Best posts made by RightMeow

@Auspice I'm more interested in the socks. What socks did you get? Also I want to go to this. Will they send me the socks and books I mean... >.>

@Kestrel I get this.

It's a form of therapy to literally toss out the past. It's like setting the future for something better and greater. I'm glad you are enjoying the process.

@Macha

Don't be disappointed in yourself. You have to give yourself time and meds only help parts of the situation. You still have habits that you've crafted and those were your coping mechanisms. You just have to find different ones that work for you.

Don't be disappointed. You are trying. That's something to cheer on and pat yourself on the back for.

Years ago. I meet this person that does tabletop gaming. I'm super excited because NO ONE in my friend group at the time had a clue what I was talking about and didn't want to. I met his fiancee who was pregnant with his kid. He was just straight up a nice guy.

The other guys at the first session sort of stared at me, but like others, I'm kind of use to it (not in a vain way. I got boobs man). No one did anything. The next session they were cool. The DM gives me a retainer that he plays to assist me (I know, I know). It was through a few bad rolls on my account, etc.

He asks me over to do a side quest (stop judging me).... nothing happens we just RP. Nothing flirty (I'm always super happy and hyper it does tend to come off as flirting). We are good. I get along with his fiancee who doesn't game, but you know it's still all good.

Two months later, same kind of invite. I'm like sure. It's fine. I come over and he pounces. Like he put me in a situation, I couldn't get to the door exactly and he was like here's my dick. -- I got out of it relatively unscathed, but it made me stop TT'ing for like ever. I started a few months ago with my guy pal and I will only go if he's with me.

So yeah, people can be creeps and some play the fucking long game.

@Goblin
Right?! I mean I'd understand if I was getting it from a state I wasn't in, but I am here. HERE. Comeon. Also, I need it for all the things. MuttermutterEnhancedIDmuttermutterPassportmuttermutterStupidDLStar

@Auspice

I got my reddit Santa Gift person!!!! I've been shopping since yesterday. I'm SO EXCITED to send a gift to someone and I wouldn't have been able to if you didn't tell me about it!!

On a sad note, I missed ornaments and cards. I've never used reddit (don't lynch me bro), is there a way to set up something to alert me when there are new gift exchanges?

Are there more coming? I need more Christmas/Random Gift Giving in my life.

4 managers (in various roles) and 1 over manager with a manager over that.
1 manager (me) has a set days off because they have family needs to take care of that the other three do not. Those needs dictate a tendency to have Mon/Thur be days off. Unless a two week notice is given or at least a one week to figure things out.

Today

Overmanager: Did you notice all of you have Monday off?
Me: Nope, it's my regular day off though.
Overmanager: This needs to be fixed. I'm taking the day off too. So that leaves no one here.
Me: Hmmm

A couple hours later:
Me to Manager 2: Did you notice we all had Monday off?
M2: Nope, I'm not coming in. I'll turn my phone off.
Me to M3: Did you notice...
M3: Nope, I'm working too much this week I need to take it off.
Me to M4: Did you notice...
M4: Oh, did they tell you we have a mandatory corporate thing on Thursday?
Me: No
Me to M4: Did you notice...
M4: Oh, yeah. Ugh. I just have to cut hours. I'm not sure I can swing that either.

Me changes schedule and calls Overmanager. Response:
Yeah, take off Wednesday (that I already figured out) hangs up on me
Me: Why thanks, Me. I so appreciate you going out of your fucking way to help save my ass from over over manager. Why thank you so much.

Hour later

Go in to adjust written in schedule times and pause. Stare at said schedule. Stare longer. Feel the fury.

While I am altering my FUCKING LIFE they each have THREE days off. I have one. ONE. Because I'm probably going to have to come in on Thursday. HOWEVER, even if that were not the case... THREE FUCKING DAYS OFF when I had two and it was up to ME to figure it out and do it?

SO MUCH VENT.

I might start hating people.

@Ganymede

I am one of those annoying optimists IRL. Like my FB is only about rights for all people, loving each other, being kind, and supporting people without judgment.

I wouldn't say I was naive. I have no doubts about people, I just like to try to expect the best in them and believe it's there. It's becoming a struggle and I'm annoyed at this. I'm annoyed that I'm picking up more of the annoyance instead of 'shining through it'. I'm just soooo frustrated with it.

But not the hair... NEVER the hair.

I use to love kale in all forms. Until I started juicing. Forgot my kale juice a might longer than I should have. Decided to drink it anyways. Now the smell of cooked kale and I gag.

I catch myself on EVERYTHING. At work I have to carry a phone on my belt and I have caught it on more things. I'll be walking and then just stop because I got it caught. Belt loops. Shirts. You name it. I'll also trip over imaginary items. Choke on air because breathing must be hard or something. I play where the hell did that bruise come from all the time. I feel for that.

On the teeth. I have dentist fear. No reason for it. Just have it. The idea of being knocked out makes me rather uncomfortable too. So I had to have my wisdom teeth extracted last year. I did it under a local. That only slightly worked. Then they realized my bottom two had a 'wicked curve' that was 'not normal' but decided hey let's pull them out anyways. OMG. I feel for y'all.

I should go and read while I eat. That never occurred to me. However, which of the three books that I'm currently reading seems the less scary?

How to Unfuck your life
Healing the Child Within
The 4 Disciplines of Execution (which is a business book not a murder book)
Or like one of my random fiction books on my bookcase that just sit there sad because I'm reading these sorts of books.

I feel like maybe no to the book thing now.

When you have spent the last holiday/work week/whatever running around and doing things, while you pray for sleep. Then you have two blissful days off. You've told everyone not to contact you. You move forwards and stretch out to sleep. Realize all the housework/LAUNDRY that you have to do. Come to the realization between dr appointments/chores/people outside of work wanting attention - you have just as much to do on your weekends .....

Fuck.

@Tinuviel

I would wear that. I just started therapy (not the thread on this so I won't linger on it) and OMG. Hello issues. Ooooo.. I'd wear a shirt that said that too.

@Sunny - I'll just DM you everything my therapist tells me to do and the books she recommends. Sliding in your DM for mental health. Awww yeah, it's (mental) business time.

@tek

First you ARE NOT and let me repeat that, ARE NOT useless and worthless. I'm sorry you feel that way though. I wish I had answers for you, but I like to believe there is an opportunity out there. Is there a research position maybe?

I will send you all my good thoughts.

@Derp

Let me answer for her. Yes

@Derp

I see what you did there. I can't like that because that's just rude for me to agree you are in the wrong relationship. I mean, I see the trap and I still almost fell for the bait.

@Auspice

That's my every day. I just don't want to decide food. On the flip side, I'm always down for whatever is suggested.

@Auspice

And option 4. Someone is probably having an affair with them right now.

@Tinuviel Maybe, but better than being paranoi--wait-- are you /that/ person? Is this a setup?

I once opened a door into my face and gave myself a black eye. Seriously. I'm just that lucky in life. So we are out at a store and someone is looking at me. I'm with my boyfriend at that time. They finally ask how I got a black eye. I tell them that I opened the door into my face. OMG. The look they gave him. They pretty much asked if I had a safe place and wouldn't believe it actually happened.

I also play the 'huh where did that come from' bruise game. Especially when my iron is as low as my vitamin d (which is always severely low). Last time, I made up a story about pirates.