I find that for whatever reason, players tend to reveal more of their PCs and be more open and giving when i'm running a scene for them in ways that they typically are not in acquaintance RP.
Since that kind of thing is kind of what really keeps me going MUSH wise, I can often sustain that desire to RP/create stories through STing alone, and have. STing is something I really really really miss.
Do you enjoy this group and do they have good snacks? I might be willing to try and merrily go along with something that isnt totally my cup of tea if I enjoyed the company. Otherwise I would nope out (nicely). No shade at math for fun or whatever but it just isn't my bag in a RP game tabletop.
I used to think that if I waited my turn patiently, complied as best I could with the stated rules, or was as generous as I could be with my time and sharing plot and other things with others that I would receive reciprocation or it would somehow come back to me in rewards or whatnot at some point.
It didn't/doesn't.
Then I believed that either there was something intrinsicly wrong with me or that I was boring/yucky/whatever OR the other people might just be kind of turdy people.
That's not true either. (though I know some people DO think I'm boring or yucky, it's not like I don't have people I feel that way about too, so that's fair--but in general, nobody cares! And certainly I have run into some turdy staffers/players in my time, but that's not the majority of people).
I think now that most games are just not set up for the individual attention or small group attention that a lot of us crave, and because online RP is this very interesting mix of internal/external (at least for me, I love thinking about my PCs' backstory and hopes for the future and I'm pretty sure I'm not unique in that regard though who the hell knows, maybe I am weird?) it's easy for me to have expectations that when they go unfilled it's easy to get discouraged/resentful.
I think while I am a lot less tolerant of overt time wasters (if there's a culture of people being truly openly mean on chan/public in a game that's ooc, I leave without fanfare. If it's very apparent that literally no one but a chose/connected few will receive answers/scenes/ect from staff or a fac head, and interaction with that is very important to me, then if I can't get enjoyment after setting that aside, I leave. Same thing if there's some kind of staff decision policy wise that I just can't deal with.)
But have learned/am still learning how to gracefully hold others with an open hand, enjoy the RP they do give me, try just to be okay with sharing what I want and will have fun in the moment sharing and expect that they'll just go back to ignoring or not choosing to interact with my PC after that, and I also try to speak up and be sure to tell people what I enjoyed about a scene or their PC when it comes up in my mind so that maybe they get a little unexpected positive feedback too.
I no longer really feel a drive to "fight" to "fix" something unless I'm asked to, either online or RL. It definitely cuts the stress level a lot, and I'm happier in the hobby, though it's not like I do not experience downs like most people do, I definitely do and struggle sometimes. But I guess I no longer try to make anyone or any system a scapegoat for that discomfort/hurt--I can see that it's more environmental and that makes it easier to just let things go no harm no foul than it used to be.
Just started watching Dark (german tv series but on Netflix), it's pretty good so far.
I have had a bad headache (it isn't a migraine, or at least not like any other migraine I have experienced) since Wednesday. I can take enough medicine to make myself function at work but otherwise I just want to lay in bed. I am pretty sure it is the seasonal temperature change since it feels like someone is driving an ice pick up my nostril through my sinuses and into my brain, which makes me LOOK even grumpier than I already am because I end up doing the one eyed squint/lip curl if I'm not very conscious about it. It is super annoying. The only upside is that my big fluffy cat wants to cuddle me all the time right now even though it's my husband that is her Special Person. And my other cat just wants to sit on my head and try to electrocute us both by attempting to gnaw on my phone's charging cord.
Fucking double shift crazy ass work day from hell with extra side helping of hormones but...bubble tea delivery makes it a little better. Especially with strawberry AND mango popping boba.
@Arkandel I would be intimidated by the salespeople at the high end store men's section, except for the experience I had taking my eldest son to get his first suit. I was so worried he would be looked down on or treated snobbily (his mom is a fat middle aged broad in tees and jeans then and he is trans) but my god was I so very wrong. So much so that i had to go hide so i didnt lose it and embarrass my kid by sobbing at how seamlessly and respectfully and amazing the people that helped him were without even batting an eye. I saw them do that with everyone that came in while we were there. So esp. if you have not really shopped for stuff like that in awhile, I think it's worth it to go to a place that has people on the floor to actually assist you, explain the deal (new promotion, what you are used to wearing, what the expectations are, what your budget is) and then have them help you.
The women's section is much the same way, even though asking for help made me so nervous and fearful of judgement I thought i was going to puke. Same thing, no judgment, a lot of help, suggestions of things I never would have picked out myself but really worked, and totally kept things in budget and versatile.
@Lisse24 I would love that too, but judging from the shit I am seeing even on "the liberal" side, I'm expecting things to continue to worse and get uglier between now and November 2020. They don't even bother to repackage or rewrite stuff from the 90s! 
Well, it's not like the darlings of conservative and Christian talk radio don't show up at glitzy dinners for RT and other orgs, since at least the 90s and probably before. That's been hidden in plain sight for decades even when Russia was the bad guy.
@Lisse24 only one? A shitload of people make $$$$ off it. Not sure anyone truly benefits fro. It except for the hosts and their financiers.
@insomniac7809 well, you know. That Hillary Clinton, she sure gets around.
Honestly, while I am sure there's a possibility it could be a conspiracy, anyone who thinks that also negligence and incompetence on the facility's part wasnt just as or more likely clearly hasn't ever worked in or around corrections.
When atmospheric and weather conditions are just right in the valley--tonight I get to hear a free Gipsy Kings concert by opening my windows, courtesy of one of the big name winery's concert series. Most of the time we can kind of hear it but not clearly--but tonight is awesome.
To all the mean customers today, fuck you, I've got my rainbow unicorn tumbler at my station today and am cute and caffeinated.
I think for a lot of the banks around here because people cant sign contracts until 18, and opening an account requires that, people under 18 cannot be the solo owner of an account (have to have an adult jointly on it) but then at 18 the other adult is removed.
@Tinuviel yikes, at 16? Here is is 18. Not a huge amount better but a bit of extra time!
@Tinuviel we started out by giving them a rechargeable Visa gift card, and they had to show us a track record of the spending before we would load more (unless it was $$ from other sources than us). Online banking is pretty cool, and two already use non bank spending apps. So there are tools...but yeah I do have one that is going to have some learning to do. I guess that's the nice thing about the training wheels checking/savings account.
My parents would not discuss finances or money at all, except for taking my earnings and distributing them back as they saw fit. It led me to making a lot of stupid decisions when I got the fuck out of dodge. So we are trying to give them a good foundation before 18 and it then being out of our control. We have even discussed the predatory cred card stuff that targets 18-22 year olds. I am sure each one of them will make plenty of mistakes, but I'm breathing a bit easier.
@Tinuviel it's pretty amazing! We converted their old kids' bank accounts to teen savings/checking, I'm taking them all in to do the Signature cards, they've already set up direct deposit for their paycheck... I will admit to being a little misty eyed.
All three of my teens started their part time jobs today. They all got a few nibbles with their apps but ultimately I guess they decided they wanted to work at the exact same place.
Which is a) convenient and b) kinda cute/sweet but I kind of feel sorry for the manager. 
I have found that drinking pickle juice helps when I'm depleted and having a lot of calf cramps. It doesn't happen too often these days. And I really think it's gross except during that time, in which case I crave it like whoa and I can chug it like lemonade. However, there ARE potassium supplements!