

I had to reschedule my endocrinologist appt, but the endo can get me in in 2 weeks. The neuro would be in June.

ETA: Neuro ran super late.. and did nothing but poke at me and make me fill out stuff no one looked at and most of the answers are already in their file. I can not take tylenol for a month.

which leaves me with no pain relievers, other than MJ. This will be fun.

@hedgehog I did call my PCP. I don't have the space or know how to really grow my own.

On a whole other front, I hate feeling like my wardrobe is boring, and seeing super cute clothes, but I am not a stick figure, which is what they show a lot of these outfits on, so I never get them. I know, I know, fuck what anyone else thinks, but.

@tributary Hey, School/Office Supplies are also exciting.

@hedgehog Apparently this office does not do it. I had brought it up previously. I just don't know if they have to refer me, or what.

Because synthetic opiates are out.

My rheumatologist is the nicest guy. He actually WANTS my opinion and input on my treatment. He actually CARES.

But I hate going to see him, because the exam to test my joints is just poking at me and holy hell I hurt.

@misadventure Right now, my problems more lean to too much 'noise' leading me to feeling overwhelmed and super irritated.

@wretched I feel this, on so many levels.

At first, the meds seemed to be helping.. but not enough.

How do I explain it?

@solstice Eff that shit. Make that money, Trudy!

I think Staffers need to play without bias, but people need to play WITH Staff without bias, as well.

I think a lot of players need to remember Staffers are people with jobs, and other things that happen.