Someone in my immediate family is ill. Unfortunately, its terminal but chronic until that point. They also have taken a similar approach. They don't want to discuss it. Presence is enough. And really for everyone involved, I think its better this way. The end can't be changed, so it just feels like dwelling.
Everyone deals differently.
I should have reminded those entitled bitches sitting next to me while I saw A Cure For Wellness that a special place in hell is reserved for people who talk in the theater.
I'm not suggesting forcing people to discuss something -- it's more... don't just sit in the room and pretend they're not even there while texting your buddies about lunch plans and whatnot.
Made a new attempt at mac an cheese tonight. I had...most of the ingredients. I mean...you can supplant milk for evaporated milk and and heavy cream for half and half, right? /Right?/
I should say I put this kind of punishment on myself, but there's a kind of odd annoyance when you eat something, and unsure if it's good or not, you keep eating it.
MUSH-free since 02/2017
This may or may not change in the future.
but there's a kind of odd annoyance when you eat something, and unsure if it's good or not, you keep eating it.
Boy do I now this feeling. I've been experimenting over the past year and such with cooking new stuff and sometimes it's like, "did this turn out all right or is it a horrible fucking dumpster fire? eh, whatever. om nom nom."
P.S. I also put pictures of my culinary acomplishments on Instagram, now.
Yeah. Come at me.
"Excuse the hell out of you. He's a bag of dicks. I'm a carefully curated box of cocks." -- to @GirlCalledBlu upon being misrepresented.
but there's a kind of odd annoyance when you eat something, and unsure if it's good or not, you keep eating it.
Boy do I now this feeling. I've been experimenting over the past year and such with cooking new stuff and sometimes it's like, "did this turn out all right or is it a horrible fucking dumpster fire? eh, whatever. om nom nom."
P.S. I also put pictures of my culinary acomplishments on Instagram, now.
Yeah. Come at me.
HIPSTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER!
@Thenomain said in RL Anger:
I wrote this code yesterday. It works. I can no longer figure out why it works.
One of my earliest code projects, with my best friend when we were kids... we had a naming scheme for our global variables. (This being in BASIC, where you had very strict naming schemes for variables.) We discovered if we assigned a value to one of these global variables, it would break the program.
We searched the entire codebase, and confirmed we had never used that particular variable anywhere else. And yet, assigning a value to it anywhere caused the program to fail.
We finally just added comments declaring the variable 'the God variable' and not to be touched, and moved on with our lives.
@Thenomain said in RL Anger:
I wrote this code yesterday. It works. I can no longer figure out why it works.
// Never touch this again
On another code-y thing, I missed our sprint planning meeting yesterday so I guess I gave up the right to complain, but I came in today to so many ill-defined PBIs (product backlog items). yay, not like I wasn't already struggling with my projects.
Still dealing with migraines.
Sometimes I'm not aware how bad they are until I have to leave my apartment. I keep my apartment dim (not dark, just lower light) and I can move at my own pace. Don't have to actually speak to anyone.
Once I'm out in the world, the nausea, vertigo, pain... all of it just hits new levels. I feel like I'm drugged or something. Harder to walk. Hard to form words and sentences. I was afraid, when I picked up the meds from Walgreens that the doc prescribed, they'd think I was drunk or high.
Got an MRI scheduled tomorrow and a referral to a neurologist. I just hope to have this squared away soon.
I'm sorry. I know migraines suck (MRIs - I dislike those too). I was once walking with my friend and I got hit by one. I covered my eyes, doubled over and threw up because we were outside. I'm pretty sure my friend thought I was dying.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all of that and I hope they can adjust your meds, or find a cause to it when you go in for the MRI. You might want to see if they can drug you with something if you are having sound issues with the migraine.
I lived with migraines for almost a decade. Then, thankfully, it turned out that in my specific case the fix was really simple: a minor dietary change.
I feel for those who have migraines that aren't so easily fixed. 
Oldest brother called to wish me a happy birthday.
Oldest brother apparently does not understand the meaning of the words "do not speak to me unless the first words out of your mouth are "I'm sorry."
