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    Posts made by AeriaNyx

    • RE: Good or New Movies Review

      @Ganymede I have seen both of those and read The Killing Joke as well, and I think... It is difficult, because it doesn't feel like a comic book movie. I think it is a thought piece in which a scenario is posed and it is an effective jumping off point for people to discuss societal issues, the responsibility of government and the tribalism that we, as a species are prone to, and where that takes us.

      I don't think the movie intended to have a message -- I think it was trying to get people to come up with their own. Or at least start talking.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Good or New Movies Review

      @Thenomain Ennnnh, I don't really agree with his review, but I am fully aware that it is a totally subjective thing. I think he relies on the viewer having seen Taxi Driver and the King of Comedy, which I haven't, though I do admit, if I had, I might have felt differently. I don't think he really gave any recognition to the depiction of mental illness at all, and without that context a lot of it might seem dull or toothless. I dunno! It's different for everyone. I wouldn't say I LIKED it, but I respect it more than that dude. 😄

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Good or New Movies Review

      After taking time to process, here is my take. I will put in spoiler tags for things that are spoilery.

      My opinion is that this is not a movie with a point of view. Well, let me clarify: It is not attempting to persuade the viewer to its point of view. This is not, as some have said, a war cry for the Incels, a touchstone for entitled white guys to feel more justified in committing acts of violence because the world was mean to them. Anyone who walks out of that film feeling that way was already in that mindset when they went in.

      I think it did a ridiculously good job at evoking the reality of being mentally ill. There were certain shots, wordless tableaux that so evoked what it feels like to be depressed that it was... both profoundly freeing and just bleakly despairing. As someone who struggles with depression and anxiety I felt seen and understood. Let me be clear, however, at no point in the film was the character of Joker, in my opinion, a sympathetic one. There is an innate desire in most people to root for the underdog. And in this film, Arthur Fleck is the personification of a no-win scenario made flesh. I wanted to empathize with him, but I couldn't. And I think that was purposeful.

      Joaquin Phoenix's performance was indescribably good.

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      His ability to laugh in a way that is clearly sobbing... I can't even. In the movie, Arthur has a condition as a result of head trauma that makes him laugh uncontrollably at inappropriate times. If he's anxious or angry or sad, he laughs. Joaquin Phoenix makes the emotion behind this demented laughter tangible. You can feel the choking anxiety when he's on stage trying to do stand up -- his grips his chest and throat like he's having an asthma attack. When he's dealing with grief and isolation, his brows furrow and the cadence of the laughter is clearly like sobbing. It is... I felt it.

      I didn't feel like a comic book movie. Despite the characters present, the location of Gotham, it felt way more real than a comic book movie. It was 100% more Chronicle and nothing like Man of Steel or Batman v Superman. There were times when I was like 'Well, clearly that wouldn't really happen...' and then I sit and think about the shit that we see on the news and it just hit me that this movie is way more grounded in reality than I am at all comfortable with.

      This movie is deeply uncomfortable. It is not fun. It challenges you and makes you think. I strongly caution people looking for a fun night out to consider something else unless you're prepared to really think about some heavy shit afterwards. This could be a stellar date movie, if like... you're both woke as fuck and are down for deeply complicated conversations about uncomfortable shit.

      There is so much to unpack and talk about, but I really need to actually get some work done and not spam this board all day. But man. If you've seen this movie and wanna talk, PM me. There is so much going on.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Good or New Movies Review

      I am still processing my feelings on Joker. It was really really really intense. It was not the usual point of view/protagonist driven story. It was very specific and very bleak. But it was as good and powerful as it was uncomfortable.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: RL Anger

      I am so so so so irritated and I need to vent and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

      My stepmother had a liver transplant like, 2 years ago, because she has cirrhosis, as had numerous people in her family. Her mother, several siblings, etc. She drinks CONSTANTLY. We go out to dinner, and she has at least 2 Dr. Pepper and double shots of Crown Royal. The day before my sister's wedding, at the not-really-a-rehearsal dinner, she had -4-. She was forcing more shots on my little brother's girlfriend, who repeatedly said no, though the drink was ordered (My little brother took it). The day of the wedding the Stepmom started drinking with her sister and best-friend at 11am. The wedding was supposed to start at 6:15. We had no idea where she and dad were, the groom was waiting up at the altar for more than 25 minutes, until, at last, she showed up, drink in hand, to wobble down the aisle to her seat. After the ceremony, she hectored my little brother into giving a speech, then me, and while I was trying to give a speech on the spot, she's like 'Tell them who you are!' 'Tell them where you are from!' 'Tell them what you do!' and I'm like aaaaaaargggh. I finally looked at her and said, "I know how to talk, Myra.' During the cake cutting she wouldn't shut up until my sister was like 'This isn't about you right now, mom.'

