After reading the Apology to Darinelle thread over a couple of times, it had brought up a point I've mentioned here at various other times. Partially because it's the hill I'm likely forever going to die on, and partly because it's apart of my interest when it comes from how we operate in our daily lives as human beings beyond the confines of a computer and then within it. Makes me think I should been a sociologist, but then again, I doubt there's a lot of money in it.
So while I've re-read that thread over and over, I keep coming back to the same issue I think this hobby really has. Or has had and will continue to have. And maybe this is just indicative to anything on the internet where people generally overall have less of a filter than they would were it otherwise. While I'm loathe to quote anything Anonymous has said or done, their tagline of 'we do not forgive, and we do not forget' seems to ring so true and so hard for this hobby that I can't help but wonder if this is just apart of the standard daily life of your average, run of the mill mush player or something else. I'm not a psychologist or sociologist to give a more educated opinion on it. But it is something I've wanted to have a conversation about.
What is it about mushing, or RPing online that makes it so easy for us to screw up? Sometimes badly. And when it does, why does it often seem like those people find themselves blacklisted from the hobby? To note, I'm not defending the actions of anyone, nor am I saying whatever someone did was so bad or so horrible, but when I observe how we interact with each other in these instances, it's not very often we're able to move past them. Or if we do, it's simply easier to ignore someone's existence. And it's not just mushing that I see this in. Playing anything in a collaborative fashion online you see it. Thought perhaps you see it less on actual video games because you don't see those same people day in and day out. It always seems a touch more personal in mushing.
So I try to sort parts of it out. Is it because mushing tends to attract people who are socially damaged or stunted? Possible, but I feel like that's doing a disservice to the people who are perfectly functioning human beings who don't have any mental or emotional baggage. Is it simply the anonymity that the internet brings that brings out the worst in us? The list goes on, and the factors involved could be many.
But maybe I see a lot of the negatives because of how this site functions. Because while we all know what the Hogpit is for, there are times I take a step back and wonder, "Holy hell, we are a bunch of hateful and spiteful people, aren't we?" I wonder how much of it is truly honest, how much it is chest thumping, and how much is back-patting. This isn't so much a plea to be better to each other, because most of us are at the age where that kind of thing goes without saying.
What I'm asking, after that long-winded opening is: have you forgiven someone in this hobby? You don't have to be great friends with them now, but at least to the point where there's no animosity. Indifference, perhaps. You don't even have to list stories or names or anything.
Or are you just not the type? There's nothing wrong in that, inherently. Once you're screwed, fuck that person, no matter how much they may change. They did you dirty once, so screw them and the horse they rode in on.
Or have someone did a friend of yours wrong, and mob mentality takes effect?
Or were you the person that did the screwing up and how hard has it been for you recover from that? Did you have to hide who you were? Play a different game with a different user name or email?
There are so many different possibilities that I won't bother listing them all down, but I'm curious to see the responses and how they vary. If they vary.