Posts made by Macha

-sigh- When you keep meaning to call the doctor about trying a different med for ADHD.

...and forget. Again.

@tnp I remember seeing her hundreds of things, it seems like...

But I totally became a big fan, when she did Dancing with the Stars, and was hysterical.

I feel this - I wear anything from a woman's 'fitting' t-shirt in XL, to like XXXL - depending on the bust size. Men's? L - 2X. And don't even get me started on dresses and leggings, or my lounge pants.

@aria said in Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab:

@reimesu This reminds me of my review of their Jacob's Ladder release, which is one of their more common Yules.

Skin chemistry is weird.

Man, you're not just whistlin' dixie. I've had so many scents I've made go great for everyone BUT me.

As much as I adore my dog, and would love to be able to take him to work with me, as an American Staffordshire Terrier, people are often afraid of him ... even though he's just a big ol' love slut.

If I could be sure he'd just hang out in my area with me and my one teammate? He'd so be there. I would get him his own new pet bed to go under the desk, stash treats and things for him in my drawer.

He comes to all my work meetings now, anyhow. And if he doesn't show up, my boss' boss pouts and calls for him. He's the 'team mascot' now, apparently.

A few years ago, I had a sleep study done, because I don't sleep, and when I do sleep, it's shitty sleep.
They discovered I was waking up every 15 minutes, with something I was told was limb displacement disorder, and my sister the nurse calls Periodic limb movement disorder. - it is similar but separate from Restless leg syndrome. Apparently, you flex your ankles, hips, knees, etc. I know I tend to point my toes like I'm a ballerina.

It's getting worse. They put me on meds to help me sleep and it's worked pretty well for 3 years-ish. Once I fall asleep, I tend to sleep pretty well.. until recently. If I try to take a nap, etc, I wake up knowing I've been moving/am moving my legs.

So I checked into it - turns out that it is 'influenced' by caffeine, ADD, SSRIs or antidepressants, - all of which factor into my life. But I've actually been cutting /back/ on my caffeine, so I'm puzzled.

Sorry for the short story. I'm just tired, and I hurt, because I'm moving in my sleep in ways that do not help my other medical conditions.

@aria I'm sure you've heard this before, but a little bit of vaseline on the inside of your wrists will help make it laaaaaast.

@tek There are a few scents of theirs I still go back for, either because I'm too lazy or haven't figured out the combination for them to make myself.

I'm a huge fan of the RPG ones: Rogue, Bard, etc. as well as the alignments. Good, Evil, Neutral, Chaotic.

When your character keeps doing something, and it both makes you wince and laugh repeatedly. Because it is something you would never do, but lord, is it funny to think about.

That moment your character is just... flowing.

And then there's the snob in me, that will be like... "No punctuation? Are you ill?"

@rightmeow This is probably going to make people roll their eyes, but... praise. Honest to god, sincere compliments on... something.

My boss right now is the best boss I have ever had the fortune to know. My first day was a dumpster fire. I forgot my lunch and sugar crashed, and he didn't even make me feel like a dumbass.

He finds a way to say something complimenting me every time I have a review. It can be something tiny, or something bigger.

Today, we went over bonus review checklist. I got stupid sick back in November and missed 4 days. I missed a day when my grandmother died. So according to metric, I BOMBED for the last quarter in that category. But my boss? "But then you've got your exceeds expectation in consumer communication. I never worry about you there, you're good with explaining everything to the consumers. So you evened that out to meets expectations."

It's not huge, but he always finishes on a positive.

"Hammerin'" Hank Aaron, 86

As someone who grew up watching baseball with my dad, even if Hank was before my time.. this still makes me sad. Man grew up with Jim Crow laws, and was just an amazing ball player despite all the hate.

@buttercup I don't know you, but gods I wish I could be there for you. If just to have someone there. I know how scary it can be, waiting for tests.

@ifrit I feel so called out by this.

I do this all the time, when I'm working. I will spend hours doing... what-the-fuck-ever it is I do, and then spend the last few hours of my shift speed burning through files. He's very concerned that I will burn myself out lol - apparently he doesn't understand this is how I've lived my liiiiiiife.

I'm the asshole that will call people out for not returning their carts. "Really? Just gonna leave it there?"

On another note - massive sugar crashes in the middle of the night /suuuuuuuuck/. My boss got a text left for him that I'm not sure was coherent, telling him I may not be up to working today. (I'm not. I'm maybe awake a half hour at a time). Because yes, Boss, I LOVE sugar crashing and making myself useless for a whole day. /s

@tek makes squeeing sounds and grabby hands Oh gods, I so want a puppy. Logan would love to be a 'dad'.

@greenflashlight Oh no, as a general rule, my boss is AWESOME. He also knew that this time of year Dec/Jan for me is brutal, depression wise. He knew it, he knows it. And when my depression gets worse... everything else starts to spiral, too. The ADHD, the anxiety, and so on.

He also knows I'm trying to get an appointment to try something new, so.. yeah. I gave him the sarcastic line when he asked. He knew it was coming. But he /had/ to talk to me, his boss insisted.

Today, my boss called me out on my ADHD. It's worse in the mornings, it always has been. He knows it. But his boss didn't see me in one of our programs handling cases yesterday, and got up in his face over me. (I was watching mandatory training videos that I hadn't had time to get to before the holidays) So yeah. "You need to focus better. IS there anything I can do to help?" Yeah. Tell my PCP to give me an actual ADHD med?

When you have to talk to the delivery driver, and he apologizes for the order being late. No big. But no one told me there was a very big part of my order missing. A large part that I compensated for with insulin.

So now I get to spend the next handful of hours or so, paranoid and afraid.

Whee.