      And later, the owner, the chef and the bartender of the venue had to physically take her keys away and call her and my dad an Uber. She then proceeded to tell me how no one in her family has ever been a drinker and how humiliated she was by my dad's excess. While weaving side to side, stepping on her oxygen tube and generally just being a total wreck.

      Fucking family.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: MU Things I Love

      @Herja That was seriously the most epic thing ever! Start to finish I had an absolute blast and am so so so glad I got to participate! I am also really excited to see how the outcomes play out. I am still full of immense squee.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: MU Things I Love

      Man that was SO MUCH FUN! I love Arx, I love the players are willing to try new things and jump in with enthusiasm. I love the fact that I can experiment with so many things and that there are so many receptive folks.

      Tonight's event was ridiculous amounts of fun, and I hope that it is something I can try again sometime.

      I have been having the best time lately. Between writing clues and running PrPs... I'm just really glad to be on this game.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: General Video Game Thread

      @Roz That article read as though it was lifted wholecloth out of my husband's exit interview when he left BioWare for Visceral in 2011. I had to keep stopping to rant every few paragraphs. It makes me so incredibly sad to see what it was to what it became. EA is the WORST. The absolute /worst/. Granted said husband left EA-lite to work for EA for another 2 years in a worse situation and on a shittier game, but... bleh. Just... it makes me sad.

      In other news I am freaking obsessed with Fire Emblem. Finished my first run in 113 hours, Golden Deer FOREVER. My second run through I'm going Blue Lions, but I've already recruited Hilda and Raphael. And probably Marianne because omfg Mercedes voice bugs the ever-long fuck out of me.

      posted in Other Games
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: What do you call fizzy, non-alcoholic drinks?

      @Dreampipe horror

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: What do you enjoy about STing?

      @Goldfish That is where I live and die. I love big epic combats, but I also love the small lived in moments. The love and anguish of loss. I try to make what I do personal when I can.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Wildly Out of Context

      @Rinel Related:

      Bilabial fricatives are the BEST.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: What do you enjoy about STing?

      I love how excited people can get. The knowledge that they are having a blast and that I've been able to pull them into the moment is really validating. Seeing them guessing what is going to happen, or planning ahead is great. One of the nicest things anyone ever said to me, what that I make these really realistic NPCs that people fall in love with only to destroy the players when something bad happens to them. That made me beyond happy.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: GIF Uno (not for the GIF haters)

      salt

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: The Work Thread

      So I find myself feeling resentful after getting a pay increase with no promotion. This is odd, because hey, a $1.30 more an hour is awesome, but at the same time...

      I don't know why I wasn't promoted. My performance review was fairly stellar, all exceeds expectations with 1-2 meets expectations. I was told I was the only member in my team that met all of my recorded goals from the previous year. I have all the skills necessary for the next level and a good number of ones required for the level past that.

      I've never been in trouble or been spoken to about my performance. All feedback has been glowing. And yet. I've been rejected for internal advancement a few times, and each time my feedback has been 'Your answers were all good, but not quite what we're looking for'. So. I'm frustrated because I don't know what to do with that feedback.

      Then there's the fact that a contract employee was making $2 more an hour than I was. She's since been hired into a Lead position, while another former contractor that was hired on full time and is a level below me is making the same hourly rate.

      I am annoyed and frustrated, but at the same time I don't want to be giving the impression that I'm entitled/whiny/etc. Pair this with the fact that I was out sick due to a medical issue on a super critical week and have since been excluded from meetings, and I am hitting a nice level of constant anxiety.

      My plan is to approach my supervisor and ask what I need to work on to qualify for a promotion in the next round... but bleh. Feeling low.

      depressed

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Dead Celebrities 2019

      @ZombieGenesis Awwwww! Boooo. She was amazing!

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: The Work Thread

      That feeling when you've been out sick for a full week at a really critical time, but you totally couldn't help it, but you still feel crappy and are consumed with the growing fear that people think less of you for having been away, and that you'll never be able to make up ground loss for being sick and taking care of yourself.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: Dead Celebrities 2019

      I am trying to summon some empathy for the loss of life. I'm coming up empty. Oh well.

      posted in Tastes Less Game'y
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
    • RE: MU Things I Love

      That moment when you get an FI that lays out that you are playing your character exactly the way you intend to. Like, how rewarding is that feeling? It is just the best.

      posted in Mildly Constructive
      AeriaNyx
      AeriaNyx
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