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I like the idea of focused settings, but I would prefer something with a bit more bite. Like everyone is in the same street gang, or the same mafia-style organization. Because crime is fun.

Argh. I'm glad I know myself well enough to know I'm in the beginning of a self-destructive downward spiral of depression...

but also annoyed that I lack the ability to do anything but try to minimize the damage. It would be lovely if I could stop. At the very least I can control myself enough to handle my hygiene and not miss work. So there's there.

Welp, I won't be buying any products this dong contributes to. Thank you for making me aware of his existence.

In all seriousness, congrats on finding a place to live that you love. It's not something that you even think about being 'important' until you actually do find it.

My condolences. Please don't trip over any hipsters.

@Meg Just convince your Bostonian friends to come as well. Problem solved!

Update: A 40 hour a week shift at my site is opening up in two weeks. Now is a good time to apply if you're interested. I mean they have spots open all the time, but being able to carpool two nights a week would be great.

I know this isn't the thread for it but... does anyone here have any experience with shikibuton beds?

I am seriously considering going that route and would love opinions.

On topic: FUCK AIR MATTRESSES.

I'm not gonna lie; I love vicodin.I don't take it because I don't want to be permanently on meds, but when I take it? I feel sane, normal, rational, and able to function without excess energy or sluggish depression.

@Darinelle It's split up in such a way that I work three swing shifts and two graveyard. So five shifts, six days.

@Darinelle I used to do volunteer work but now I'm working six days a week, and I have to spend my single day off the following ways every month:

1. Driving 4.5 hours there and back to visit family once a month.
2. Cleaning and doing all my grocery shopping once a month.
3. Taking 'voluntary' classes for my job once a month.
4. Going out and enjoying myself once a month.

It doesn't really leave many gaps for proper charity work unfortunately.

It's nothing to be ashamed of. Just associate with people who will be tolerant of your quirks. People who you enjoy being around. Not just because 'you want to be around people' but because you genuinely enjoy those specific people's company.

There is no normal. We don't all have to get married, or have kids, or do X and Y. For years I chased after that until I finally figured out who I was and what I really wanted. Knowing that enabled me to act, and for the first time in a long time I can say I don't hate myself.

So... you really need to dig deep and think about what you want. And then focus on getting it. I say this as someone who has the exact opposite symptoms from you but the same problem; I am far, far, far too conscious of the emotions and body language of others and overreact massively to perceived intentions and subtext in what people are saying or doing. It's equally damaging in the social arena.

@Cupcake Maybe. I usually do a full wipe every time a new game comes out, myself. Not that I RP much anymore, but still.

It's pretty easy to change who you are in MU*dom, @Monogram. Just don't tell anyone who you played before and start fresh with your new outlook and strive to present yourself in a positive manner. There is no need to tell anyone who you played or who you were. I'd guess that a majority of us were asshats during at least some point of our past.

Self awareness is part of it but even with medication and treatment many of the behaviors and thought processes are still there. It is a permanent struggle, at least in my case. I work hard every day to not manipulate people and to always show as much empathy as I can. I massively overcompensate in some cases but I would rather be too nice and considerate than not enough.

People need to find their own reason. 'Anywhere but here' has always been a good qualifier for me, when I consider a move. Being in a bad situation and needing a change or just wanting to get out of the boonies is probably the main one, regarding moving to any major city.

Why would anyone move to Austin? I don't know. It's a pretty cool place with jobs everywhere and low rent and it is at least 5 to 10 years away from having the bubble burst? It has a strong geek culture and the hipsters are mostly faded away after their 2010 to 2015 heyday? It is a hub of both tech and political types? I don't know. It's better than living in a small town or with the parents, I guess. The only downside is that they still haven't gotten rid of all the lawyers.

About two weeks ago I pulled or tore a muscle in my back. I don't know which. It hurts when I move a certain way and sleeping can be rough.

BUT THAT ISN'T THE PROBLEM. The problem is every time I start to sneeze, I get a small twinge of pain in my back. And it stops the sneeze. I haven't sneezed in two weeks. I miss sneezing so much. I get so many 'almost sneezes' a day now and its like sex without orgasms.

I don't recall that she said it was a matriarchy or that women were favored over men.

Just that women were the ones engaging in this particular profession for religious reasons.

It all feels rather... SJW to deny the possibility of gender-favored roles in cultures. It doesn't place women above men, it simply gives them a favored profession via religious beliefs.