@WTFE Yeah, no definable triggers for mine. Medication for them made me feel worse. Most of them made gave me medicine head which incapacitated me in a bad way. I usually count on 2-3 migraines annually that are so bad that I vomit and then feel better a couple hours after that. Rest of the time I describe them as really shitty headaches that can be pushed into the background with copious use of painkillers. There's a story about how my migraines are caused by evil spirits but it's not true, really long, and goes nowhere.
@TwoGunBob said in RL Anger:
@WTFE Yeah, no definable triggers for mine.
That really bites for sure. I know how crippling mine were when they fired up. Not having any way to control them would be really terrible in the long run.
My trigger turned out to be trivial: I'm a "reactive hypoglycemic". My migraines were caused by a roller-coaster ride of waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much blood sugar alternating with my body over-producing insulin and bringing me suddenly to waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too little blood sugar. It took me two weeks of dietary adjustment effort to knock what used to be horrible things I got multiple times a week to something that happened in far milder form maybe once a month. And then that frequency dropped to the point that right now the last time I had a(n incredibly mild) migraine was about three months ago. I haven't had a serious one in so long I'm not sure I could even identify the year in which it last occurred.
Keep looking for triggers; don't give up. It's life-changing when you get rid of these fuckers.
Medication for them made me feel worse.
Ditto here. I was given meds for mine. I preferred the headaches. And the flashing lights. And the nausea. The meds were AWFUL.
Part of why I was given stronger anti-nausea meds is I've barely been able to eat for a couple weeks, due to the migraines. At best, it's been 'I'll eat this small thing because I know I need to.' I've tried to counter-balance it with a lot of tea, but... yeah.
My doctor wanted to make sure I was eating, so that it didn't make the migraines worse (being anemic and prone to blood sugar crashes, this is a valid concern). What I appreciated about it, truly (other than the fact that the injected anti-nausea med worked so well I had my first full meal in a couple weeks after)?
I'm overweight. And almost every doctor I've had in the past and told 'Yeah, I haven't been able to really eat much' (such as when my gallbladder was failing) would come back with something along the lines of 'Well you could do to miss a few meals.' 
Saying the quiet parts out loud since 1996.
I'm overweight. And almost every doctor I've had in the past and told 'Yeah, I haven't been able to really eat much' (such as when my gallbladder was failing) would come back with something along the lines of 'Well you could do to miss a few meals.'
God, this. I barely eat. Seriously. I barely eat. My husband, while way more active than me, is average size and so help me, he eats easily 6x per day what I do -- easily. I am that person who has a slice of pizza, or 1/3 of a normal sized sandwich when we eat out, and farm the rest out for leftovers.
Yet my ass, it is large. No, it is not because I just eat pizza and crap. (We do that about once every 2 months.) I drop weight like mad on Atkins, but that shit's expensive even if you're cooking everything yourself and getting less fancy meat and whatnot. (Hilariously, the week on that I had huge amounts of bacon daily I lost 12 pounds and it stayed off for six months... somebody has to explain that shit to me because seriously that's freaky.)
Oh fucking well.
@surreality said in RL Anger:
(Hilariously, the week on that I had huge amounts of bacon daily I lost 12 pounds and it stayed off for six months... somebody has to explain that shit to me because seriously that's freaky.)
New studies are showing that animal fat isn't all bad for you. If you're not used to eating tons of meat, bacon can sit in your stomach for a while, making you feel fuller. Lots of potential reasons.
Also depending on what study you read, the problem isn't meat and animal product. The problem is in grains and refined sugars. The fact the corn syrup is in a lot of stuff you wouldn't think is also where it comes in. Sugar is in a lot of our foods. A lot.
When it comes to bacon I"m more worried on the the sodium levels.
I think if a doctor told me I could stand to skip a few meals, it would be the last thing that doctor said to me. As in, I'd go to another one. I tend to gain and hold my weight because my sleep patterns are screwed up, I skip meals all the time and other things. So it's not always about the fork to mouth issues. Ugh.
Someone in my immediate family is ill. Unfortunately, its terminal but chronic until that point. They also have taken a similar approach. They don't want to discuss it. Presence is enough. And really for everyone involved, I think its better this way. The end can't be changed, so it just feels like dwelling.
Everyone deals differently.
