Best posts made by RightMeow

@Auspice

I fixed it. YOU'RE WELCOME

@Macha

It's secret santa all year round with as @Auspice said, themes. They just sent out names for this one. It was like legos, cooking, etc. Things. They ask you spend about $20 per round you sign up for. Then you just send people gifts. You get gifts. It's all positive and happy.

@Auspice

This is not the first time 'or made it worse' has come up in regards to my char. I should really look into that. I mean, I won't, but I probably should.

I feel like I hyper-focus on all the things I should not. Then lack focus on the things I should. Also, I feel like I'm very intuitive to people around me, but totally oblivious to things online. Like oh, I offended you online - I thought you were just being funny. Or oh you were being funny, I thought you were being serious. This causes a lot of anxiety and miscommunication to happen or wrong assumptions to happen (by myself too not just others I own it). Because it takes me 1000x times the effort to communicate without body language and physical tells. Yet in life, I'm like use your words not just your actions to communicate.

My super power is my own brain's double standards.

I remember when you would write a desc and then commission an artist to draw it. Do people still do that? I miss it. I LOVED to see how a person took a desc and some personality questions and drew them.

As for realism. Meh. I don't really care about PB. Sometimes I will look at them to see what the player thinks their char looks like in their brain. Mostly, I jump on a wiki to look at known information to see what I can draw a story with. Or what color eyes/hair they have to add into my pose.

@Ganymede I thought that exact thing. Then I was like, probably not the take away I was supposed to have, but I still want it.

Hi. My name is RightMeow, I am a monster.

I bake my mac and cheese and put cheesy panko on the top. The noodles do not get crunchy (how does one do that in a milk and cheese sauce?) but the top has some crunch to it. I am not sorry at all. Not one little bit of sorrow. -- I also add Tabasco

@Derp

Take your upvote

@silverfox

You wouldn't hug me during the event and free hugs were handed out. Also you missed the swooning.

Dumb question....

What exactly do ADHD meds do? I mean for you, when you take them. I'm kind of anti-meds unless I'm going to die, but I'm curious if maybe I should be more open to it. Does it help? How does it help?

Also.. I really hate when I'm trying to make a point (please look at ANY forum post here by me) and I get lost in my own brain/thought process white space and I'm pretty sure I stopped making the point; but I'm still rambling about the point and then I'm like I should delete that. But then I think if I delete people are going to think it REALLY bad, so I leave it. However, then I obsess over it. Then I worry I offended someone. Then I worry I overshared. Then I....

Anyone else?
Just me?

@silverfox Who knew one book would do this?

My psychologist and doctor think I have it, but I have wonderful PTSD which also does things, so we are still figuring. My sister 160% is sure I have it. Like off the charts she thinks I'm textbook of it.

I spent my entire life hearing how I was lazy because I couldn't focus. Or how I was cold because I couldn't draw a line. How I was a flake with plans because I'd lose track of time or how I was obsessive because I was hyper focused. I spent a lot .. A LOT of time just feeling like I was broken. Like a puzzle that was missing a piece and so I came up with coping skills to put my smile on and paint myself 'normal'. This also triggered anxietbecause it goes against the very nature that I have to deal with and... it's been a trip this year. I decided to deal with mental health at the start of 2020 and.... look at 2020.

So sorry guys, this might be my bad. Haha... heh..

I'm also sure I don't need to apologize but I just feel like I have to apologize for the space I'm taking. To not take too much up. Not draw too much notice. Partly for reasons that got me a PTSD diagnosis (CPTSD to be accurate) and partly because I've been trying to cover all these THINGS that I didn't understand why I was doing them or why I couldn't use my willpower to do it. Or just change. Or, etc.

So thanks for the past day or so.

@silverfox How about when a person randomly makes an OOC comment in pages... then makes it an IC book.... then spawns finding all the books...

Not that it would ever happen...

@Aria

I literally had that same comment when I was venting about someone on this topic. I mean, different state, but still. I was like.. you've never lived there?!

@silverfox

I don't discord. Much to many annoyances when I respond to that. It's not me being shady or anything, I really don't use it. I don't use many out of game communications with people

#ParanoiaWillDestroyYa?

I went out to social. Yay. I saw a friend I haven't seen in a bit. Yay. We walked around outside. Yay. We tried new foods. Yay.... then the sunburn.

Socialize they said, it'll be fun they said. --- IT BURNS. Socialization burns.

@ganymede

(cancels her trip to come visit)

@SuperiorHuron

I mean... I feel like it's not a fail. You used it right. I mean if you read it as sarcasm. Thanks a lot.

It's teaching proper emoji usage. Yeah... that's it. It's fine. Perfectly acceptable.

Sorry, I didn't want this to be a 'no you are wrong' thing.

Thank you for those that read my questions and gave answers.

Again, remember there are people behind screens, a pandemic and lots of RL going on, being kind is good.

Thanks again for the answers.

@silverfox said in Health and Wealth and GrownUp Stuff:

I've laid pipe

(insert childish laughter here)

Sorry you are having 'a day' though.